I recently discovered that I'm on the ace spectrum, and it's all because of Alastor.
I've been writing him *all this time* with my own preferences without understanding how fully they echoed back at what I actually feel.
- The touch averse till it's *his* idea
- The sex-neutral till he decides *it's time*
- The need for a connection before *any* of the above occurs
It took me forever to realize that it's not that I have a low sex drive, I'm just freaking DEMI-GRAY. 🥴
This is why I still fully believe that Alastor can be shipped, that he can have relationships on his terms, and that him being canonically Ace doesn't erase those connections for him entirely; I'm freaking living it as a married person.
Representation fucking matters, even if it's your own headcanon of the character!! 🙌
So yeah, now I can more consciously continue writing Alastor as a demi-gray ace spectrum touch averse overlord and not feel bad about 'but what if people don't like ittttt?'
Someone out there relates. I did.
