Synopsis: the master and the doctor both notice how much you have changed over the past few months. And it worries them.
Warnings: abuse, physical and mental. Injuries, breakdowns, Death, murder. The master kills a man. Victim blaming . Manipulation. Probably more.
Sitting in the console room, the master put his paper down and looked up. The doctor was under the console, trying to improve on something. He honestly didn't care enough to ask. Instead, there was something else on his mind. Sitting forward, he scratched his chin thoughtfully.
"What is it? Because I can hear your brain working from here." The blonde said, not moving from her spot.
"Have you noticed anything off about (y/n)?" Sliding out, the doctor sat up and pulled her goggles off.
"Oh thank god its not just me."
Coming to stand in front of him, she crossed her arms.
"She's been attached to you. It's like everything else scares her." Her observation was indeed correct and whilst the master wasn't complaining, it was worrying.
"She used to be so confident and brave. When did it change?" He asked, looking up at his old friend. She hummed, pacing slightly to try and think clearer.
"I dont think there's any point in being coy, she's obviously the closest to you out of any of us. If anyone can find out, it's you." nodding, the master stood and cracked his neck.
"I'll try my best. Should we go pick everyone up?"
They landed in the usual spot in Sheffield. Yaz was already there, bounding in once the doors were fully materialised. The master almost laughed at how excited she was to see the doctor. Dan was next, on time as usual. Immediately, he began to brag about his date with Diane. Not bothering to listen, the master stood by the door and waited. His fingers tapped against his arm worriedly. Thirty minutes late by this point, he huffed walking back over to the console.
"We could always go forward in time, to the point she arrives?" Yaz suggested but they shook their head.
"I want to see how late she is. You two can go decide on where we go alright?" Agreeing with the doctor, yaz and Dan sat on the steps discussing.
I was practically running down the street. Well, I say running, hobbling would be more accurate. I'd made him really angry this time. Stupid mistake. I shouldn't of mentioned any of my friends. Especially not him, but I couldn't help it. Not when I'd grown so close to the master. He was always there for me, to help me get away from the hell at home. Taking a deep breath, I looked at my phone and saw I was nearly an hour late. They were definitely going to question me. I entered the tardis anyway, a fake smile plastered on my face.
"Ah! (Y/n)!" The doctor cheered, rushing over to me. Giggling, I shut the door to block out the cold. I was only in a thin sweatshirt, even in the winter. Only because he had ripped my clothes to shreds.
"Sorry I'm late. Train was delayed." I lied through my teeth, praying to myself that it was convincing. Grinning, the doctor grabbed my arm and pulled me to the console. I couldn't help but wince, not expecting her to do that. Looking to my side, I saw the master stood there. He was leaning against a pillar with his hands in his pockets. Jacket discarded and sleeves rolled up, I almost blushed just seeing him. He simpered, coming to my side.
"Have a good few days off?" No. Doing my best to seem happy, I nod and told a few false stories to them.
"Well that's great! Yaz, have you decided where we're going?" The doctor asked, the pair coming to join us. The brunette suggested something and the doc got to work piloting. Suddenly, a hand landed on my shoulder. Out of reflex, I flinched harshly and covered myself from harm. But nothing happened. Lowering my arms, found the master looking at me with worry. I just laughed it off, swallowing down my anxiety.
"Everything alright?"
"Why wouldn't it be?" I responded way to quickly and I knew he thought that.
"You've got a bruise on your cheek." He pointed out, thumb brushing against it softly.
Oh no. In my rush I obviously forgot to cover it.
"Oh yeah. Funny story that. Walked right onto a door frame." All he did was nod at my fake tale. Slowly, he opened his arms.
"Come here." Not needing to be told twice, I wrapped my arms around his waist and sank into his hold immediately. How could I not fall in love? From the minute he began to travel with us, the master was by my side. He'd put himself before me no matter what.
"You know I'd never hurt you, right?" Even the way he spoke with me was so soft. So genuine.
"Of course."
Three mad, near death adventures later, we were gathered round the console exhausted.
"So, drop you off to recharge yeah?" My heart dropped at the doctors words but I knew I had no choice. Yaz nod, happy to get some rest. And Dan, well he wanted his girlfriend. All I could focus on was the fact I'd have to see my 'boyfriend' again. No matter how many times I tried to break up, he wouldn't let me go.
"(Y/n)? You okay?" Dan appeared next to me. I jumped, not expecting to hear his voice. He looked confused at my reaction and lifted a hand; probably to touch my shoulder in hindsight. Backing up, I felt my back hit someone's chest. I relaxed, recognising that it was the master.
"I'm fine, sorry. Zoned out." Unconvinced, Dan didn't have time to reply as we landed abruptly. Heading for the door, the doctor stopped me.
"Stay safe." Oh how I wish she knew. But they could never know. Without responding, I left and hurried home.
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Counting to ten, I took a deep breath then went inside my house. The tv was blaring, some old Hollywood movie. Realising he wasn't there, I made my way to the kitchen. It was a state as usual. Pans piled high, moldy plates and stained glasses. Plus, it stunk of stale food.
"Where have you been?" A slurred voice came from behind me. All the hairs on the back of my neck stood up.
"Answer me!" He yelled, forcing me to turn around. Having me trapped against the counter, my heart rate picked up.
"With my friends." Mistake number one. Rolling his eyes, the taller gripped my wrist so tight, I thought it might break.
"Stop lying! Are you cheating? I bet you are. You're such a whore! Sleeping with every man you lay your eyes on." Whimpering at his accusations, I shook my head fiercely.
"No I swear!" Mistake number two. Chuckling dryly, he sneered.
"Did you just yell at me? Huh, you little bitch." My body began to shake as I knew what was coming. When I said nothing, the drunk male slapped me. I fell to the floor with a thud.
"Let me guess, you were off with that man you told your mother about?" Now internally screaming at myself for talking about the master, I chose to remain silent.
"What's so good about him anyway? I bet he's just some ugly little rat. Could never be a better man than me." Anger boiled beneath the surface. Without thinking, I snapped.
"Dont talk shit about him!" Third mistake. His eyes were vacant and soulless. Saying nothing, he grabbed the wine bottle from the counter and smashed it on the edge. Glass exploded around me as I let out a scream. He held it up, ready to use.
"You're gonna regret that slut."
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Tuesday couldn't come fast enough, it had been hell these past three days. As soon as the tardis came into view, I rushed in. Everything hurt, everything was sore. I wanted to collapse and never wake up. Everyone looked at me, they all seemed to be staring. Especially the master, who stood straight upon seeing me with his brows knit tight together.
"What?" I asked confused, chest still heaving from my run.
"Your nose is bleeding." Yaz told me. Touching my nose, I found that she was right. The master stepped forward without warning and I yelped, jumping back. He froze, eyes showing clear worry. All at once, everyone moved closer. Not being able to handle all the attention, I rushed past and ran to my room on board. Going into the bathroom, I shut the door before banging my fist against it repeatedly. That man ruined everything. Why couldn't I just be happy? I turned the shower on then peeled off my clothes, it was so painful. None of the wounds were treated and they were all fresh. Stepping into the shower, I slid down the wall and sat there; letting the water run over me.
Back in the console room, everyone stood not knowing what happened. The doctor gave the master a look. He nod then turned to the humans.
"What does (y/n) do at home?" They both shrugged, not having a clue.
"She never talks about it with us. Dodges the subject mostly." Dan admitted. Sighing, the master tried to peice everything together. But, with so little evidence, it was hard. Then it hit him and god, did he hope he was wrong.
"Who does she live with?" He asked, wary of what the answer could be.
"She used to live with her boyfriend." Yaz told him, sitting on the console beside the doctor. The blonde tilted her head.
"Used to?"
"Well, she wanted to break up with him. But she still could I suppose?" Wetting his lips, the master thought over everything. It was about four months ago (for them, not him and the doctor. Time travel and all that.) that this has all started.
"When did she say she wasn't happy?"
"I dunno. Three, four months?" He looked at the doctor to see she was frowning. They were thinking the same thing.
"Go." She said and he didn't need to be told twice. The master ran down to my room, not bothering to inform the other humans. The doctor would do that for him.
Doing my best not to cry, I began to feel numb at the burn against the cuts. I'd dealt with worse. The bathroom door was suddenly thrust open, I screamed and covered myself best I could. In the entrance, the master stood there. It was too late, he'd seen it all. All the damage my body had. Shutting the door, he reached in and turned the water off; grabbing a towel in the process. He crouched in front of me, wrapping the towel around my back. His eyes scanned over every scar, cut and bruise. Without question, he pulled me into his embrace.
"What has he done to you?" Knowing that he'd figured it all out, the floodgates opened and I broke down in his arms.
"Shhh, its okay now. I've got you." Not able to respond, I just cried more. I didn't deserve his time at all, yet here he was.
"How about, we get you dry? I'll take care of your wounds. Then, I'll make sure you're nice and comfortable. Is that okay?" Nodding slowly, the master picked me up and sat me on the counter. He pulled out a clean towel, to replace the now damp one and dried me off very gently. Making sure to pat my skin with great care. After putting on some underwear, the elder disappeared for a few minutes before returning with a med kit. It was silent as he aided all the deep gashes and bruises littered on my skin. Taking my hand in his, he observed the hand shaped bruise on my wrist. It wasn't the worst injury I had, but definitely the most noticeable. I knew for a fact my back was in bad condition along with my stomach.
"He won't get away with this. I swear that. I'm going to throw him in a black hole." That comment made me giggle for the first time in ages. Smirking, the master handed me my fluffy pyjama hoodie and pair of shorts. Actually, they looked more like boxers. Either way, I wasn't complaining and put them on.
"Come on. Bed. You need rest."
"I'm fine-" a stern look cut me off. Of course, I was not fine. Instead, he carried me to my bed and sat me under the duvet.
"I'll be right back." He told me then disappeared. Resting my head back against the headboard, I took a deep breath. What was going to happen now? I was going to end up homeless. All alone. My eyes filled with tears yet again. Once everyone here found out it would be so embarrassing. They'd definitely judge, or laugh. Maybe? My head was a mess at that point.
"Hey, hey. Why are you crying sweets?" Not looking up, I heard the master speak before coming over. Something was placed on my side table, i didn't know what. His arms encased me, moving me so I was sat between his legs and leaning on his chest. I sniffled, hiding myself in his chest sheepishly.
"Talk to me (y/n). I want to help you." He tried but I just couldn't believe him. So, I shook my head at him.
"Please?" Turning myself slightly, I buried my face into his purple vest. My shoulders shook violently. Instantly, he began to rub my back soothingly.
"I hate him." I stuttered out, feeling pathetic.
