#desperately lonely

[pagexofxcups]

Daisy Jones and the Six TV show:

Pros: seeing characters I love come to life, hearing their music, etc.

Cons: I can never watch Love, Rosie the same way ever again

(yes that is Suki Waterhouse, no I don't want to think about the possibility of Billy and Karen getting married Jesus fuck)

[knifefightscene]

Annihilation is one of the horror movies that makes you want to experience it and survive. Like it reminds me that we’re flesh and blood. It’s about mutation of our own flesh and blood itself. Something completely out of our control. Like it’s not about the supernatural. It’s sci fi. And for me sci fi always feels like the most “real” gene of horror. Cause these things can really happen.

[dancing-homestuck]

Ah

[woodlandqueer]

It might just be that I am hungover but I am cycling through all of my emotions today!!

[apoisonedbook]

What I want more than anything

Is something I cannot ask for.

[rgr-pop]

speaking of sad stuff, and men, and being lucky: not having mom at Thanksgiving, or my actual family for Thanksgiving (my mom’s family appears to be relieved to have no obligation to me, permanently), being with Lucas’s family, I just... I really was lucky, if nothing else, to have an interesting, stimulating, weird, smart mom. I can’t wait to have my sisters here for fun and lively holidays. and the weirdest thing is like...it made me miss my dad. he’s a dumbass, and useless, and sometimes the worst, but he’s a useless dumbass with some exposure to the world, who can carry a conversation! I mean, he’s always wrong, and he just won’t stop, but at least he thinks he is engaged with the world, or something.

[somewhereinthedeadofnight]

what was it like, to live without feeling like reaching for impossible standards. what can i do to draw and laugh and enjoy myself again. is truly living letting go of innocence. is sadness life. is maturity pain. is the only freedom selflessness. suicide must be selfish. maybe there’s no way around it. maybe it can’t be coddled. maybe it’s so brutally ugly there is no more to call but selfish and thoughtless. and to soften it is to permit it. 

[croatoan-the-line]

Yes I like them, and yes, I would date them at the drop of a hat if said person asked. But then again, I sit and think 'do they know what they're getting into, if they were planning on doing that?' Annnnd... Nope. No they don't. And that's why I don't pursue relationships, even when I want them. Especially when they mean a lot to me, even as a friend.