Work is so slow now that the holidays are over and I just did my diary card. The day before therapy. What?!? I usually procrastinate and end up attempting it the morning of and most of the time not even sending it out. But like now it’s done and I feel so good!
I’m a nerd, artist, and a crazy person so I made my own diary card for therapy because the one they give you is always trash.
If anyone wants it, I comment/reblog and I’ll send you the .Ai so you can customize to your own needs.
I was supposed to go on a date that I was excited about and on my way there, I rear-ended another car which took another hour and half to sort out. Obviously had to cancel the date. He has not responded since then which I'm upset about.
Then just LOTS of negative thoughts and emotions coming up around my shame around car accidents in the past and generally negative thoughts about myself which I will refrain from listing here.
Mini diary card check in:
Happiness: 0/5
Sadness: 4/5
Envy: 0/5
Shame: 4/5
Guilt: 5/5
Misery: 3/5
Love: 2/5 but sad about it
Jealousy: 2/5
Anger: 3/5
Numb: 0/5
URGES:
SI: 1/5
SH: 4/5
Restriction: 1/5
Isolate: 3/5
Outburst: 5/5 Actions Made (the lame as fucking desperate text that he didn't respond)
Alcohol: 1/5
Pills: misuse 2/5
Sleep as avoidance: 4/5
Coping skills:
1. Take a bath ✅
2. Emotional check in ✅
3. Comfort food
4. Watch pleasant show (Veronica Mars) as Opposite Action
5. Tell mom thank you for being supportive (opposite action + gratitude) ✅
6. I will survive this day and every day. (Affirmations)
So I’m starting up a diary card again with my therapist. It was my idea and because of that my mind is trying to convince me that it’s not really needed and things aren’t that bad to warrant a diary card.
I'm supposed to have been filling out a DBT diary card for the past two weeks and I haven't and I have therapy tomorrow and I'm freaking out I'm freaking out