“If you love me, let me go.” ( FROM CLARKE THO )
‣ HE SITS UP IN HIS BED WITH A SIGH. another sleepless night. guilt deprives him of the peace that comes with resting. if he manages to sleep, it’s only brought with nightmares, reminders of what he did. he left her behind, left her to die. the others tell him he made the right choice, but it doesn’t feel right. it’s like their curse – always to remain separate. this time it ended with them never reuniting.
his eyes fall shut, as the dark thoughts circle through his mind. he needs to be strong for the others, but he can’t accept the loss. there is no goodbye, or may we meet again. and it weighs on the man’s heart each and every day. a hollow heart. where his sister once was the only one to fill it. yet, the princess broke through his walls and now he will never forget her presence. how quickly she came into his life, and all at once was GONE.
if you love me, let me go, the voice calls.
bellamy shakes his head, eyes beginning to water. it’s her voice echoing, haunting. until he turns to see the figure. a figure that belongs only to his mind. one he’s spoken too, but every time he reaches out to feel something real… it disappears. each time, he tells of his guilt, how he never should have left her. his fear of moving on. but, this time, the man’s words fall in a different manner. he reaches out, like he always does, with a forlorn smile. ❛ how do i let go of someone who was never really mine ? ❜ just as he tries to cradle her cheek, the figure evaporates. hand drops. a tear slips down his cheek and his head turns away.
a hand digs into the sheets, the other clutches his shirt right where his chest beats. his inhales shorten. the small space feels smaller. sharpness in his chest only grows. an ache that makes it hard to eat, to sleep… to breathe. he thinks it’s worse than death. even if there’s a small lull in the pain, the final darkness never takes him. no, he’s awake, and must live it again and again.
@destroysworlds / broken lyric meme / accepting