"Tell me everything. I'm here for you. I'll listen." Taking a deep breath, I pressed myself against the warm male more. Though I found it hard to believe, that he'd actually be interested in listening to me, I wasn't going to pass up the chance to vent.
"It started a few months ago. He'd always been angry, he'd yell when I made mistakes or did something he didn't like. But when he started getting physical, I tried to leave. He didn't like that and he pushed me down the stairs." The masters grip on me immediately tightened after I had said that. Clearly, he was angry but I wasn't scared at all.
"After that, it didn't stop. Every time I forgot something, he'd hit me. If I spoke back, he'd hit me. If I went out alone, if I didn't clean, if I didn't cook. Especially when I spoke about you guys. Everything landed with him getting angry. And he took it out on me. Every time." I concluded, his vest getting damp from my tears but he didn't mind. Holding my shoulders, the master pushed me back and held me at a comfortable distance.
His thumbs brushed my cheeks dry, a calming look in his eyes. Before he could say anything, I spoke out my own insecurities.
"Now I'm going to be on the streets right? I'm gonna be alone again. I don't want to be alone, please. Please don't leave me alone."
"Shh, come here." Hooking his hands under my arms, the master sat me on his lap properly; head landing in the crook of his neck. Now straddling his thighs, I was much more snug against him and able to hug him tightly. His arms were almost possessive around my waist, but i enjoyed it.
"I am never going to let you be alone. Ever. You're stuck with me. And I promise you, that he will pay." He spoke softly, kissing my cheek soon after. Turning pink, I managed to collect myself a little. My body began to go a little limp in his hold, everything seemingly catching up with me.
"Are you tired?" All I could do was nod at his words, i could tell he wanted me to sleep. But I was scared.
"Can't sleep."
"Why not love?"
"Nightmares." Understanding, the master cupped my cheeks and stared into my eyes.
"Would you like me to help with that." Nodding once again, his lips pressed against my temple and I was out for the count. Once I was asleep, the master tucked me in then stood. For a moment, he pondered what to do then began his journey back to the console room. The doctor looked at him anxiously, clearly wanting to know what happened.
"I want to kill him." He told her directly, alerting both yaz and Dan. They rushed over as he came in front of the doctor. She inhaled deeply, staring at him with intent.
"Its bad?"
"Its worse than you can imagine. Tell me no or else I'm going to kill him." Quickly, the blonde started to fly her ship. Rushing around the console, she flicked different levers and pushed the right buttons. The tardis landed with a thud.
"Where are we?" The master asked, forehead lined with frustration. All those pent up feelings weren't good for the mind.
"Outside (y/n)s House." She went over to him, placing a hand on his shoulder.
"Get him." Their eyes went wide in shock. The doctor was actually giving him permission to kill him. Not needing to be told twice, the master grabbed his jacket and rushed out.
Just waking up from a black out, the unsuspecting male stumbled into the kitchen and poured himself a glass of wine. Suddenly, the door slammed behind him, causing him to jump and drop the drink. He turned and saw the outline of another man in the shadows. Out came the master, arms folded tightly. Backing up, the human was utterly confused.
"What are you doing in my house?" He slurred, eyes going up and down repeatedly. Chuckling, he walked closer and unfolded his arms, revealing a dagger in his fist. Immediately, the man sobered up and swallowed thickly.
"What's your name?" The master asked, not sparing him a glance.
"Michael." Nodding, he took another step closer as Michael began shaking.
"Hello Michael. You're going to come with me." Of course, he complied and followed the master out and into the tardis. Once on board, he was in a state if shock. But the master payed this no mind and began to fly the tardis skillfully. Once he was happy with the place they were adrift, he stalked back over.
"Before you die- and believe me, you really are going to die- tell me. What pleasure did you get out of hurting (y/n)?" Michael's face went sour, realisation setting in. He scoffed and looked away.
"Is that what all this is about? That stupid girl. For fuck sake!" Raising his brows, the master watched in amusement, as the human had his tantrum.
"What bullshit has she been spewing now? All she does is lie! Even made up some guy with a dumb name. Just to pretend anyone would actually give a fuck about her! I never hurt her! She's just pathetic." He told him, rolling his eyes afterwards. It was silent for a second before he began again and, as you can imagine, the rage was growing tenfold inside the timelord.
"I did not hurt her! Never. God she's infuriating. Are you just going to stand there? Looking at me as if I'm stupid, it's unnerving." Michael asked, making the master shake his head with a slight pout.
"No you carry on. You're only making your death more painful." The look in his eyes was that of ice and he felt his blood go cold. It finally set in. Whoever this man was, he was being serious.
"Why do you care so much?" Ignoring the question, the master tutted quietly and lead him to the doors.
"This 'guy with a dumb name'? What did she call him?"
"Uh- The master I think. Why does that matter? Who even are you?" A smirk grew on his lips, gazing at the male with a murderous glint in his eye.
"Well, I'm not made up. That much, I'll tell you." Clicking in, Michael looked extremely confused and took a step away.
"You're the master? You're real? So she was cheating! That little bitch! When I get my hands on her I'm going t-" Instantly, the dagger was pressed to his throat, cutting him off. The master pushed him against the closed door, teeth gritted together.Â
"You really are thick." He laughed out but wasn't happy even in the slightest. Michael let out a strangled breath, staring at him in fear.
"Never hurt someone I love. It won't end well for you." Gripping the back of his shirt, he opened the doors to reveal looming darkness.
"What's that?"
"That, stupid human, is a black hole." The master muttered, taking the dagger away from his neck. Without a second thought, he impaled Michael's waist. He cried out but the master didn't care. Instead, he drew him in closer and spoke into his ear.
"Enjoy your time in hell." With that final statement, he was thrown out into the void, tardis doors shutting behind him. Resting his head against the doors, he let out a breath. At least he knew this therapy was working. The master didn't get half as much joy as he used to. But he didn't regret it. Not at all. Feeling a hand land on his shoulder, he turned to see the doctor. She had a sympathetic smile.
"Go. She needs you." He smiled, nodding in recognition before heading back down to my room. Finding I was still asleep, he took off his shoes, jacket and waist coat, before slipping in on the free side. Carefully, he pulled me closer and relaxed as I subconsciously attached myself to him. Maybe even he could fall asleep like this.
Groggy, my eyes forced themselves open. Going to move, I found myself under something- or someone- weighted. Looking to my left, I found the master. He's was sleeping. That was odd, he never slept. Taking this opportunity, I sunk back down and buried my face into his chest. It was warm and safe.
My movements must have woke him as he stirred a moment later. His hands tightened on my waist and I quickly hid my face in his shirt.
"That doesn't make you invisible you know?"
Turning red, I gazed up at him.
"You were asleep."
"No I wasn't."
"Was." It went silent. Just staring at each other until he gave in. Casting his eyes to the beams on the ceiling, the master spoke.
"Maybe I was." I smiled and tried to adjust, get more comfortable.
"You never sleep." Carefully, the male pulled me further onto his chest, a hand still encasing the dip of my waist.
"No, I just can't sleep. There's a difference, love." Ignoring how my blush grew, I allowed myself to bask in his warmth. It felt nice. It fight oddly right. To be there, in his arms. A man I was once told to fear, to avoid at all cost. He now lay here holding me as if I could disappear. Mind starting to catch up, I suddenly remembered just how I got in this situation.
"What did you do? When I was asleep?" I asked, looking up at the master with wonder. He rolled his head against the pillow, eyes scanning my face. A hand traced the bruise on my cheek tentivley, a tense sigh breathing by his lips.
"Do you want the truth, right now? I don't want to upset you." Our eyes locked and I nod surely, letting him know I could handle the truth.
"I took Michael. I listened to his shitty lies. I let him talk, let him grow scared. Though, I could have done it for longer but I was too angry." He started, glaring up at nothing in particular. Sensing his growing anger, I reached forward and laced our fingers together. The master looked at our hands, the corners of his lips twitching upwards.
"I stabbed him. I threw him into a black hole. He's in a million pieces now. Floating through space. Dead." Maybe he was expecting me to recoil in fear, or give him a lecture. Instead, I sat up with a smile. I leant down and kissed his cheek, causing his eyes to widen in the process.
"Thank you. For saving me." Even if my voice was quiet, the master grinned and sat himself up as well.
"You don't have to thank me doll. I'd do it again in a heart beat." Pushing back the covers, the master got himself up.
"Wait right here." Then, he rushed out, leaving me alone. I smiled to myself, going to the bathroom. After doing what needed to be done, I washed my hands and looked in the mirror. As much as I loved my hoodie, I pulled it off and felt more comfortable. Seeing as I was wearing a sports bra, I turned and head back into my room. It wouldn't matter, I could throw a tshirt on if the master was uncomfortable. Crawling back onto my bed, I sat on my knees and grabbed my phone. Finally, I deleted Michael's number and hovered over my photo gallery. Once I have clicked on it, my heart dropped at all the cold memories stored there. They hurt to see. So caught up in my phone, I didn't hear the door open. The master looked up and froze, eyes raking over my figure. Quickly, he shook those thoughts away and came to my side, gently placing two mugs down on the bedside table.
"What are you doing?" He asked, moving so my back was flush to his chest. I showed him my phone screen, all the photos now highlighted.
"I'm deleting all of it." Nodding, the master watched as I did so and noticed how my eyes grew sad at the now black screen.
"Dont be upset, love. Its over now." Gently, he pulled me between his legs, resting back against the pillows. My body followed his, relaxing against him.
"I made you tea." Carefully, he handed me a steaming cup of tea. I took it gratefully, blowing the steam in effort to cool it. For a while, we sat there, drinking tea whilst I listened to a few of his stories. I loved hearing about his and the doctors childhood. It sounded almost magical. Whilst the master was speaking, I looked up and found myself staring at the alien. At least now I didn't have to feel guilty about my feelings. Not that I ever did, it's not like I wanted to be either Michael in the end. The cup, now empty, was taken from my grasp, knocking me out of my daydream. The master grinned down at me, brushing his fingers through my hair.
"What's with that look?"
"What look?" I asked, eyes never leaving him. Chuckling, he let out a sigh before moving his free hand down to my waist.
"I should have tortured him more. He deserved it." His fingers danced around the bruise on my stomach, light touches almost making me shiver.
"It doesn't matter now." Still, I could see it was bothering him.
"He was never a good boyfriend, even before the really bad times." The master never stopped his hand from moving, giving me full attention.
"How so?"
"He never showed me love. I could never hold his hand, or hug him. He never kissed me. I was just an accessory to him." I explained, frowning at the memory.
"Over a year of neglect. Maybe that's all I'm worth." Immediately, the master whipped his head to look me right in the eyes. It almost made me flinch.
"Absolutely not. That man was an absolute idiot. A waste of space." He seethed, inhaling sharply afterwards.
