Title: we drown through the night
Series: Hold Back the Night, part 2
Fandom: Whitechapel
Ship: Ed/Miles, Joe/Miles
Tags: Explicit, Bondage, Masturbation, Nightmares, Eventual Ed/Joe/Miles, post s04e05
Summary: How was Ed supposed to face Miles after what they'd done? How was Miles supposed to let Buchan avoid him without doing something about it?
a/n: I hope u like miserable guilty wanking! >:3c Thank you as ever to @80aidy80 and @autisticwriterblog for the eternal cheerleading and excitement! 💚💚
There will be a short break in this series while i work on exchange assignments, but please rest assured there will be more to come!
Fandom: Whitechapel (TV)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Edward Buchan/Joseph Chandler/Ray Miles
Characters: Edward Buchan, Ray Miles, Joseph Chandler, Other(s)
Additional Tags: Whump, Angst and Hurt/Comfort, Edward Buchan Needs a Hug, Hurt/Comfort, Panic Attacks, Blood and Injury, Crying, Trauma, Pre-Poly, Restraints, Angst with a Happy Ending, Title from a Poets of the Fall Song, Season/Series 04, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Edward Buchan Whump, One Shot
Summary: After dozing off in the archive, Ed wakes up with his hands cuffed behind his back. His restrained wrists bring back horrible memories of being kidnapped by Diggory, sending Ed spiralling into a panic attack. Luckily for Ed, Joe and Miles are the ones who find him.
It’s finally done!!
Decicated to @4th-make-quail and @80aidy80 for being so enthusiastic during the writing process!
[ ☂️ ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they crave touch or fear it ?
it seems to me that Ed leads a very lonely life - outside from his quiz nights, his book stuff and his outings with Mother, he doesn't seem to have much in the way of a friendship that would lean into touch, and i think it's prolly been this way for a long time now so i'm absolutely HUGELY on the train that he craves touch something rotten!!!
like, does anyone ever hug him?! NO. he's down there in his archive all on his own for the most part, then he goes home to his lonely home, still on his own... 😭😭😭 so yeah, he craves it like he craves affection, and i think he'd likely think himself a very sad and pathetic man for it, so he gets all up in his head but then Joe or Miles touch him and he just fucking melts, oughhh
[ 🌧️ ]ㅤ.ㅤis there a pain they refuse to heal from ?
well, yes absolutely - his guilt over those girls dying clearly takes its toll on him even through to s4 and after what happens to Morgan, i can't see him getting over it any time soon. i think also he wants to feel bad about it, he thinks he deserves the pain and the guilt, so he's also not so eager to try and heal from it either (thinking about his convo with Joe where he says Joe doesn't give him the answer he's looking for about this, knowing he'll have to learn live with it doesn't feel like healing either).
i do think in his rough way, Miles would help him start to get back on that path of healing, because he's just very pragmatic and experienced, and he knows that you can't let the job get in your head or it'll ruin you. i feel like that might be more helpful for him than Joe's frankness (not just saying this cos i'm on the EdMiles train something rotten I PROMISE LOL)
[ 🍃 ]ㅤ.ㅤdo they feel like they belong ?
NO!!!!! ANGRYCRY EMOTE!!!!! 😭😭😭 AND THE REST OF THE TEAM BEING ARSEHOLES TO HIM DOESN'T HELP!!!!! i feel like there's times where he was beginning to feel like maybe he does belong, but then there's a comment from Mansell or Kent, or he remembers the shit with Riley and then it all comes crashing back down again and he's ashamed and embarrassed that he ever thought he could belong in the first place 😭😭😭😭
ofc Miles catches wind of this, especially after he starts to get more protective (and a bit possessive) of Ed and he puts paid to that straight away in that fucking gruff, sincere way of his (ough). he'd ALSO have a hard word with Joe i think at this point, just to bring it to his attention and to be like "listen, don't be harsh with him, I know, I know I've changed my tune but I'm being serious" and then after that, Joe continues to bring Ed into their investigations and gives him encouragement and just tries to build him up a bit.
and then they're all going home and he's working with Miles to just thoroughly and completely blow Ed's back out until he can't help but know he belongs, at least with them, and that's all that matters 🥰🥰
because it's been foreverrr and i miss doing them, so!
i'm not sure who's working on exchange things they can't share, so i'll just tag a few people BUT the spirit of my WIP Wednesdays is that they're for anyone! so please join in and tag me, and i shall duly come and circlejerk ur work :DDD
for my part, i'm hoping to get this posted in the next few days, but for now, please have a chunk of my Whitechapel wip - the sequel to Carry on Breathing, which is my Ed/Miles(/Joe) series~ full text below the cut as usual!
Miles saw Buchan's halt, frozen like a rabbit in headlights, hands midway through putting teabags into two mugs. "Did you?"
