lol well the Anxieties™ would say failure but that's boring so: I am paralyzingly afraid of heights! It is almost 100% a subconscious physical reaction which makes it really funny sometimes because my whole body just! locks up! and won't move!! and i'm like "this is so dumb I KNOW i am fine" but my body's like "DANGER RED ALERT DON'T MOVE THE CLIFF CAN'T SEE YOU IF YOU DON'T MOVE"
both of the best occurrences of this happened at Arches Nat'l Park with my fam where I:
hiked to Delicate Arch, stood out in the photo spot, came back to the bowl and had a snack/water break and then, when we were ready to head back down....had to take off my shoes and crab walk barefoot until my body decided it was fine actually
same day, we went to Double Arch. Double Arch, as you may note, is not actually very high! I saw a great photo opp, darted forward with 0 thought (as you do), got two (2) feet off the ground. And Froze. spread eagle on this wall. Two (2) feet off the ground. 24 inches. My sister saw me, clocked what had happened, and both of started laughing hysterically while a poor woman beside us watched in mild horror
30. what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?
seeing my plants grow!! it's silly but I really do make myself take little walks around my apartment when I'm stressed and just Behold the Abundance!!! it works!
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The Monsterfucker Rec List: a Haven Discord Production
Featuring works for Critical Role, The Locked Tomb, New York By Night, The Untamed, The Sandman (Netflix), and Voltron
You can find the list in the link above (to a google doc) OR under the cut. The google doc has pretty formatting and a gif version of the banner.
Critical Role
Pact Boon: All Inclusive Stay by Demenior
E, No Archive Warnings Apply. Fjord (Critical Role)/Original Male Character(s)
“The Mighty Nein are Fjord's best friends. His family. His favorite people in the world. He'd die for them. He spends every waking moment with them.
They're smothering him.
Thankfully, Fjord can use his new relationship with his sugar dragon for a private getaway."
the taste of salty summer brine by mischiefseven
E, No Archive Warnings Apply. None
"By the third dream where Fjord opened his eyes to a murky, muted underwater vision, he… He wouldn’t say 'was used to it,' or 'knew what to expect,' but it wasn’t surprising anymore. The specifics were surprising, but he was aware by now that he’d gotten himself into something deeply fucked up. He still wasn’t sure what his patron would ask of him next, but he was as prepared as he could be, given the circumstances
So he thought."
Consume.
The Locked Tomb
open up all the faucets (be fruitful and multiply) by NotAFicWriter
E, No Archive Warnings Apply. Gideon Nav/Harrowhark Nonagesimus
Having crawled out of Hell more herself than ever, Harrow finds a mostly-restored Gideon and the two finally have that long-awaited discussion. Many mouths are involved, but very little talking is had.
N.Y. By Night (Web Series)
Blow out the Fire by ladyofrosefire
E, No Archive Warnings Apply. Reyes Malcolm/Margot “Fuego” Walker
After Rey suffers a bad night and a frenzy brought on by hunger, Fuego pays him a visit.
The Sandman
dare to eat a peach by tharkuun
E, No Archive Warnings Apply. Dream/Hob
“Hob had looked into a dangerous mouth of hungry fangs, had felt flayed open and spread before the gaze of innumerable eyes, had felt the insistent pressing of uncountable hands upon his body and Hob had, briefly, thought, Oh, yes please. For all his horror, his stranger had still been beautiful, and Hob could never stop wanting him.”
Or, once upon a time, Hob saw Eldritch Nightmare Dream and thought, "That one, I want that one."
The way they light candles in Rome by ladyofrosefire
E, No Archive Warnings Apply. Dream of the Endless | Morpheus/Johanna Constantine
Roughly a week after her run-in with Dream of the Endless, Johanna meets him again in his realm.
Set between episodes 5 and 6, for reference.