"I would never treat you like that. I would never let you go. I'd-" We both froze as he slowly realised the weight of the words he just spoke.
"I mean. Hypothetically." The master slightly stuttered. My mouth was parted, blinking in the informed.
"I would treat you better anyone. Because that's what you deserve." A smile grew on my lips, listening as the; usually calm male, fumbled with his words.
"Not that you would be interested. Now or ever. But I'm just-" Giggling, I kneeled up, gripping his collar and pressing his lips against mine. Initially surprised, the master held onto my waist and melted into the kiss soon after. Pulling back, I was taken aback when the male pulled me into his chest. My head rested against his shoulder comfortably.
"If I'd have known that the feeling was mutual, I'd have taken you away from him much sooner." The master stroked the top of my hair, pressing a kiss to my temple lovingly. Simpering, I nuzzled in closer.
"You're here now. That's all that matters." And that was the truth. From then on, everything would get better. As long as he was by my side.
Idk why the thought of Dhawan!Master on the edge of death, desperately (and greedy for power, letâs be real) agreeing to the Toymakerâs challenge makes me sad but it does? I wonder what his last thoughts were before getting stuck in that tooth, and whether the Toymaker chose it to be gold for a reason or if Iâm just looking too deep into it. Also, I hope itâs the Rani who picked him just bc I need to know how sheâd roast him this time.
AAAAAAAAAAAA!!!! I am now also sad thinking about that :(( Poor blorbo went through so much :(( I really hope that specifically Dhawan!Master is bought back - I mean he is literally my favourite Doctor who character ever so if they donât I will be SO sad.
And aaaaa yes!!!! God I hope that was The Rani, that would be SO fun!!!!!!! I want her to be besties with The Master and I want them to cause chaos. Iâve seen a lot of people thinking it could be Missy, and if it is AND we get to see her and Dh!Master at the same time? Yeah Iâll just die of excitement :)
Iâve also seen people theorising that it might be the new character âThe Duchessâ who was announced on the dw social media in May. Since that also sounds like a Time Lord name and I love random Time Lords showing up to piss off The Doctor - especially if she ends up teaming up with The Master!
Hello how are you? I'm just wondering if I could request a Dhawan!master x reader request. The Master takes the reader stargazing, they talk while looking at the stars. When master goes to tell the reader that he loves them, the reader has fallen asleep in his embrace with a smile on their face.
Hello darling, I'm sorry this took a while but I was quite busy. It turned out pretty long, I hope itâs not confusing but I felt the need to explain the evolution of the Masterâs feelings for the reader. Anyway, your ask was very very sweet and I hope you enjoy :)Â
Plot: a love confession gone wrong. Or has it?
Warning: nothing but fuff.
It was a quiet day.
The TARDIS was slowly swaying around the vast Universe, without a destination, its wheezing noise the only thing that could be heard. The Master had always liked that noise. It was calming, relaxing even and on days in which the incessant drums in his head prevented him even from hearing his own thoughts, that was the only thing that could keep him grounded. Or at least, it was before you came along.
He didn't like to admit it, but you had a sort of power over him, a way of simply being that made his racing mind go quiet.
You had been travelling together for some time now and he had grown accustomed to your presence. Even fond of it. Having you around, with your bright eyes and brighter mind, your mischievous smile that could get him to do pretty much anything you asked, your never-ending questions, your curiosity that only he could satisfy. You made him feel like he mattered to someone.
After the first few months of you following him around the Universe, he had started to feel something different, like a shift in the atmosphere. He had tried to keep it at bay, thinking nothing of it at first. You were nothing but a mere human he was entertaining himself with. Once he grew bored, he would leave you somewhere and be off. But that never happened. Because, much to his dismay, he knew that he would miss you if you were gone. Even right now, after dropping you off at what used to be your house before you joined him, he was feeling...lonely. He didn't like it.
The Master huffed and crossed his arms over his chest. He was sitting in his chair in front of the console, his feet propped up on it. He looked around the room, mostly to find something to keep his mind busy with but the only thought that came up was you. His gaze kept wandering over the furniture and small items decorating the room. He was a collector and he wasn't particularly tidy, so that resulted in a big mess most of the time.
-You should really find a place where to put these- you kept telling him when you entered the TARDIS. -You'll end up tripping one of these days and most of these things aren't particularly safe either-
He remembered the time you had fallen over a laser gun he had stolen a few days prior. It activated and started to shoot blindly. After that, you had forced him to put at least the weapons in a separate room. He smiled at the memory. You could be so damn bossy at times.
Slowly, his smile faded from his face. He glanced at the phone you had gifted him with months ago.
-What's this? - he had asked.
-It's a smartphone. You use it to call people and text and take pictures...-
-I know what a smartphone is- he had said, annoyed. -I mean, why are you giving me one, I already have a phone-
-You have a relict, you mean- you had said pointing at the old landline phone sitting on his console. -You need something pocket size-
-What for? - he had asked studying the device like it was the first time he saw one.
-So that I can call you whenever I need. And you can do the same- you had explained like it was obvious.
He had huffed out a laugh. -What would I need you for? -
You had stuck your tongue out at him. -You're a jerk-
"How long is this taking her?" he thought, getting up and checking his phone for any messages or missed calls. Nothing. He was getting bored. And he missed you.
He shook his head firmly. No way, he didn't miss you. He was just bored. He couldn't stand staying put in the same place for too long. You were making him wait for too long, he didn't miss you. If anything, he was mad at you. For making him wait. And for making him feel all weird and dizzy.
He started to pace around the room.
He didn't like not knowing and right now his head was exploding with questions. Why was he thinking so ardently about you? Why couldn't he stop reminiscing your moments together? Why was he checking his damn phone when you had just left a few hours ago?
He messed with his hair, like trying to shake the answers out of his brain.
What could it possibly be?
Right then, his phone let out a "ping". He looked at the screen and saw a text from you. "All done, come pick me out whenever it's convenient".
He stared at it for a few seconds. He couldn't let you know he had been waiting for you all this time.
"Did you take me for a taxi service? " he wrote out instead.
"Busy blowing up planets, are we? "
He scoffed. "You know me. I'm a busy man."
"It's fine, I'll just run some more errands."
"I'm on my way"
"Missed me, have you? ;)"
The Master cleared his throat nervously.
"As if."
And after that, he ran to the console to appear mere seconds later in front of your house. Yeah, maybe he had missed you.
-Could you be any slower?! -
-I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't have made the big bad ogre mad. Oh wait, that was you! -
You and the Master were running for your life. What's new? He had thought it'd be fun if you two went to bother the literal king of a murderous species to get his most priced possession, the huge gem on top of his sceptre. The king didn't like that, of course. He could be pretty scary when he was angry, you had found. The creature behind you, however, was way scarier. It was a nine feet tall ogre looking beast, the bodyguard of the king, apparently. It was big but fast nonetheless, which made it harder for you to lose it.
You were running as fast as you possibly could when suddenly, you tripped and fell to the ground, letting out a painful groan. The Master stopped abruptly in his track and ran back to you.
-What the hell are you doing?! -
-Oh, you know, I thought it would be fun to be eaten alive. I FELL, YOU IDIOT! -
The Master rolled his eyes and gave you a hand, but as you tried to get up, you felt your ankle sting painfully.
-Damn it, I think I twisted it-
-What?! - the Master looked down at your ankle, then up at the monster gaining ground a few feet away. He put your arm around his shoulder and helped you steady yourself. You tried your best to speed up, although it cost you a lot of effort. Eventually, you managed to reach the TARDIS. The Master shut the door behind you and, as you pressed your back against it, he ran toward the console and activated it, taking you both away from there. Once he knew you were safe, he rested his hand on the console, trying to steady his breath.
-Well, that was close- he said, turning toward you.
-We had worse- you replied with a smile.
The Master scoffed. -You're unbelievable-
-What? -
-You almost managed to get us both killed, and you say we had worse? -
-But we did! Need I remind you of Archetryx?-
-Oh, please don't- the Master raised his hands.
-Besides, it was you who got all worked up about some stone-
-Hey, it's not just "some stone". It's the gem of Dhakan- he said, taking the gem out of the inside pocket of his jacket. -It is said to have incredible healing properties and an even more incredible amount of interested purchasers- he explained, wiggling his brows. -Moreover, the king used almost all of its power. It probably only has one spell left, which means its price will probably skyrocket-
You rolled your eyes. -You're such a materialist- you tried to take a step toward him, forgetting of your twisted ankle, which promptly reminded you with a sharp sting. You stumbled forward, but the Master quickly caught you before you could hit the ground again.
You stared up at him and, for a moment, you got lost in his eyes, which were full of concern.
-You got hurt pretty bad out there, uh? - he said, trying to fill the silence.
-Uh...yeah I guess so- you found it difficult to articulate a full sentence when he stood so close to you.
-Here, you should sit-
He helped you to the closest chair and crouched down to hold your leg up. He inspected your ankle, handling it carefully.
-It's getting swollen. I think you may have broken it-
-Damn, this thing is gonna take ages to heal- you complained, throwing your head back in annoyance. -Just take me home. Â I'll get a cab to the hospital- you said, scratching your forehead.
The Master looked up at you thoughtfully. A broken ankle meant sitting home doing nothing for weeks, maybe even months. Humans were so frail and slow to heal. Furthermore, that meant weeks without you by his side. Now, that would be unbearable. That was when he realized there was a faster way to solve this.
The Master took the gem out of his pocket again. Your eyes widened.
-What are you doing? -
-Healing you- he replied like it was obvious. -Now, stay still, it should be painless-
-Wait, no- you placed your hand on top of his and he looked up at you. -No way I'm letting you waste the last of its powers for me. It's just a broken ankle, it'll heal soon-
-Not soon enough- he said. -This is way faster-
-But...you were gonna sell that. You said it was priceless-
-I can find something else to sell. I'm good at finding priceless things- and he smiled, a soft smile that almost made you blush. You cleared your throat. -If you're sure...-
-I am. Now stay still- and with that, he put the gem on your ankle. It started to glow and a few seconds later, your ankle was fine. The gem stopped glowing and became of a dull grey.
-Here you go- he said. -Good as new-
You rolled your ankle and got up to test it. It was like nothing had happened.
-Damn, that thing is good- you smiled up at the Master. -Thank you. I know this was important to you- you said, pointing at the gem still in his hand.
-Don't mention it, it's just a stupid gem. I'll find another one-
-Maybe you're not as materialistic as I thought- you said, shoving him playfully with your shoulders.
He avoided your gaze. -It was an easy solution to an easy problem. Besides, if I had to take you to the hospital every time you got hurt, I would hardly see you-
You were taken aback. -Oh, so you would miss me-
The Master froze. He couldn't let you see he cared, he couldn't expose himself like that.