"Yeah. Were you hoping I'd forgotten?"
Buchan laughed, a short, sharp sound, and his shoulders curled in like he was making himself smaller. "I hadn't thought you'd forget. More that you might want to forget."
He spooned sugar into both mugs then filled them up with boiling water, resting a teaspoon across the top of one as he went to get milk from the fridge. He took longer than he needed to adding milk, looked like he was gathering himself, then put the milk away and turned to the table, both mugs in hand.
"Now why would I want that? It was my idea." Miles unscrewed the lid of the single malt, then topped off both teas as Buchan set them down.
"Yes, well, regrets are perfectly understandable in situations like this. I wouldn't want you to feel beholden to me." He wrapped both hands round his mug and stared into the steam, studiously ignoring Miles' gaze.
"Good job I don't then, isn't it." Miles tilted his head and watched Buchan. He hadn't shaved in a few days at least; he was looking skinny; he had bags under his eyes to rival Miles' own; and that divot between his eyebrows was deep enough to make him look almost gaunt. Troubled.
Understandable, really, considering everything that'd happened to the guy.
"You're talking bollocks, by the way." Miles took a sip of his tea, enjoying the too-hot scald of it underscored by the whisky. "I don't feel beholden to you, and I don't have any regrets. I think you're scared."
Buchan looked up at him then, sharp, eyes wide.
Miles ploughed on. "I think you're scared of being cuffed again, scared to have another panic attack in front of me. You don't want anyone to see it, I get it. But you ought to know, I didn't mention a thing to Joe about what we did, and not to anyone else either. It's no one else's business, what we do in here, behind closed doors." He jabbed at the table. "It's your business, and mine, and I want—"
Fuck, what did he want? Nothing he could say out loud, not to those scared blue eyes.
"I wanna help, that's all." Bit weak, but it'd do. And it was true. "Felt like it did help, at least a bit, so it'd be a shame to not carry on."
Ed's eyes were on him, and Miles watched over the rim of his mug as he took another drink.
"It did," Ed said, words so quiet they were barely vocal. "I think it did help. I just—" He swallowed and blew on his tea, both hands curved around the mug like he needed the heat to give him courage. "The nightmares, they're— well, they're no better. Worse, if anything. And—" His cheeks went red and he bit his bottom lip, making it invitingly red and wet for a moment.
"Listen, you don't have to tell me anything you don't want to. This can be all business, no need to make a whole performance about it."
Ed's face fell, but he recovered. "I think I'd rather it not be just business, if it's all the same to you."
Title: In Case You Disappear
Fandom: Whitechapel
Ship: Edward Buchan/Joseph Chandler/Ray Miles, Edward Buchan/Joseph Chandler, Joseph Chandler/Ray Miles, Edward Buchan/Ray Miles
Tags: Mature, Kisses, Double Drabble, Drabble Sequence
Summary: On safety and risks and love.
a/n: Written for both prompt #69 from the hundred kisses prompt list and also for my lovely friend @80aidy80's birthday! Happy birthday bb!!! Have some sap!! 💚
Finished shaving my head, changed the bedding, oops watched s4e04 of Whitechapel ckckcdkfkf
FEELING NORMAL ABOUT IT, OH MY GOD. so many close ups of Steve's beautiful blue eyes holy shit. Mansell being a cunt. Don't trust Kent or his sister. Very confused by all this weird paranormal esque bullshit. Won't someone get that station some fucking light bulbs that work!!!
Is it a ghost?! Is it that suspicious old lady who was at Ed's book launch and then suspiciously also at the gallery?! IS IT KENT'S SISTER?!
Also also like. Another beautiful Miles Pep Talk with Joe Backstory, WOUGH. I'M SO UNWELL ABOUT THEM.
But more important than any of that: TOPLESS ED..... FURRY MAN..... TIED TO WALL, TAPE ON MOUTH.... PLEADING TERRIFIED BLUE EYES. SO MUCH CHEST HAIR I'M PHYSICALLY UNWELL WITH MY NEED TO JUST PUT MY FACE IN IT. WE DIDN'T EVEN GET TO SEE MILES HELPING HIM GET FREE. NO AFTERCARE WHATSOEVER (IT'S ALL HAPPENING IN MY HEAD NEVER U FEAR).
WHY DID OLIVER STRIP HIM BEFOREHAND?! HE DIDN'T STRIP ANY OF THE OTHER VICTIMS?! GIFT. GIFT FOR THE QUAIL.
I NEED FIFTY FICS ABOUT THIS EPISODE ON MY DESK BY THE MORNING. I NEED ED CRYING IN JOE'S ARMS. I NEED MILES FREEING ED SO SO CAREFULLY. I NEED THEM BOTH TO COMFORT THAT MAN. WITH THEIR PENISES. IMMEDIATELY
