I had such a wonderful time selling my work at EF in Hamburg this week. The emotional reactions from people who connected with my art have given me a huge boost of motivation, I didn’t realize how much I needed that. I know my work isn’t for everyone, and that’s okay, just like many things, art isn’t meant to be for everyone. But sometimes you really need those kindred souls who truly get it, and moments like these remind me that I’m on the right path: to follow my heart and stay true to myself in what I create. It’s not about chasing approval, but about striving for authenticity.
First of three canvases I took to Eurofurence 2025 featuring my oc depression cat (they don't have a name atm >-0).
This one encompasses my feelings of disconnection and indulging in something that you know will hurt you in the long run. Not self-harm but more "bad habbits", doing something you know is bad for you in the long run, but helps you deal with the world right now.
I love how the backgrounds worked for this one, perfectly highlights the face.
I had to fly this year so I went weird and made my canves from multiple art boards so it could dissassembled and re assembled. I also sold each part seperatly, because of my ✨artistic vision✨.
But next year I'll sell them as a whole for practicallity.
I used a pallatte knife to paint this set like my landscapes last year, and loved the process. However as usual it doesn't scan well.
Hey y'all, we've attended Eurofurence this year, Vivie had a wonderful time and there's a lot to talk about
For starters, train delayed by 2 hours, which was fortunate cause we needed to wait for 2 hours at the train station anyways, they gave us a free cookie and drink (and we also got 25% money back)
During the delay we took the time to colour in our ref sheet that we printed out.
We stayed at the Premiere Inn, the room and a lot of the theme was weirdly Asexual coded, all purples and grey-scales which was funny. Not much else we could say about the Hotel, besides a really awkwardly placed light switch which was behind the open door for the bathroom, we called it "that lightswitch that I hate"
We've attended the neurodivergent pannel, it was full of information on how self care can help recharge your mental battery. Wish we had a video of the event, someone did tape the whole thing but we haven't found any upload of it so far.
A friend of ours, Livretro, wanted us to meet up with Jinxit, we're not too familiar with their work but boy the placement and line at the dealers den to get to them was loong.. we also met Chipflake, we enjoy some of their animations and there was a self discovery video that resonated with us.
Gamedev pannel was nice, got to see some of the indie stuff people have made (ManikoBunneh even showed off a little game he'd made during Artfight that was Vivie and cheese cave themed, funly enough there was another cheese cave based game also shown off). We stuck around for the gamedev meet, didn't get to talk much about what we've done ROM hackingwise but we met with some folks who are super into hardware related cool stuff, hoping to see them online.
Somehow every time we went out to go eat, we ended up getting anything but german food (partially because we wanted to introduce our friend to Francesinha and there was a chill portuguese café as well, we even found a market with all sorts of goodies from Portugal. I swear these places are a time capsule for us, as they have all the goods and eats without the downsides of traveling to Portugal and the new age methods of doing stuff (boy do I sound like a boomer)). One of the things we wanted to do was introduce the weird germanified Poutines to someone who just came back from Canada and had the real stuff... just to find a place that made legit cheese curds and that backfired hard >w<. We did get fresh fish at the river, so we still had some german cuisine.
This papyrus cosplay is stellar, unfortunately their badge covers their name so we don't know who to credit, please let us know so we can update this .w.''
Big cat, Smol cat...
There was a Demoscene pannel and they brought their modded Amiga A500 to show some of them off. That was a really nice pannel to attend for me in particular since this is very much my turf. They did bring it to the Artist Lounge where we did some art pieces in there. Hopefully some day we'll get the raw files for the pixelart we pulled off on DeluxePaint II (surprising capable tool for its time, the perspective feature and some of the palette cycle capabilities were quite fun to mess with)
We did some trades and pieces at the Artist Lounge, all of them were traditional pieces and Vivie had a wonderful time getting creative. Not all of them were masterpieces and we forgot to take a picture of all of them, but here's the ones we didn't forget to take pics of!
As for the plushies ye may have seen earlier, we have away 8 of them to close friends (and new friends), 3 of them will eventually arrive in the US where we'll have them sent to some more folks. That leaves 3 that didn't get a new home and had to come back to the box of Toofs. We even made some posts on Bluesky and Mastodon about it at the time but didn't get any replies outside of folks from outside of the event who really wanted one (we're working on that~)
Unsure if we'll be coming to another Furry event or any event in the future, but one thing's for sure : people love the Cowboy hat with the cat!
