Maybe everyone reaches an age when they can’t help thinking that they should have done more, lived more, been more than who they are. I’m not who I wanted to be.
― Alice Feeney, Beautiful Ugly: A Novel (Flatiron Books, January 14, 2025)

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Maybe everyone reaches an age when they can’t help thinking that they should have done more, lived more, been more than who they are. I’m not who I wanted to be.
― Alice Feeney, Beautiful Ugly: A Novel (Flatiron Books, January 14, 2025)
Thinking about everything I've done wrong in my entire life, how's everyone else's night going?
Fascinated by Lionblaze's relationship with Flywhisker and Snaptooth. What must he feel about them becoming kittypets? Does he confide in Jayfeather about it? I want to see the angst. And acknowledgement that he is Spotfur's father as well how are his grandkits doing.
ngl I really wish the books remembered the family tree sometimes and gave more moments like the ones you mentioned ☹️ I havent finished avos, but ive seen something about spotfur(?) not agreeing w some of his decisions or opinions (very tame term I'm using I think). all in all YEAH, that along w fly and snap going away... As well as all the other shit that's happening around him. It's a mess lol
just a little word vomit/vent/freak out - it’s not important.
Starting to panic about not fitting in the plane seat on Friday, or not having the seatbelt do up.
Which is stupid, because even at my heaviest I was OK (just) - have always had an issue with the tray tables though because of how I carry my weight.
I’m worrying about nothing. I will be fine.
Last time I flew to Bali I was at my heaviest - I’m about 20kg down from there now, if I fit then, I’ll fit now.
And now I’m worrying about not being able to do all the fun fitness-y stuff that my sister-in-law wants to do like white water rafting - I’m super keen to do it but don’t think they’ll have a life vest that fits. And what if I’m too heavy/big for the water slides at waterbom?
I need to switch off my brain. Just stop.
Done more
I seem to Have done More than I Remember This year I have seen New cities And lights In southern Evening skies I have heard NYC streets After walking So long On my feet I have gained More of Being me With you Guiding me I have gotten More like I'm supposed To be When I'm me It's been longer Than I thought A year gone With so much done
I'm not saying it's your fault, although you could of done more..
The Kooks _ Naive