He scoffed. -Don't flatter yourself. You're a good resource, that's all-
You lowered your gaze. -Right-
The Master kept giving you mixed signals and you just couldn't understand whether he cared about you or what you could do for him. You were a good companion for him: you were a risk-taker, you were up for almost any one of his plans, you were able to keep up with him and you were clever enough to understand what he was talking about. So maybe that was all there was to it. But sometimes, when he smiled at you in a certain way, or he looked at you for just a little longer, or when he held your hand while running from a threat or, say, healed your ankle after you twisted it, you couldn't help but wonder if there could be more to it. You certainly hoped so. And for now, hoping was all you could do.
You looked at the Master as he proceeded to type new coordinates in the computer of the TARDIS. You didn't know it, but he was internally cursing himself for being so obvious. He just couldn't help it, though. When you were in pain, he couldn't just stand by and watch. He had to act, to make you feel better. Besides, if you were hurt, you couldn't travel with him and, as he had found out, your absence was the most unbearable thing to him. He looked up from the laptop to look at you. You were studying the now useless gem he had discarded, turning it around in your hands. You looked focused and so beautiful. He brought his gaze back to the screen, feeling his hearts beating fast in his ribcage. There was no denying it anymore. He was in love.
The Master opened the door of the TARDIS to show an endless field of black flowers. A few days had passed since your trip to the Dhakan planet and, since then, he had tried his best to appear cold toward you but to no avail. He didn't want to get close to someone, knowing how dangerous this life was. How dangerous he was. But, as egoistical as it sounded, his need to keep you near prevailed.
That day, you had asked him to show you "something sublime".
He didn't have to think too much about it.
-Welcome to Mistior, the planet of the plack flowers-
You stepped out into the field and breathed in deeply. You would never get tired of the feeling of filling your lungs with a different kind of air.
-It's beautiful-
The sun was about to go down and the flowers swayed in the soft breeze.
-The singularity of this planet is that there is nothing else, but the field you see- he explained, walking to stand next to you.
You turned your head to look at him in disbelief. -Nothing at all? Just...this field? -
-Mhmh- he nodded. -People used to come here from everywhere in the Universe-
-So where is everybody now? - you said, looking around. There was no one in sight.
-Today is the last day of life for this planet-
-What? -
The Master kept looking ahead. -Tomorrow its sun will explode and burn everything in a 500 miles radius-
You nodded. You felt a sudden sadness at the thought.
-Such a beautiful place...- you muttered.
The Master looked at your profile, the melancholy clear on your face. He took your hand in his.
-We better enjoy it while we can-
You smiled and nodded and you two started walking slowly in the immense field. There was nowhere to go, but the calm and the silence around you was enough to keep you mesmerized.
Once the moon came out, the Master stopped walking and laid down on the grass.
-What are you doing? -
He put his arms behind his head. -What does it look like I'm doing? -
You rolled your eyes but laid next to him.
-No stars- you said, confused.
-We're too far from any other planet, the atmosphere is too thick and the moon too bright. It outshines any other form of light. At least the ones coming from the outside-
You looked at him quizzically, but before you could ask him what he meant, the flowers around you started to glow. They weren't black anymore but of a bright white. Â
-The petals of the flowers are made of a material that filtrates the light. During the night, they absorb the rays of the moon and, in short, this is the result-
You set down to have a better view and you exhaled slowly. Between all the places the Master had shown you, this was by far one of the most beautiful. You couldn't find the words to describe it.
-This is...-
-Sublime? -
You looked at the Master and found him smiling up at you. You smiled back and nodded enthusiastically, before laying back down against his chest.
The Master froze for a second but he soon wrapped his arm around your shoulder.
-Thank you for showing me this place. And all the other places-
The Master smiled. -Thank you for coming with me-
-Best decision of my life- you replied. -Sure, the first time we met I thought you were totally bonkers but now that I know you I think it's part of your charm-
The Master couldn't help but laugh. -Oh, so you think I'm charming-
-Shut up- you hit him playfully on the chest and he laughed again.
-To be honest, at the beginning I didn't think you were mad enough-
-And now? -
The Master tightened his grip around you and you scooted closer. "Now  I think you're mad for staying", he thought. Humans were so frail and he was so reckless.
-I wouldn't keep you around if I didn't think you were mad enough-
-Oh, I'm honoured-
He could hear the smile on your face without having to see it. He could sense how relaxed you were feeling.
-Maybe that's not the only reason I'm keeping you around- he found himself saying. He started to stroke your shoulder slowly. -Don't get me wrong, you can be a real pain in the ass sometimes, but...I grew to like that part of you too- he didn't know why he was being so open all of a sudden. Maybe it was the atmosphere around you or the way your body felt warm against his, but it felt right.
-I'm in love with you-
It came out as a whisper, but loud enough for you to hear. But he was met with silence.
He looked down at you and saw your eyes were closed. He rested his head back on the grass. He felt the need to read your thoughts, just in case you had heard him before drifting off. What he found was a blissful feeling of safety and warmth due to the closeness of his body to yours and to his voice. That was what lulled you to sleep. He smiled. He made you feel safe. Maybe he wasn't able to confess his feelings to you, but for now, what you had right then and there, was enough.
Just saying but Dhawan Master would 100% authorize Clara, Bill and Nardole to call him Missy and he wouldn't even bother to tell them about the 'Master' thing
A/N - Part 1 was the angsty part of the challenge, written by @wonders-of-the-multiverse, so read that first!! Itâs amazing!
Hereâs my attempt to make the ending to this fic fluffy.
WARNINGS - Some death and Cyberman conversion are mentioned.
PAIRINGS: Dhawan!Master x Reader
WORD COUNT: 10,323 words
Part One | Part Two
Part Two: A Trap
It felt your though your head had only just collided with the ground when you were shaken awake. Your body been moved, swept awkwardly aside as you slept, clearing a path to the rest of the collapsed crowd from the door. Your head and limbs ached from the hard concrete of the ground, the air no longer green with smoke as you squinted to try and make out the people in the rest of the chamber.
All still human.
A few of them were moving, while others were out cold. You could only hope those nearer the epicentre of the gas being released were simply unconscious, their ragdoll bodies making you wince as they were shaken, loved ones and strangers alike desperately trying to wake them from their unnatural sleep. You could see the horror on the survivorsâ faces as they picked over the group, struggling to regain movement in their own aching limbs even as that human instinct to help kicked in. Everyone looked worse for wear.
Motionless Cyber units now stood centurion around the roomâs locked doors, terrifying even in their stillness. They appeared to be without instruction, frozen in place, but very much still functional. What was wrong with them? You knew the answer. Your mind drifted back to The Master.
Where the hell was he?
How could he do this to you?
To any one of these people?
A stranger filled your vision, and you felt panic surging through you instantly, heart pumping enough adrenaline to power your chemically-weakened muscles.
âYou alright?â
The woman had the authority and certainty of a someone medically trained, a kindness in her eyes even through her fear. She grabbed at your shoulders, checking your vital signs, moving her hands to watch if your eyes tracked them. You groaned. It was all too much, too intense, and you tried not to see rude as you flinched away.
âIâm fine thanks,â you dismissed, peering past her.
You couldnât take your eyes off the sheer number of people in here.
With a nod she scurried away, back to the rest of the room. They had no idea what was happening, peering up in fear at the frozen metallic claws, at the empty faces of the Cybermen.
You had been so close becoming that. Rotting flesh, trapped inside of a walking tombstone, at the whim of the hivemind which controlled these creatures. You shivered, noticing one frozen in place a few metres behind where the Master had been. They must have encroached on the halted conversion room whilst youâd been asleep, creeping in like demons in the night. Fear gripped you at the idea of those monsters stepping over your unconscious, unguarded body, preserving your form only for its use to them as a puppet.
Since youâd taken those casings apart, youâd been terrified of them. Of the fate which befell those trapped inside, stripped of their humanity. None of those people inside were any more or less worthy of life than you, no one had saved them. They were undead, beyond saving but not yet released from life.
You shuddered.
Your legs continued to shake as you clambered to your feet, tiptoeing closer to one of the Cybermen, expecting it to jump back to life any moment. One question wouldnât leave your mind: Why were you still human?
You suspected the Masterâs involvement but, from the devastation on his face as the gas descended, perhaps he hadnât had as much influence as youâd thought. With another glance back at the door, you reminded yourself that your worst fears had been realised: he was still gone. Only a frozen monster in an otherwise empty corridor loomed back at you, still locked away by the thick doors which had separated you from him.
They must have closed again after Cybermen entered the chamber, and you knew you couldnât open them. Cybermen were far too methodical to allow your escape.
Nothing added up. Especially that you were alive without The Masterâs involvement.
Had he left on purpose? Assumed you dead? Given up on you?
You couldnât bear to think about the worst case scenario: that he wouldnât come back for you. Was he already running, a million lightyears away? Had the Doctor gotten to him?
Had he gotten to the Doctor?
Dwelling on your fears did nothing but make you freeze.
You needed to do something.
There were still people who needed help, you could help them.
But you couldnât be drawn away from the door. For a sickening moment you wondered if you had imagined him, the way he trembled, begged for you to fight off the inevitable. Perhaps induced by your fear, had you imagined the one person in the universe who could comfort you?
You longed for him to come back, to tut at you for being so scared and tease you for not having a respiratory bypass system.
Instead, he was gone. You were trapped. The noise of the crowd had gradually increased again, raising to a murmur as whispers and hushed sobs of children echoed off the walls. Tones were hushed, everyone terrified of waking the machinery again. Of restarting the horror. Every movement in the room spooked people, and the crackle of an overhead announcement system made people huddle together, whispering frantically as you all anticipated a robotic voice.
âYou will be convertedâ still stung fresh in your ears, that sound which had followed you, been offered as the only explanation for what was happening.
That soulless reading of a death sentence still loomed over everyone trapped here.
You tried to stand strong in your position â if nothing else you could be a barrier between the crowd and whatever came through this door â even as freshly-dried tears made your eyes ache.
When a Yorkshire lilt called your name through the speakers, and you smiled.
âHere!â
The group of people backed away from you, watching with equal fear and curiosity as you desperately shouted up to the ceiling, hoping she could hear you.
âI can open one of the doors for a moment, need a power surge and an external battery, itâs a whole thing. Can you see me?â
You scanned the perimeter of the conversion chamber, and spotted movement on the far side of the room. A few of the crowd moved to let you through, whispering, and you could have cried with relief. Her mane of blonde hair was visible through the clear panel of a door, and she waved to you manically as you jogged over it. It was a harsh contrast to how youâd spotted The Master. This time, your relief was warranted.
Unable to hear her, you relied on trying to understand how she pointed frantically to the ground at your feet, before crouching as the played with wires sticking out of something which looked suspiciously-bomb-like. You mirrored her pose, hidden from each other, now below the glass of the window.