陈情令 | The Untamed (TV)
The soft animal of your body by Ladyofrosefire, NotAFicWriter
M, No Archive Warnings Apply. Sòng Lán | Sòng Zǐchēn/Xiǎo Xīngchén
"In the aftermath, the time Song Lan cannot name as anything other than yawning grief, there had been first nothing— a sword on his back and a bag in his hands or tucked away safely inside of his robes. And then he had looked into the bag, just once. Perhaps he had expected stardust, or mist, or light. He had felt Xingchen’s soul a hundred times, tangled up with his own in their bed. He had never seen it.
Song Lan opened the bag, and looked in, and inhaled."
Death, breath, and other things less simple than they seem.
Unbound, Unhallowed by Ritualist
E, Creator Chose Not to Use Archive Warnings. Sòng Lán | Sòng Zǐchēn/Xuē Yáng | Xuē Chéngměi Sòng Lán | Sòng Zǐchēn/Xiǎo Xīngchén/Xuē Yáng | Xuē Chéngměi
Xiao Xingchen doesn't believe in the Folk, but the Folk believe in him.
Voltron: Legendary Defender
The Monster Mash by Demenior
E, No Archive Warnings Apply. Shiro/Ulaz (Voltron), Shiro (Voltron)/Original Female Character(s), Shiro (Voltron)/Original Male Character(s), Prince Rahjim/Shiro (Voltron), Antok/Shiro (Voltron)
Collection of prompts written for the 'Monster F**kers Bingo'.
Dean has Sammy in his arms and he’s running, racing down the stairs as fast as his legs can carry him. Nellie is curled up and tucked in Sammy’s blankets, trembling at the heat and sound and smoke. Rasha is a steady presence at Dean’s side, as big as she can be. She’s a mountain lion, a young one, but big enough to keep Dean upright as they race for the front door. Kirna is howling somewhere in the background, and Rasha’s ears are flat in misery at the sound.
They make it to the front yard and Dean turns, searching desperately for his Dad and Kirna and Mom and Lukan. It’s taking them long, too long, to get out. Dean has tears in his eyes. They have to make it out. They have to.
Then the upstairs window explodes outwards.
Dean screams, Rasha wailing at his side. Sammy starts crying in his arms and Dean nearly collapses to the ground, when someone snatches him up and sprints away from the falling glass.
“Rasha!” Dean screams.
“She’s right here, Dean, she’s right here,” Dad says, voice hoarse and coated in smoke. Rasha shifts now that Dad is back, that there’s someone else to protect Sammy, shifting into a kitten and climbing up his shoulder to butt her head against his neck. Dad holds them tight in his arms, all four of them, Kirna whining pitifully at his feet as they watch the flames.
It’s the last time Dad holds any of them like that.
Hello I got covid and wrote a new story and hopefully it won’t fall into the-unfinished-fanfic-Pit-of-despair. This was super fun to write and purely written for fun as a passion project ✨
Tumblr did a funny thing where it followed you for me. Which was a surprise- I'd seen your opinions and reactions in the CritRole tag and liked ur thöts on things, and THEN turns out you're big into WoT and now I'm like 'well guess I'm staying and nodding enthusiastically about everything you yell about re: the books and the show'. And I say all that so I can make the joke: this is some ta'veren shit 😂
Tagged by @isisishtar and tagging, but with no obligation @nenya85 @sitabethel @rowingviolahere @phoenix-downer and @demenior
1) How many fics do you have on Ao3?
Publicly? 72.
2) What’s your total Ao3 word count?
306, 137
3) What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
Only Half-Bad
Akhet
Dusk
i wanted more from life, than it could give
Only Child
4) Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
I try to, and even open all my unreplied comments up pretty routinely. I get some intense commenting anxiety for some absurd reason, so it often takes a few tries. It’s something I want to work on, in tandem with leaving comments.
5) What’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?
