#disordered eating?

[tototavros]

brain just decided to turn the hunger switch off completely again (it's fine it happens about once a month or two and then i have to relearn what hunger is like based on feeling weak n stuff) but this time it's actually annoying because i have far less of an appetite than i used to, like i used to just have a chipotle burrito as one of my two meals of the day and maybe need a bit more, now i can't even finish one and then i feel like shit for the next few hours because of overeating

[brin-bellway]

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I think this makes perfect! I'm curious in what way this is surprising to you

Well, first of all the entire idea of balanced meals weirds me out. I eat in small-but-frequent quantities (you can see what a normal day looks like for me here), so to me the natural time unit across which one should balance one's nutrient intake is the *day*. (Maybe even 2 - 3 days, since on any given day I often run out of appetite before covering all the categories I'd intended to.) I actually feel thrown off planning-wise when I *do* eat a balanced meal, because what am I supposed to eat to counterbalance it later? It counts towards a little bit of everything, which means it doesn't *really* count towards *anything*.

(In fact, the entire idea of *meals* kind of weirds me out. My foods are generally much more atomised, and it never ceases to amaze me that there are so many people who go through meal levels of complicatedness and preparation almost *every time they eat*. I do that kind of shit once a day at *most*, and left to my own devices I make relatively simple meals at that.)

While my diet is quite rigid and has had some thought put into it, it’s not exactly *planned* in the same sense that yours seems to be. I don't track precise nutrient intakes: I just try to cover a bunch of different kinds of food over the course of a time unit. The only thing I specifically seek out is fibre, as my body has repeatedly complained that [a version of my diet in which I do not actively seek out fibre] is not fibrous enough. I've also been eating fewer and less frequent high-fat foods, again because of negative physical responses rather than an abstract intellectual belief that they were bad for me.

[queersplendent-deactivated]

Gotta see if this is an actually relatable autistic feel, or if it’s just me:

Does anyone else have a thing with food where, like, you prefer eating food components rather than combining them? Like eating vegetables individually instead of making a salad. Like when you have bread and lunch meat, you make toast, eat it, and then eat the lunch meat straight from the packet. Like eating three different canned goods separately and from the can even though you could easily have made a meal by combining or cooking them.

[princesiddie]

today started weird stayed weird and ended weird i ate like max 1000 calories coz i started eating at 5pm

[jenny-dreadful]

super hungry all of a sudden but i am to this day uncomfortable eating around my dad so i guess i’m not eating

[ezra-blue]

Real diet talk for a second?

Articles like the one I reblogged earlier make me super nervous. I do sometimes feel myself doing the “bad food do not eat” thing, but that’s with stuff like deep fried foods and “kitchen sink” brownies, and I often amend that to “eat sparingly.” Like, if 

I try to eat a balanced diet with grains and meats, but just controlled portions! I eat Greek yogurt nearly daily (yes non-fat and low sugar, but still), and I have a varied diet that includes plenty of fruits and vegetables and carbs and protein, as well as healthy fats. I’d like to think I’m balanced, but then I read articles like that and worry. 

What if my stomach troubles are caused by my diet? Or my back pain? Or that weird exhaustion I get at the end of the day? Am I hurting myself by trying to help myself?

Worse, am I fucking with my own thinking by sticking so strictly to my diet?

I don’t know. 

All I know is that I ate a piece of chocolate tonight because I fucking love chocolate and it’s been a while since I just ate a piece of chocolate. Not low-fat no-sugar-added chocolate frozen yogurt, a chunk of pure dark chocolate. (I just budgeted for it.) And I’m really looking forward to the “maintain” part of the diet, because I think I get more wiggle room for treats then.

[dandelionpie]

Me: I have a lot of trouble focusing on work and basic daily tasks, often to the point where I'm too distracted to eat regular meals or stay hydrated. Also I worry a lot. My therapist: Try these anxiety meds! Me: These meds make me drowsy and disrupt my sleep patterns and are generally messing with my life. My therapist: You'd probably feel better if you ate regular meals and stayed hydrated. Totally not me because I have never been this assertive in my life: SOUNDS LIKE MAYBE I HAVE AN EXECUTIVE FUNCTIONING ISSUE.

[malunstuckintime]

I've been making a concerted effort to eat more regularly. I've worked up to eating breakfast and lunch instead of just dinner. But i still need to get more protein and a bit more quantity wise. So zi finally ordered some of the shakes my dietitian suggested. Im going to try to add one during the day because we eat dinner so late (yeah, swing shifts!).