You could hear muttering behind you, the shudder of your own breath, as you waited.
There was no rejecting the Doctorâs help now, no matter where your loyalties or personal grievances lay. With the Master gone, she was your only way out.
You had to trust her.
With a gut-wrenching clang the door suddenly shuddered and rose upwards. The thick metal looked too heavy to stop if it fell, but you just held your breath and rolled underneath, trusting her yelled command of:
âQuick!â
She scrambled to pull you clear of the door as it slammed closed like the heavy drop of a guillotine blade, making you cry out as it shook the ground. You had barely made it. That impact would have been fatal.
âDoctor!â
She was already stood, hands on hips. You found yourself left shaking on the ground. She was already on to the next problem.
âI hope that didnât rewake the system.â She mused as she picked at the smoldering wires, seemingly unaffected by your near-death experience.
You were panting, staring at her in shock. While youâd realised a long time ago that she wasnât any more careful with your wellbeing than the Master, you couldnât believe her complete nonchalance. Were The Master in her shoes he would be dragging you back to his TARDIS, apologising for putting you in the situation, his bravado stripped the second heâd seen your wellbeing at stake. Heâd be all gentle hands and mumbled reassurance, fury at every single person responsible for the construction of the machinery which had scared you so much.
The memory of his face through the door of the conversion room made your chest hurt, your eyes sting, and you knew heâd never forgive himself for being so reckless. For putting you at risk.
When you looked up, expecting a concerned look at the minimum, you saw the Timelordâs spot vacated. A ratâs nest of wires were the only indication sheâd even been beside you. The Doctor was already walking away, shoes clicking on the metallic floor of yet another identical corridor. The Cybermen here were still too, making you hug yourself and run to keep up with her.
âWhatâs happening?â
âI donât know,â he ground out.
The Doctor couldnât stand not knowing. She consulted her sonic screwdriver with a scrunched-up face, holding it to her ear, scanning one of the stationary suits as you finally caught up.
âWhereâs the Master?â You demanded.
âWhat?â
âThe Master.â
Her face turned dark, and she scowled.
âOf course heâs involved in all this. I should have known. Right, umâŠâ
With another wave and buzz of the sonic screwdriver, she scowled at the result, then at you.
âGot him.â
Perhaps you shouldnât have told her that he was here. Would it put him at risk? Would it put her at risk? You couldnât bring yourself to feel guilty. They would have met eventually, dragged together like unwilling magnets. They always converged eventually. And you really needed to see him.
The Doctor took off running, backtracking occasionally as she followed the trace of him the sonic had picked up. You tried in vain to remember these featureless corridors, should you need to navigate back alone. It wouldnât work. This facility was endless, an economically designed rabbit warren marked with ruthlessly minimal symbols which you couldnât discern meaning from.
You wouldnât be able to get out of here alone.
You spared a thought for the poor souls still trapped in the room youâd escaped, cowering under those metal claws and eyeless Cybermen, herded here like trembling sheep.
As you ran after the blonde Timelord the corridor suddenly opened to a large hangar-style door, like the hotwired one you had barely made it under. Seeing the metal above you made you shutter and halt at the threshold, but adrenaline forced you onwards. You cared more about what was inside, who was inside.
You could see him. Hunched over a computer, Cybermen shrunken at his feet like dolls, the Master was in a state of mania as he ripped the room apart.
Seeing him The Doctor gasped and tugged you around a corner and out of view of the room. You went to whisper a protest, but found her lean hand clapped over your mouth, barely touching but enough to stop you giving away her hiding spot.
âJust trust me,â she insisted. âStay here.â
She grabbed your hand, squeezing it as though you might be less inclined to follow her somehow.
You couldnât. Despite everything, you felt the draw of the Master, and she tugged your arm to hold you from straying too close to him as you peeked around the corner, just watching him.
His booming voice was unmistakable as he shouted into the room, but his face was hidden from you. The control room of the underground building was sparking and torn apart in places, The Masterâs precise tapping of computer keys was interspersed with the ruthless smashing of server racks as he threw them to the ground, scattering the technology. His dismantling of the room was equal parts strategic and uncontrolled destruction, and you worried for the blood seeping from his knuckles and forearms, his jacket strewn aside and sleeves rolled up.
As he took another break from the computer system to punch at a glass pane, you couldnât let him hurt himself anymore. You surged forward from your hiding spot, feeling the Doctor trying to hold you back. Adrenaline and happiness to see him was all which powered your body.
Calling to him, you imagined his excitement at realising you were alive. Maybe heâd stop smashing. Take you to safety.
âMASTââ
The Doctor grabbed you around the waist, pulling you against her body, muting you with a single hand clamped vice-tight over your mouth. For a moment the pair of you waited in silence, shocked by each otherâs actions in equal measure. Â
âI donât know what heâs done to you, but you need to stay away from him.â
Her accent grew stronger as she whispered, and you frowned. Her hand allowed you to breathe through your nose, but was tight around your jaw, her grip as strong as the Masterâs.
âThis is between us. You need to go back to the TARDIS.â
Not her TARDIS, you were sure of that.
You grunted into her hand, making her yell in pain as you bit down on the flesh of her palm, wriggling to get free. It didnât even matter who she was: you refused to be manhandled. Your eyes flashed to the corridor, hoping The Master had noticed you, run to your rescue.
No footsteps came.
With a sigh, her hands found your temple, and your body weakened.
You wanted to cry when you realised she was right. But not for the reasons she thought.
Her TARDIS was a mere few-minutesâ walk from where the pair of you had hidden, and she half-carried you the whole way, her mouth set in a grim line which terrified you more than any time the Master had ever shouted around you. You wanted to struggle, to fight her, but your body was too weakened to do anything.
You couldnât even cry out, forced into obeying her, muscles made limp by her touch on your mind.
Setting you on the ground in the console room, she finally uncovered your mouth and dashed to the doors, calling back to you. As quickly as you had lost it, you suddenly you regained your strength, able to run at her.
âStay in here.â
âDOCTOR!â
She darted out of the time ship just in time to escape your fury.
The TARDIS doors slammed closed, locking in an instant as you rushed to try and tug them open. It was no use, your whole body weight against the wood couldnât move those doors.
You looked up at the ceiling of the sentient ship, hoping she might take your side, only to be met with the gentle hum of the time rotor.
âI need to get out,â you begged. âPlease!â
Your exit remained barred.
A blue-tinged screen on the console flickered to life, and you left your post by the doors to peer at it. You could hear muffled voices outside, the screen showing a mute overhead view of the Doctor and her best enemy. Â
âPlease,â you whispered to her, stroking the console. You hoped she was like the Timelords who piloted her, using the touch to tune into your heart. âLet me talk to them.â
There was static, then a click, and you rushed back to the doors. They were still locked.
As you spun to the console in confusion, two familiar voices echoed through the shipâs speakers.
âIs she in there?â
It was him, voice desperate, demanding. The Master.
âNo.â
The Doctor was a weak liar at times. Heâd see through her. You pounded your fists at the translucent glass of the doors, then held one palm flat against it, begging him to notice you.
He did.
âDoctor!â He taunted. âYou lied to me!â
âStay away from her.â
Glancing back at the monitor, you could see how the Doctorâs body blocked his access to the door, positioning herself between the two of them.
âShe wants to see me.â
âShe doesnât.â
You wanted to scream, object as The Doctor stood cross-armed guard between him and the ship. Your words couldnât permeate the doors.
âIs she okay?â
The feed showed how his attire was destroyed in places, how he slumped, and something else tooâŠ
âYouâre crying!â The Doctor declared, shock clear in her voice.
The Master didnât hesitate, taking a long stride towards her, making The Doctor jut her chin out.
âIs she ALIVE?â
You didnât need the audio feed to hear his yell, and you could see how the blonde Timelord recoiled.
âObviously!â
He relaxed a little, taking back control, but you could still see how anger dripped off him. His words escaped him as a growl â frustration and fear a melting pot in his voice.
âYou have no idea what could be in that stuff she breathed. You havenât even checked her over, Doctor.â
âOh, as if you actually care.â
One of them would snap, the Masterâs snarling voice met with a harsh laugh from the other Timelord. One of them would just throttle the other, pull the TCE or a gun from some deep recesses of their pockets, or snap the othersâ neck. One of them would survive, pulling you into their arms over the broken body of the other.
You couldnât bear it. Tension seeped through the doors, through the silence of the TARDIS speakers and the bluelight of the screen.
âI care so much it frightens me. Can you imagine that, Doctor? That it scares me?â
He got closer to her face, almost spitting from anger.
âYouâre lying,â she growled.
âI destroyed the Cyberium.â
In the grainy monitor you saw her take pause, inspecting his face for a moment, like sheâd be able to see whether the Cyberium had left him from nothing but his panting and the whites of his eyes.
Youâd heard about it in vague terms, the Cyber AI which heâd absorbed. Youâd seen how he avoided the species like the plague as you travelled, the way he fought with it inside his own head sometimes.
Even when it seemed to cause him unbearable pain, heâd promised you it wasnât that bad. Only in the quiet moments, when he thought you couldnât see, did you catching him muttering to himself with his eyes pressed shut.
âYou what?â
The Doctor looked disbelieving.
âI followed it. I obeyed it, helped it, and this is how it rewarded me. So I killed it.â
Speechless, The Doctor just stared at him.
âIâll give you the command codes if you like, just let me take her. Please.â
âHave you hypnotized her?â
The Doctorâs new line of attack made you wince, spitting out her words like poison. The Master held his hands up in a surrender, a small silver box tucked under one thumb.
âNo. I swear.â
âLet me talk to her first.â
For a moment, the Master seemed to look straight through the monitor, directly at you, and you swore he could tell you were watching. You moved closer to the screen, arms folded nervously as his eyes flickered back to the Doctor.
âHave it your way. Iâll be in the shipâs command room.â He turned to walk away, but you heard his voice still, steady through the speakers. âIf you dematerialise, Doctor, I will hunt you down. And everyone left here will die.â
He marched off and you watched on the monitor as he left, longing to run to him as much as you wanted to kill him. The Doctorâs image paused for a moment, and you could see her pacing outside the TARDIS doors. Distracted by the live feed, you jumped when the doors finally banged open. The screen went black, and you silently thanked the ship for being on your side.
âLet me go.â
You told her firmly as she trudged towards the console, playing with one of the instruments like she was toying with just piloting the ship away.
âI will.â
The pair of you stood in silence for a moment, and you longed to say more, but what else was there to say?
âIs there any way I can convince you to stay away from him?â
You were already looking at the door, wondering if you could remember the route back to the smashed control room alone. The Doctor walked towards you, hands awkwardly behind her back, and you felt a pang of longing for what could have been if she was a little more honest, a little more open.