Huh. Depends, I suppose. Truths to Tell or The Ring is Empty I think, but in different ways. Truths to Tell ends with a sense of defeat and listlessness that also leaves room for growth. The Ring is Empty however is the notion of being trapped, even with an inability to accept it.
6) What’s the fic you’ve written with the happiest ending?
Oh gosh, I think probably... Head to Wind. There’s a frankly insistent and defiant sense of hope and brightness in it that is directly challenging cynicism. I don’t know. It feels bright.
7) Do you write crossovers? If so, what’s the craziest one you’ve written?
Oh, I love a Daemon AU. I’m also a bit weak on mixing up Doctor Who with other sci-fi such as Red Dwarf and Animorphs.
8) Have you ever received hate on a fic?
Oh yes, very much so. I wrote a number of controversial fics. One of them got an entire analysis post on how I used my writing skills for evil, I shit you not.
9) Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
Not enough, honestly. Most of my ships are MLM so there’s that, but no guarantee of dicks. It’s definitely more a private matter.
10) Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Some scrubbed by sites, but I don’t count it, just file my DMCA and go.
11) Have you ever had a fic translated?
No, but I did get a podfic of Crown you now, with many crowns !
12) Have you ever co-written a fic before?
Yep! Currently working on Breaking Light.
13) What’s your all-time favorite ship?
Goddamn you ask a hard question. No all-time fave ships, but I’m feeling darkshipping, promptis, and destiel lately.
14) What’s a WIP that you want to finish, but don’t think you ever will?
Quite a few tbh. I wonder sometimes if I’ll ever finish City of the Dead or Chrysalis....
15 & 16) What are your writing strengths/ weaknesses?
Strengths, uh-- I think I can write some pretty solid prose, push comes to shove. And I’m partial to my verb choice when I’m on a roll.
Weaknesses are definitely action sequences, tense changing mid-scene and endings. I never know how to make a graceful exit.
17) What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
Depends a lot stylistically. Sometimes it’s a good way to signal language shifts, or to highlight certain themes, sometimes it’s better to do an Asterix and Obelix style translation.
18) What was the first fandom you wrote for?
Beyblade, I believe. KaiTaka is still a great ship and I stand by it.
19) What’s your favorite fic you’ve ever written?
Well damn, another hard question. Antebellum or Head to Wind, maybe.
38. What does your writing process look like? How chaotic is it on a scale of 1 (very tame) to 10 (you can’t handle this kind of chaos)?
Apart from the MANY procrastination traps (tumblr! game on my phone! research rabbit hole!), I think my writing process is fairly tame? I have a gdoc. I start at the beginning. I gradually work my way through to the end. There's usually a very rough bulletpoint outline or stream-of-consciousness infodump at the bottom of the doc, and sometimes a few scene fragments, but for the most part I really do just start at the beginning and write my way through to the end. Some days I only manage to chip away at a couple of sentences. Sometimes I'll sit down and write 5k words in one evening. But it's always pretty chronological. So, like, I'll give myself a 3 on that scale.
39. What’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on?
Oof, I don't know. I think I'm pretty good at getting character voices right, or close to it. I'm a decent mimic in general when it comes to writing -- Yuletide is often a fun excuse for me to write in totally different styles, based on the tone of whatever small fandom I get matched on -- and that is something I enjoy about my own fics. So, that.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
fic rec! 8K Leverage, team as family
Summary: Eliot's role on a team is the hitter. He comes in to make sure everyone else makes it out unscathed. And he's very good at it. People feel safe, physically, when they see him on the scene. But this quiet kind of safe?
aka: 5 Times The Team Fell Asleep on Eliot Spencer (+1 Time He Napped On Them)
Comments: This is just full of warm fuzzies, even with the touch of angst and hurt on Elliot’s part. I mean, he has to be perfect because otherwise Nate might let him go and he doesn’t want that. We know Nate would never, but it’s an extra sense of weight to Elliot’s character I liked.
Also, Parker calling Elliot’s growls purrs is pure delight.
