Ok, ok… just one more sketch from the story by @justaduckarts
I wasn’t really gonna post this one up, but I started coloring it in and I figured “ah, what the hell?” Anyways, this was another cool scene I really liked. I don’t wanna explain it too much (I wouldn’t be able to do it justice) and I really don’t wanna spoil how it got to this point, so I would suggest ya’ll just go read it.
TLDR; I will be discontinuing my current works. Longer explanation under the cut.
Hello.
I have been dreading making this post for a long time.
Truthfully, I have been trying and failing to write for some time. I can't begin to tell you the absolute despair it is to open a document, eager to dive back in, and then have your mind go blank.
I think that I have, unfortunately, made it harder on myself than it ever should be. I feel this intense pressure to complete these works, and, ironically it makes me lose focus. Writing these fics has long since stopped being fun and just become 'I have to finish this because everyone is waiting for me to'. It has also poisoned all of my personal projects. Every time I open something that isn't on my AO3, I think "I could be using this time to work on my published works. Everyone is wondering when I will update".
That feeling really sucks. I've stopped writing almost entirely, and it has really worn on me. Writing has been so precious to me as a disabled person. It has been my way of leaving my home when I cannot do so physically. Not being able to for weeks at a time has really weighed on me.
I think that a big part of my problem is that I put myself in this situation by presenting stories that didn't have a solid plan behind them. Before publishing my first DCA fic, Glimpse of Us, I wrote 13 drafts of fics that never saw the light of day.
This is just my project style. I find it easiest to flit between stories, trying new angles and concepts until something 'clicks'. DLNS was a work with a direction. Things started to go downhill when I began publishing Star Holder, a story with no plan that blew up too fast and really, really overwhelmed me. I never expected to get so many eyes on my works. I always thought I'd just be writing for maybe 30 weirdos like myself.
The truth is, I have completely lost my motivation to finish DLNS: Prehistoric Paradise, Below The Surface, or Help! I'm Trapped in a Fanfiction. I am not even sure if I will finish Unclip My Wings, although it is my sincerest wish to try. When I'm ready.
All of this to say: I'm sorry. I feel like I'm letting everyone down, but I can't even plan the next paragraph. I've opened my drafts, I've reread them, I've banged my head against the keyboard. It's just not working.
I think from this point forward, it's safe to consider my hiatus as permanent. I want to write again. And I have no doubt I will. But for right now, I just need to shed my current projects and guve myself room to breathe. This is no one's fault, and I sincerely hope you can understand where I'm coming from.
Finally, I wanted to say: Thank you. Thank you all from the bottom of my heart for sticking with me. For reading my stories and loving them. For every piece of fanart, every question and comment. I have adored interacting with the DCA community so much, and I have found so many incredible friends. If you have questions about how a story might have ended or characters found within, I would be happy to answer them when I come back.
For now, stay weird, and stay safe out there. I wish you all the very best.
AAAAAA I’m done! First art on the blog, and it’s fanart!
These characters do NOT belong to me! They belong to @justaduckarts ! This is from their DLNS fic, I highly recommend it, it’s a good read! I may also note that this is not a canon scene, but I felt the urge to draw Cody and Derek’s rivalry—
The characters in this comic(?) are Cody (blond) (<3), Derek (Mean looker >:^), and Terry! (Who is a very, very tired man.)
I am truly alone. This is loneliness is the worst type of emotion to feel. It makes me cave and wish I wasn’t here. I see no point to my existence. I can’t even cry over it. Im hurt, depressed, unmotivated, unsure, and lonely. I don’t want to be here. I’m not even sure I’m needed here -DLNS.
Pro tip: if you're mentally ill about the DCA (like me) and you need to get yourself out of your dark little seasonal depression cave to get some sunlight you can just pretend that you're sitting outsde with the boys while they solar charge.
Like.
Imagine sitting on a blanket and chatting idly. I'm sure Sun would make jokes about working on his tan. He'd go, "I better turn over so I get an even tan" or "do you think anyone will notice my tan lines?!" /dramatic. I bet he'd have a special blanket specifically for laying out.
I particularly like this idea for later DLNS stuff. The idea of Sun being able to just. Go outside and enjoy a sunny day is everything to me. QwQ He'd be so social and animated and he's the kind of guy you know everyone would adore. He thrives so much in social settings!! My poor sheltered little extrovert is so underestimulated!! Let him go outside and clown!!!
Hello, I was looking over your master list of stories and I noticed you didn't put the link or any mention of Days of Laughts and Nights of Screams Prehistoric Paradise. I was curious if this one has been discontinued or not. I love your stories and so I was honestly just curious
Hello!
First of all, thank you very much for reading my stories. I'm so touched that people are still interested in them. :D
To answer your question, you are correct. DLNS:PP is no longer linked because the story has been shelved. I was very in love with the idea of the sequel and I had a plan for the plot's entirety, but I lost my drive for it during the early writing phase. This is no one's fault.
I have actually considered releasing the outline to the entire story, or perhaps releasing it as drabbles at some point so I can skip the bulk of establishing narrative. I do want to eventually tell this story, which is why I have chosen not to take it off of AO3 entirely. I do want people to know what's gonna happen in the new location, especially with Julia and Glitchtrap and the Suns and Moons. I really hope I can eventually find the inspiration to continue. That being said, I do not want to give anyone anymore false hope that an update is coming in the near future. At this moment I am focused on Unclip My Wings, but I am hoping to return to all of my works at some point to try and resume them. The unfortunate reality of writing is that you sometimes have too many ideas and it can be hard to keep yourself tied to one.
Again, thank you very much. I hope you have a great day! <3