Her voice was desperate, soft, and it made your heart ache for the happier times youâd spent together. Before the pain which surged back and forth between you, the harsh words and the abandonment. Youâd hurt each other irreparably. You couldnât be happy with her and the fam. They would never be enough.
Despite everything, though, you didnât want to hate her.
âIâll always remember the adventures we had together,â you promised her.
So much had gone unsaid earlier, in your anger at her for dropping by unannounced and whisking you away like she still had a guarantee you wanted to travel with her. Facing the realisation that this really might be it, you wanted to hug her.
It was strange, wanting to leave her, and yet being so devasted about it.
âWhat is he, to you?â
She looked afraid to ask it, and you were sure she wouldnât like your answer. With a sigh, you saw no sense in lying to her.
âI think I love him.â
The drop of her face was enough to confirm it, that there was no getting out of this without hurting someone.
âNo mind control,â you promised.
âYou can still stay. Heâs dangerous.â
Her words were half-hearted. She knew your choice. You shook your head, and she finally left her comfortable spot, rounding the physical barrier of the console so there was only a few feet separating you.
âI know.â
For the first time since youâd known her, she hugged you, awkward and all misplaced limbs. You accepted it, hugging her tightly back. Her face was hidden from you, and you held her as long as sheâd let you, hoping you were imagining the ragged breaths which caught in her throat.
âWill he look after you?â
âI think so.â
She nodded against your shoulder, letting you go.
âThank you, for everything.â
You meant it. For the adventures, for the chance to get more from life than Earth could give you, for the friendships youâd shared with the fam, and for the chance to meet him.
Perhaps she already regretted that last gift.
âLetâs get going, then!â
Her chipper tone was mismatched for the somber mood as you stroked the console goodbye one last time, mumbling your gratitude to the impossible, ancient ship which had first shown you the beauty and terror of this universe. The Doctor strode out the door like this was any other adventure, and you almost expect to be met with the surface of an unknown planet, just one more time.
She led you through the corridors in silence, and you still shivered at the Cybermen as you passed them, recalling the horror concealed inside these metal soldiers.
With a quick instruction to wait for her, The Doctor darted off to check a rack of servers. This was it. Her easy out. She knew you wouldnât wait.
You kept walking, unexpectedly recognising where you were. He wouldnât be concealing anything in the corner of a cramped storage room. He would be at the heart of the ship. Waiting for you.
You were right. The doors to the control room hissed open as you approached, revealing him stood in the center of the room. Heâd cleaned up, put his jacket back on, brushed his disheveled hair back and lost that snarling, wild-animal demeanor he had been overcome by outside the conversion room, and while heâd spoken to the Doctor. Like the best of his disguises, composure covered his true feelings as he waited for the pair of you, distain on his face and his hands casually strewn in a trouser and jacket pocket.
When he saw you approach alone his performatively curled lip dropped, face slackening as he rushed towards you, open concern on his face. When you didnât reach out to embrace him, and he stopped, deflated a few feet from you. He tried to lighten the mood, his features picking up into an unnatural smile.
âI told you Iâd get you out!â
âYou didnât.â You told him flatly.
He reached for you, and you crossed your arms over yourself, resisting his offer of affection. You wouldnât go back to him without an apology, if you could help it.
âYou left me there.â
âYouâre here, youâreâŠâ
He trailed off at the Doctorâs appearance, barging flustered into the room, muttering that sheâd âtold you to waitâ. At her entrance the Master wrapped one arm around your waist, pulling you tightly to him. You tried to get away, and he wouldnât release you.
This was a show, meant only to remind the Doctor her friend had chosen him over her, and you hated it. You didnât want to help him hurt her.
âDonât touch me.â
He ignored your snarl. You kicked at his foot, and he broke his grip, allowing you to retreat from the two Timelords.
âLoverâs tiff,â he smiled apologetically to The Doctor, reaching out his hand for yours.
When you retreated further away from him again, he froze. He offered his palms up apologetically, and you noticed they were still littered with cuts, some particularly brutal looking. You suspected the smashed-up control room around you could answer for that. He caught you staring, open horror on your face, and shoved them in his trouser pockets.
âItâs okay,â The Doctorâs Yorkshire lilt tried to settle you, and she approached you from the other side like a scared animal. You recoiled from her too, and the Master stepped in front of you.
âYou brought her here!â He scoffed to the other Time Lord. âDonât pretend youâre any better than me!â
The Doctor was acting like the hero, as usual, treating The Master like a teacher calming a mid-meltdown child. Her soft voice and outstretched palms didnât seem quite so sincere, on the receiving end. You could understand The Masterâs anger, as her gentle voice tried to placate him.
âI brought you what you want, we can trade.â
Suddenly, pieces clicked together.
âYou said you didnât know the Master was here,â you frowned.
âDid I?â
You turned on her.
âThis was on purpose. You brought me here on purpose?â
From the drop of her jaw, you could read that you were right. At least a little bit. You felt your throat tighten with tears. The Master growled.
âHow dare you drag her into this!â
âWhat? Into your plan?â You caught yourself getting hysterical, but you didnât care. The Timelords glanced at each other, herding you back towards the glass projection which covered the entire back wall.
âYou were supposed to be on Earth! If you had stayed, like I told you ââ
Under your glare, he fell silent.
The Doctor, ever playing at being a peacekeeper, tried to step closer to you, only to be matched by the Master. You had nowhere left to go, backed against the dark glass wall of the bunker as they looked between you and each other.
âDoctor, did you⊠know the Master was here.â
âYes.â
She had the decency to sound remorseful. You thought back on when you first landed, how quickly youâd lost her, been swept up in the horde of people shepherded towards the conversion chamber. You remembered how youâd feared for your life, the heartbreak on the Masterâs face as heâd almost watched you experience a fate worse than death.
How sheâd suddenly decided she should have a heart-to-heart with you, the second the Master left you on earth.
âYou used me.â
They played this game, and you were a pawn in it. Sheâd brought you were, let you follow her out of the TARDIS, to play with the Master. Just so she could be the savior, and he could play at matching all of her light with his dark.
âGive me the codes, and this can all end,â she spoke to the Master, refusing to relinquish any of her control as the two of them trapped you. âIâll let you leave. Everyone downstairs lives. The Cybers get destroyed.â
âYouâre monsters,â you whispered.
The two Timelords glanced at each other, not meeting your eye.
âDarling⊠â The Master began. You cut him off.
âDonât.â
âThe Cyberium in my head, it was too much. I couldnât handle it, and if I did this, I could find a way to get it out. I needed their technology, their trust. Iâm sorry, love.â
You winced at the pet name. Heâd called you that in bed, once, and youâd felt like the happiest person in the universe. You couldnât even look him in the eye.
âI hope it was worth it.â
Even The Doctor wasnât speaking. You glanced at her, trying to read anything but shock on from her expression. Following your eyeline, the Master seemed to jolt at the recollection she was even there. Both of you startled as he shoved a hand into the inside of his waistcoat, rummaging.
He threw a small silver communicator underhand to The Doctor, and she barely caught it, inspecting it with unguarded horror.
âTake this. You can dismantle the conversion facility with it, get the people downstairs out.â
She was already at the computer console, sneaking wary glances at the pair of you as her hands flew across the keys, computers still a little scorched from The Masterâs earlier go at them. With the second Time Lord out of the picture, The Master turned to you.
âI was destroying this place. For what they did to you.â
âWhy did you leave me?â you demanded, âdown there?â
âI had to be here, to stop the gas, to freeze the hivemind. Iâd already destroyed the Cyberium, I couldnât stop it. I wasnât in control.â
You wanted to believe him so badly, the pain in his eyes seemed so real, and he held eye contact with you like youâd never seen before.
âShe was never meant to bring you were. I swear, Iâll kill every one of them myself if I have to.â
âThose people down there, theyâre just like me. You were going to kill them?â
âTheyâre not youââ
âBelieve it or not Master, Iâm human. Iâm the same as them. I know you hate it, but Iâm the same as them.â
âYouâre notââ
âI am! And you were willing to let them die.â
The tremble of his hand as he reached for your cheek gave away his fear, and you recoiled, wincing as your head collided with the hard glossy wall. The Master flinched too, dropping his hand.
âThink how many would have died if the Cyberium had taken over my mind. Taken my ship. Had you.â
The timeline was confusing. Upsetting. Too much to think about. You frowned as you tried to think about it.
âThatâs why you dropped me home.â
âIâm sorry, I couldnât let you see me losing control like that. I thought I could come back when it was all over, if I could get my mind back.â
The Doctor was working noisily, and an alarm started going off as she hacked further and further into the baseâs system. Outside, you heard a ringing as a Cyberman crumpled to the ground.
âWe need to leave.â
As angry as you were, you nodded quickly, letting him guide you out of the room. As you passed, the Doctor called your name.
âIt was the only way, Iâm sorry. I had to show him what he was doingâŠâ
Her face was truly devastated, for the brief glimpse of it you caught, but you couldnât forgive her. The Masterâs arm found your waist, guiding you away from her quickly, and you let him.
Betrayal had rooted deep in your gut, making you want to nauseous as you looked at her face. All your history together, and she had knowingly dumped you in the middle of a crowd to be converted into Cybermen. Just to hurt The Master.
You saw those blank creatures, their masks hiding the faces of real people, who had loved and been loved, had dreams and wants and needs.
Sheâd told you it was the worst thing she could imagine. That sheâd lost friends to that cruel death and would never risk losing another. At the time your heart had ached for her, for the suffering she had been through, her only crime trying to do the right thing. Apparently she didnât consider you a friend anymore.
The screeching of collapsing metal ricocheted off the bare corridors, and the Master moved the two of you faster.
You screamed as a Cyberman moved beside you, an electrical twitch before it collapsed to the ground in a pile of loose metal, and the Masterâs arm tightened around your waist even more protectively.
You couldnât move. Your feet were stuck to the ground as you saw the unnatural way the creature fell, the skeleton inside so decomposed the usual flexibility limits of a human body were far exceeded.
Almost pulling you over with his momentum, the Master stopped beside you. He followed your stare towards the horrific sight beside you, and made a noise of discontent in the back of his throat. With a gentle hand he guided your head away until you couldnât see the creature anymore and the vision was replaced with his face.
âIâm sorry.â
Against your better judgement, and despite everything youâd been through, you hugged him. In the corridor as the base started to crumple around you, you couldnât help unravelling at his touch, his head against yours as he pulled you tightly against him, feeling tears welling up in your eyes as you pressed your face to his shoulder.
âAre you okay?â he whispered.
âNo.â
Deep red lights illuminated the corridors around you, and you felt his sharp inhale of fear.
