It's been a while since I've sat down and felt the need to write to you. The last I left off we came to the conclusion that I need to talk to you when I want to, and to not hold back. It causes problems when I don't communicate, and I'm always terrible at expressing myself. When you told me you missed me while I was at work, it was honestly the best part of my day. I wish that I had seen it right away, but I guess it was better to come home to it, and to have it be the end to my day. I was driving through your neighborhood, past your parent's house twice just because I missed the drive and I hadn't heard from you in a few days. A lot happened this week. You said eventually you could be a father to my kid, but that it woudln't happen immediately. I think about us as a family sometimes, and it's scary because we aren't even together right now. But my mind and my heart keep telling me that we are. I don't look at other men the way I would if I were single, I feel as though I'm already with who I'm supposed to be with. It's just taking us some time to get back on the same path. I told you everything that I miss about us. I just want to end the day laying next to you listening to you breathe. It hurts sometimes missing you this much, but I'm the happiest I've been in a while. My life is finally on the path that I want it to be on, and I finally feel like I'm someone worthy of your love. We both put up with a lot of bullshit from eachother, but one thing that I've always been envious of is how you know exactly what you want out of life, and you went out and got it. It's making my realize just how important it is to strive for your goals. I love you so much, and I miss you. I hope you come home soon. I'll try not to be so needy this time. Please keep yourself safe.
