Okay so I have wanted an instant pot for about 4 years now. And I've also wanted a rice cooker but figured I could use the instant pot for the same (and I did and it was fab). The rebirth of a healthier me. I've lost my way the last while with work stress, family stress etc but the presents my loved ones collectively gave me for Christmas this year shocked me as they were all either really personal, or things they know I could do with but wouldn't buy for myself and only further serve to help the healthy lifestyle I want.
A book about learning to say no*** (the most valued of all?)
An anthropology book, supposedly with the history of every culture that's lived in the last 13,000 years (we'll see)
The librarians of Auschwitz, gifted to me by my dad who I somehow gifted the same book to???
A coffee mug/copious amounts of coffee, fluffy socks
A book about the planets to add to my Brian Cox collection
Dr Greger's How Not To Die cookbook
I don't try to live my life with a focus on acquiring material possessions and am well aware of how lucky I am and would have been happy with a handmade card if I'm honest but fuck, these were all so personal and will all help me be my best self, though I'd promised myself I'd do that already, they'll just make it a bit easier.
I've gained weight and lost energy, motivation etc since moving out of my apartment with my tail between my legs and working the most stressful toxic job but things are on the up.
See, I made a decision a while back to start saying no to things I didn't like and yes to things that mattered. Yes to health, yes to life, no to the lack of both.
Towards the end of the year I hadn't quite mastered saying no or getting back to my healthy self but I had got far enough that I ascerted myself and my worth at work, got myself a raise and, hopefully a little respect but time will tell. I managed to buy the people I love presents that will actually be valued and loved.
Anyway, I don't mean to rant I just wanted to document a little something this morning because I'm back at work and though it's a little painful it feels fresh and I feel more ready and I'm going to read that book about saying no, make healthy recipes in the instant pot, workout in the first pair of proper trainers I've ever owned and become a better happier version of myself.