âTalk later. We need to run. Now.â
The Master struggled to navigate the corridors, swearing to himself each time he reached a junction, and dragging you in the right direction after a moment of panicked, hitting-his-own-head thought. It brought you some small measure of comfort, in the midst of this horrifying day, that he couldnât have been here long.
Lungs aching, you fought to keep up with him. Even the Master was stumbling, unused to running for this length of time, and he shot you looks of concern as your human body needed to wheeze for breath. The collapsed bodies of Cybermen and the screaming of alarms were enough to keep you moving as the very structure itself rumbled. The burning pain in your muscles could wait.
You noticed the Master cursing up at the ceiling level above, where the Doctor still resided, muttering. What was she doing?
Finally you let yourself slow at the sight of his ridiculous outback shack. It was completely out of place and blocking a walkway. That stupid ship. You loved it.
It was facing the wrong way, and you had to use the back porch steps to clamber up onto the structure, faltering as the comfort of being near the machine finally let your adrenaline crash. He half-dragged you to keep up as you both rounded the veranda, throwing the doors open and firmly pulling you inside. He rushed to the console as the rumbling of breaking concrete and collapsing earth followed you into the ship, and you didnât have the heart to care about the destruction happening outside.
The Doctor could handle the people who were trapped. She always did, their savior no matter the cost.
The moment the TARDISâ doors closed, you fell into that old rickety sofa, and sobbed.
The Master piloted in silence, and once the murmur of the ship engines had stopped, he paced towards you awkwardly. He crouched to sit himself on the low table opposite your curled form, clasped his hands, and bowed his head. He let you cry yourself out, staring out as the windows at the vortex â empty and filled with flashes of colour all at the same time.
After a while he left, coming back with water and tissues, and you took them gratefully.
A few sips of water left you with enough voice to speak, albeit tremblingly, as he watched you worriedly.
âDo you think the bunker collapsed? After we left?â
âProbably. I think she got them out though. The computers could open the doors to the surface.â
âGood,â you said firmly.
âGood that they got out, or that the building collapsed?â
âBoth.â
He chuckled, pulling your clenched hand away from your face. He pressed a kiss to your knuckles, keeping them held to his lips. His hands were warm against your fingers as he held them, leant forwards with his elbows resting on his knees, lips surprisingly soft.
You knew he could check the fate of the bunker collapse. Future archeologists would have found it, if no one at the time recorded its outcome. But you didnât particularly care for the truth. This ending was nicer.
Even after you fidgeted, trying to get more comfortable with him holding your hand away from you, he didnât let go. You noticed the marring on his hands, already scabbing a little, and turned onto your side to touch the wounds.
âDo these hurt?â
âA little. Theyâll heal up with some sleep, though.â
You laughed hollowly. Of course, a nap could heal wounds which you would need stitches for. He smiled sadly against your lips.
âDid you get hurt, at all? I was worried about the gas.â
âIâm a bit bruised, but Iâll be fine.â
The fall and the running made your muscles ache, but the main hurt wasnât physical.
Sheâd betrayed you.
âShe asked me to leave with her.â
He bowed his head, lips moving against your knuckles as he spoke.
âYou said no?â
âDuh.â
He smiled.
âThank you.â
You shrugged, not totally forgiving of him yet either. The energy had left you to fight. All you wanted was a bit of peace, convalescence before this inevitable game started again. The reckless travel, fighting over how much damage to cause, and the sex he didnât care about.
How much longer could the two of you keep this up?
You wondered if youâd ever regret the decision to stay with him. When death stared you in the face again? The next time he forgot how human you were? At the pull of the TCEâs trigger, as he killed someone without a second thought?
Maybe then the Doctorâs different-but-equally-grey morals might seem more appealing.
Perhaps if youâd begged her to let you rejoin the âfamâ, the Doctor might not have used you as a bargaining chip.
âWhen I saw you through that window⊠I realised you mean more to me. More than Iâd ever expected.â
The admission would have made you swoon, on another day, but you just threw your head back against the wicker armrest, emotionally exhausted.
âI mean it.â
He was watching you for a reaction, and you rolled your head to face him.
His eyebrows drew together in a frown.
âYou must be shattered, love.â
You could only nod, and he dropped his forehead to the hand he was clutching, a silent apology.
âWhat can I do to help? I need you to tell me. Iâve been alone too long, and Iâm not good at this stuff ââ
His breath was hot against the skin of your hand. It made you shiver.
âI just want a shower. And to sleep. We can talk in the morning I just⊠Iâve had a long day.â
âOf course.â
It wasnât a surprise to you, his capacity for tenderness, but you hadnât seen it this exposed, this prolonged, before. He seemed to move a little easier than he had in the last few weeks, his mind not drifting so far from where it ought to be tethered.
You wondered if heâd ever tell you how badly the Cyberium had affected him.
âSorry.â
Maybe he knew what your apology was for, maybe he didnât. Nonetheless he shook his head, helping you up, his hands held out in a silent offer for support walking should you need it. You took your own steps, legs trembling a little from overexertion as you walked alongside him towards the corridor which housed both of your rooms.
âWait a second,â he murmured, leaving you so he could check a screen, humming at whatever he saw.
Like heâd never left, he was back, arm held out for you to take. You laid a hand across his elbow lightly, not to lean on him, but to be near him.
âWhat was that?â
âJust checking youâre okay.â
At your puzzled look, he continued, tone dismissive.
âThe TARDIS checks your vital signs. That green gas was nasty, unknown, I just wanted to check it didnât need any immediate attention. Seems like it just knocked you out. How are your muscles feeling?â
âExhausted, obviously. I think Iâll ache tomorrow.â
He hummed in agreement as you reached your door, surprising you when he opened it for you and followed you inside.
âHigh lactic acid. Blood-oxygenâs a touch lower than Iâd like, too.â
You frowned.
âDo you really measure all that stuff on me?â
âIs it creepy? I hoped it wasnât. I just⊠itâs not exactly intrusive, better than a checkup or whatever. It lets me know youâre not about to drop down dead.â
He moved around your room as he spoke, collecting pajamas and your hairbrush, various other bits and bobs you might need in an overnight bag. When he caught you watching him, confused, he walked back to the door. Your possessions were bundled against his chest, secured by one of his hands.
âCome use my bath. Thereâs some soaks that should help you recover.â
The shake in your legs wasnât just from the running as you crossed the corridor, surprised by the realisation his door appeared to be unlocked. It was barely six feet from the entrance to your room, but youâd never seen this door open.
You had assumed his room was always locked. When he was in there, absent from the rest of the ship, it meant he wanted to be left strictly alone. Going inside, even with his hand guiding you, felt forbidden.
Heâd always fucked you in your room. It was easier for him that way. It allowed him to leave the second he was done, if he wanted to. Even when the pair of you got more comfortable, laying together, spending more time intertwined just reading or watching movies, his space was off limits.
He didnât miss the way you halted at the threshold, looking around at the curiously designed space. The furniture didnât match the room, you noticed. Colourless walls were contrasted with a regal four-poster, antique bookshelves stretched high towards an iridescent crystalline ceiling, futuristic inlaid lights illuminated the messiness of a hand-carved oak desk.
Old and new clashed, everything regal and big, but barely filling the oversized space.
âItâs a bit weird,â he conceded, âyou can stick to your room if you like.â
âNo, no its fine. Just not what I expected.â
He set your things on the bed, and you picked over the sweats heâd brought, clutching them to your chest.
âWhat did you expect?â he grinned.
âI donât know. Versailles? Or some kind of BDSM torture chamber?â
With a laugh he appraised the room, biting his lip in amusement.
âAre you disappointed?â
You found yourself grinning too, as he shucked off his coat and lay it over the desk chair.
âA little.â
The newly formed tension between you had felt like a lead weight, and you only realised when it was broken. You bounced on your heels as much as your injured muscles allowed, and let him lead you to the bathroom.
âDonât change yet, Iâll just grab some shower stuff!â
More classic, the bathroom was all marble, the space dominated by an oversized claw-foot tub. For a moment you realised the pair of you could fit in there comfortably, before brushing the thought away. Exhaustion was making you hazy already. Youâd just fall asleep.
Plus, you remembered, you were mad at him.
Ignoring his warning you started to strip off, left in just your underwear by the time he appeared in the doorway with an âoh!â
âIts fine. Nothing you havenât seen before,â you pointed out.
He still looked sheepish.
âRub this on anywhere that hurts before you get in the water, should stop any inflammation and youâll feel better in the morning.â
âHelp?â
You were too tired to navigate the pain mapped all across your body alone, and you didnât want to be without company. The screams of the child whoâd lost a mother, of the people whoâd seen that gas descending, the slamming of the door youâd barely rolled under, theyâd all find your ears again as ghosts the moment you were without distraction.
Without you stripping off any further, the pair of you managed to apply the chalky substance all over your body, the honey-sweet smell filling the air as his hands cautiously rubbed it across your muscles. You were more slapdash with your own application, and he quietly returned to spots youâd missed, making sure you wouldnât ache. His attention to your muscles was so tender and careful, you had to keep talking, just to stop yourself choking up.
âI could have used this on the Doctorâs TARDIS!â you had tried to joke.
The other Timelord was far more fond of running, and youâd woken up countless mornings in agony, even as the fun of the day before electrified the atmosphere in her ship.
The Master stayed silent.
On many levels, you felt you understood him a little better now. It had hurt, to be betrayed by her, but you had something in common now.
âDid it hurt to leave her?â he whispered.
The Masterâs eyes were on your calf as he kneaded the substance into your skin, but his hands froze at your momentary silence.
âYeah. It did. Before I realised what sheâd done, at least.â
He nodded silently, swallowing. The pair of you froze as you finally put the glass jar down, accepting that this excuse to be together was done. His hands left your skin and he walked to the sink awkwardly, washing his hands in silence.
He didnât leave, leaning against the counter and watching you.
âGive me a shout if you need me, okay?â
You smiled, suddenly shy, barely recognising the man in front of you.
âThanks.â
âIâll be just outside.â
Finally, he left. He closed the door with a click, and instantly you felt like an intruder, left alone in his bathroom. It was tidy, but everywhere were reminders it was his space. Aside from your clothes folded messily on the counter, there was only his things. A matte black range of branded products scattered the room, lined up by his toothbrush, on a built-in shelf of the shower. You wanted to investigate them, smell them. See which of them were responsible for the smell you associated with him.
The tub of hair clay by the sink had the lid slightly ajar, and it made you smile as you corrected it. He must have gotten ready in a rush. It was strange, that heâd even wanted you in here, but you hoped it was some step towards real closeness. There was still so much to say, but that was easy to forget when he was there, caring for you.
Youâd only left the Doctor because you could see a future with him â something she couldnât offer you, surrounded by carelessness and lies and three other companions. The Master could offer you more. You could almost picture your own toothbrush, stood up next to his.
