#disordered sleep

[westernlarch]

I can write, I really can! I am a decent writer. But then I can't actually write because life and health are in the way. By the time I have a moment, it's so late and I'm so tired...there is no room for more thoughts and more words and more hard work. Staying up late (hi! It's almost 13:00 here!) is also not an option considering I wake up several times a night or stay awake scratching my poor skin. I'm so tired and broken but all I want to do is write without feeling like my brain will fall out of my ear 😭

[anxietycreation]

Genuinely dreading going to sleep. I don't want another day where I sleep for 20 hours straight, that'll be the third time this week if I do.

I want more from life than just sleeping and trying to catch up on basic tasks.

[fandomohana]

Not me at 10:45 at night, yawning like crazy, knowing I'll hit a second wind in 20 minutes. 🥱🤣🤣🤣

[magic-multicolored-miracle]

Me, trying to figure out why the day has gone by so fast and I feel like I’m missing time.

Probably Daylight Savings and also the not sleeping last night. Those are both good for erasing things. 

[giraffeseatingcake]

Granted I'd been up for 30 hours and very stressed/overstimulated, but.. a bit ago I was just sitting, going through some things, and I looked up at dereck and the entire room started spinning intensely for about 5 seconds before stopping. Now I feel incredibly weak and unstable. Yes I'm sleep deprived but that's not unusual for me, what the fuck just happened. I'm also far far far more stressed right now than I have been in a long time and was basically just shaking all day for some reason. Are they related? Are they not? I don't know! But I hate this! Fuck. I'm going to bed, this better just be sleep deprivation.

[hellishfig]

rapid test came back positive for me, effectively canceling our plans to visit my Opa

i don’t think i have any symptoms though? my nose is runny and i’m coughing, but that’s bc it’s cold and i smoke!

also it’s 1:30am on Friday 12/24/21 and i haven’t slept since Wednesday, so that probably accounts for the muscle aches

like, i don’t feel good, but i also don’t feel like i’m dying

[hailmaryfullofgrace55675]

almost completely failed to eat my meal last night because i made the mistake of eating a bit and then pausing late at night (the classic mistake, because eating a bit causes me to feel satiety and lose motivation and it being late at night means im going to keep myself up for too long until i pass out). but im practicing acceptance and hey, i tried a new food, i ate some of it at least, it’s not like i can’t afford this, and i can make more food whenever i want.

[hiddensquid22]

Do any of you find that you can actually get hurt in nightmares? Like you can feel the pain in the dream and it lingers when you wake up?

It's something I've always experienced, probably about 2-3 times a month, and so I hadn't thought anything of it. I figured it was a normal thing that most people experienced. Until I mentioned it in passing to my husband and got a shocked look and a "that's not supposed to happen, you're supposed to wake up first."

I can find a few articles that mention feeling pain in nightmares is, in fact, a thing that happens to some people but it's incredibly rare. And they pain they talk about sounds very different from what I experience (more bludgeoning or bruising whereas I experience deep cuts and, at one point, having my arm sawed off) and I've seen little to no mention of the pain lasting after waking up. Let alone lasting for hours after waking up.

Mostly, I just want to know that I'm not alone in this? And want to know if anyone else knows why this is a thing?