You stripped off your underwear and left it on the countertop, foregoing the tub for the alluring waterfall shower in the corner of the room. It was easily big enough for four people, all natural-cut stone with a simple pair of dials to control it. Beautiful, and completely to the Masterâs taste.
Before you had touched anything the TARDIS started the water, a slow trickle turning into a warm sheet of water which made you sigh at the sensation of being underneath it.
âThanks, dear,â you mimicked how he spoke to the ship, and she flickered the lights in return.
It was heaven, to finally have every remaining atom of that base, that conversion room, those corridors, swept off your skin.
The products you reached for all smelt faintly like him â a matching suite of mildly citrus-scented body wash and hair products. Exhaustion and the smell made you feel dazed as you rubbed the chalky healing substance off your body. The smell of him made you feel somehow guilty as you tried to clean the sweat and grime from your hair and your face. His senses were so attuned, you wondered if it would freak him out. Or whether heâd like it, to have you smelling of him. Like a claim.
If he was still outside the unlocked door the thundering of the water hid any noise he made. You rolled your shoulders and turned the heat up, letting the heaviness of the water rush over you, waiting for this day to make sense.
You had no idea how long you stood there lost in thought. The Masterâs voice dragged you back to reality, calling your name worriedly through the door with a rap of his knuckles against the wood.
âAre you okay?â
âAll good!â
Calling back, you quickly rinsed your hair before shutting the water off, suddenly driven back to motion by his concern. Back in your early days together heâd often overestimated how much humans could withstand, lamenting the âwastedâ hours of sleep you wanted, or the frequency with which you had to eat. Heâd gotten better recently. He was aware of how exhaustion affected you, appreciated that you couldnât walk or run forever. It had amused you when he started carrying food and even occasionally arranging places for you to stay overnight, should your travels require it.
On a fundamental level, he had started caring for you more.
The Master had never gone to this extent, though. Or perhaps you had never needed his care as much. The scans his ship seemed to run on you proved heâd at least been checking your body was okay all this time.
Maybe heâd always just checked your health and opted to let you heal alone, before today.
A deep burgundy towel hung on a heated rail beside the shower and you grabbed it, careful not to slip as you wrapped the material around you. It was oversized, thick and soft, and you couldnât help the jolt when you felt the warmth of it on your bare skin and remembered it was his.
Even though heâd been inside of you, gotten to know you, youâd never been allowed to know him back. Not really. This felt like a start.
You had to brush the thought aside, drying your hair as best you could without a hairdryer, pulling on pajamas and leaving the wet towel back where you found it for the ship to deal with. It took a moment, and a deep breath, for you to finally emerge from the steam-filled room.
The Master was sat on his bed, reading some book from his collection which was quickly strewn onto his desk as you approached.
âBetter?â
âYeah, thanks. I think Iâll still ache tomorrow.â
He looked a little sheepish.
âHopefully not. That stuffâs pretty good, usually.â
You stood uncomfortably for a moment, waiting for some cue from him on where to go from here. He turned down the bed, silently pulling the covers aside for you to climb in. Then he looked at you expectantly, as if you were obviously supposed to just clamber into his bed. You were surprised, but all too grateful for the comfort.
âReally?â
He left your question unanswered. You settled beneath the sheets, and The Master watched you as he tried to figure out what to do next.
âDo you want me toâŠâ
He was mid-thought, it seemed, asking you if he should leave his own bedroom. You spoke over him.
âCan you stay with me? Just for tonight. Weâll forget it ever happened tomorrow if you want.â
He faltered, still watching you curiously. You wondered what his plan had been, if not to stay with you.
âEvery time I close my eyes, I see those fucking metal claws, the insides of those creatures, I ââ
Without a word he stripped off his jacket, boots and waistcoat.
âI just need a shower. Give me five minutes.â
You nodded, wrapping the covers around you and trying to get comfortable. Youâd never had âsides of the bedâ - heâd never stayed long enough to designate those - but you couldnât shake the feeling you were in the wrong place.
It was stupid. To be having casual sex with the man, to trust him with your life, and not even feel entitled to be sleeping in his bed.
Something had to change.
The Master was barely gone two minutes, emerging from his shower with a towel slung around his hips. He rummaged through his wardrobe before tugging free a pair of checkered pajama trousers, glancing to check you were still there before silently returning to the bathroom to change. You looked away at his half-nakedness, hoping he hadnât noticed your breath hitch.
The two of you were a mess.
His awkwardness didnât escape you as he rounded the bed, shirtless and with wet hair.
He climbed in beside you, careful not to touch you, and you tried to be as unobtrusive as possible, letting him pull the covers over himself and refusing to let your bodies roll together, even as the mattress gave. To your surprise, he lay out to mirror you, on his side behind you.
If not to the distance between your bodies, he could be chest to chest with you.
âComfy?â
You nodded against the pillow, hands self-consciously tucked away in front of you. You could feel it when he spoke, the whisper of his breath on your neck. His head rested inches behind yours, intimate even as the pair of you didnât touch.
âYou smell nice,â he mumbled, nose close to your freshly-washed hair.
You laughed.
âI smell like you, of course you like it!â
That got a chuckle out of him, and you could feel how his body moved the mattress as he exhaled.
âAre you cold? Your hairâs still wet.â
You shrugged, and he brought his arm around you, resting it on you without pulling you in. He made a noise of contentment as you shuffled closer into him, letting him hold you more easily.
With a gulp, you hoped his closeness to you would stop him from recoiling at your question.
âBefore you dropped me off⊠when I fell asleepâŠâ
âIâm sorry.â
Oh.
âSo, you did do it.â
âYou wouldnât leave otherwise. It is not safe for humans around Cybermen,â he trailed off.
The question you wanted answered was obvious, hanging in the air, making you tense.
âIts not okay, to mess with peopleâs heads like that,â you chided him gently, with no anger in your tone, nothing to make him explode at you like he had before.
âI⊠yeah. I know.â
You frowned, even as you knew he couldnât see you.
âThe Cyberium⊠it made me not trust myself. It was relentless, talking to me. Muddling my thoughts with the AIâŠâ
âYou were scared.â
âI was furious. It made me volatile.â
His face buried into your neck. As though this was the most natural thing in the world, you found yourself trusting his touch. You brought a hand up to stroke his hair as he mumbled against your skin.
âI was scared. It threatened to hurt you if I didnât do what it wanted. I didnât sleep for a month, couldnât let my guard down, knowing it might use my body to hurt you. It was trying to get to me.â
You found his arm where it was strewn across your side and covered it with your own arm, squeezed his hand in comfort.
âYou should have told me.â
âHow could I?â
Without a response you fell silent, thumb tracing the hairs on the back of his hand.
âI hope youâll forgive me, someday. You shouldnât have been there. I promise.â
He blamed the Doctor, beyond all anger, he was just upset with her. You could never hope to understand the length and breadth of their tumultuous relationship. It would take a human lifetime to comprehend the bond between them â two near-gods who had been stuck in a game of cat and mouse for their whole lives.
âShe used me.â
âI wish she hadnât.â
Without seeing each otherâs faces, it was easier to talk.
âWould you have stopped it, if I hadnât been there?â
âEventually. I wanted to destroy the base properly. I wanted a plan. I hate the Cyberium for what it did to me. It should have been power, knowledge, and instead it tried to steal what I knew, take my body for its own. The things it showed me⊠how it threatened me⊠I couldnât let it take whatâs mine.â
âThe TARDISâŠâ you realised.
âAnd you.â
You nodded abruptly at his words.
One thought wouldnât leave your mind: those people around you, he would have let them die.
Collaterally to you, heâd saved them.
And maybe that could be a start.
âIs the Cyberium totally gone now?â
âYep! Transferred it to the supercomputer on the base, and then destroyed the machinery. Tricky to hide my plan from the AI, but I managed it.â
You couldnât help smirking at his brag.
âAnd how do you feel?â
âGlad to have my mind to myself again,â his tone flattened.
It was hard to believe everything fell together, just like that. It still felt so unfinished, so⊠unhandled. In the minutes you were alone the feelings of betrayal, the sheer enormity of your ordeal, had felt so unmanageable. Now, you felt ready to heal.
Beneath his hand, your stomach gurgled loudly, and you cringed at the noise.
As you were about to apologise, the Master spoke.
âWait, did you eat today?â
You frankly had no idea how long today had even been. You shook your head with a confused frown, realising that now the adrenaline had left your system, you were damn hungry.
He clambered out of bed, and you pulled the duvet aside to follow him, your muscles protesting at even the idea of walking to the kitchen.
âNo, stay there, you need to rest. Iâll be quick.â
True to his word, a plate of food was dumped on your lap in minutes. Some of it not quite fit for human consumption, but most of it your favourites.
He clambered back into bed beside you. He used his body to prop you up comfortably. He picked off what you didnât want, chatting away about nothing in particular, and something scarily like peace settled over you. That twinge of panic, the fear his mood would flip on a dime, ebbed further away every time he made sure the blankets were covering your feet. With every second he sat beside you, sneaking bites of your food and laughing when you spilt crumbs on his covers, your resolve grew.
Youâd stay.
Maybe you imagined it, but he seemed so much happier in his own head. The dark moments when he wasnât paying attention never appeared, the mental war he was fighting never sneaking outwards to play across his face. Every laugh felt sincere, every word authentic.
When you were done eating the Master cleared the plate, and you took it in turns to brush your teeth. He went first, and when you took his place in the bathroom you saw a brand-new toothbrush sitting innocently beside his at the sink.
The sight made you feel dizzy, even minutes later when you re-emerged into his darkened bedroom, taking your place once more in the bed. The image of those two toothbrushes side by side was burned into your mind. He pulled you to his shirtless body wordlessly, no hesitations this time, whispering a goodnight as the room fell into pitch-blackness.
You needed to rest.
Each time you closed your eyes, you tensed up. No matter the comfort, The Master had gone still beside you, but you were certain he was still awake.
âWhere are we?â
âSomewhere near the Alzarium Galaxy, I believe.â
âHow farââ
âHalf a universe away, I promise.â
You closed your eyes again, feeling him breathe behind you as you tried to push the image of that collapsed Cyberman from your mind, the screams, that crying, motherless child. Youâd seen horrors before, but rarely as the victim of them. Never so close.
Suppressing tears, you opened your eyes, staring into the darkness of the room.
âI canât sleep.â
He hummed sympathy, pulling you tighter to him and brushing his nose against your neck. You sighed into him, trying to close your eyes again, unable to keep your mind from straying.
âHelp me?â
You could talk more tomorrow, when youâd rested and had some distance from everything. But as you fell asleep, dreamless as the Masterâs hands cupped your temples, you knew you were home.