One of 4 bjd's I made for Eurofurence 2025. These are very personal pieces which I spent over 3 months designing and crafting.
Each bjd represents diffrent abstract thoughts and feelings I've had on intamacy as an aroace. The imagery turned out alot more vivid than I initially intended, but the attendies really enjoyed them and reading my description, so I think I'll try it again next year.
Demand was the hardest to sculpt, as they are the heviest set I had to use alot of clay to get the size and shape I wanted.
Their eyes and blending came out amazing, as the black, yellow, and red pallete I chose worked great together.
Concept art and artist statement below the cut
Trigger Warining for sex mention and implied sa
Disclaimer
Each doll in this series does not represent any real world group or experience. The concept and message of these art pieces where created as a representation of one aroace’s initial relationship and feelings towards sex and it’s dynamics.
About the Art
With this series of dolls I wanted to explore my fear of sexual activity and how that manifests in my mind.
Even though I have never engaged in any sexual activity, I found that I have a vivid image of sex inside my mind.
I default to sexual activity being something that has to be endured rather than enjoyed.
After finding my ace identity I soon found that this was not what most people associated with sex. Which ment I soon created warped ideas of what potential partners would expect out of me.
Caricatures of people and scenarios, ones which I know logically would not happen, but that mentally I cannot erase from my mind even now.
I wanted to try and represent these fears into a type of artwork which showed how I view bodies and activities in excruciating detail, despite knowing it is not reality.
Demand
Demand is a representation of the fear of others expecting things from me that I do not know.
They demand things from me that I don’t want or know how to give. They stand in my peripheral judging me for what I will not give them, and blame me for the failure of things.
No matter how much I give to them it is never enough, for I hold back what they think they deserve. Nothing is good enough for them as a replacement for it.
Everything and everyone around me repeat that what they seek is normal and I have no reason to hold it back from them.
No matter how much I am told I can give over what they want freely, I feel them looking over my shoulder, and their glare claws at my stomach as I cannot find what they want within me.
They stare at me expectantly as I claw out my insides trying to find anything to make them stay, but they never do, and I am left bleeding on the floor
One of 4 bjd's I made for Eurofurence 2025. These are very personal pieces which I spent over 3 months designing and crafting.
Each bjd represents diffrent abstract thoughts and feelings I've had on intamacy as an aroace. The imagery turned out alot more vivid than I initially intended, but the attendies really enjoyed them and reading my description, so I think I'll try it again next year.
Devour was my first sculpt and most complicated, as the exagurated fur took several sessions to sculpt correctly. Their simplier colour pallete really lends to showing it all off though!
Concept art and artist statement below the cut
Trigger Warining for sex mention and implied sa
Disclaimer
Each doll in this series does not represent any real world group or experience. The concept and message of these art pieces where created as a representation of one aroace’s initial relationship and feelings towards sex and it’s dynamics.
About the Art
With this series of dolls I wanted to explore my fear of sexual activity and how that manifests in my mind.
Even though I have never engaged in any sexual activity, I found that I have a vivid image of sex inside my mind.
I default to sexual activity being something that has to be endured rather than enjoyed.
After finding my ace identity I soon found that this was not what most people associated with sex. Which ment I soon created warped ideas of what potential partners would expect out of me.
Caricatures of people and scenarios, ones which I know logically would not happen, but that mentally I cannot erase from my mind even now.
I wanted to try and represent these fears into a type of artwork which showed how I view bodies and activities in excruciating detail, despite knowing it is not reality.
Devour
Demand is a representation of the fear of others as they take something from me after I acquiesce to their demands.
I lie upon the floor as more and more is taken from me. At beginning I thought I knew what I would be giving up, but as it progresses I feel less like myself and more like a meal to be eaten and forgotten.
Even after the dish has been finished they will always come back for seconds. No matter how many times I offer myself up they are never satisfied.
I want it to stop and for them to be full, but they never are, and no matter how much I carve off they will always demand more.
I find more things to eat, different things to eat, anything to eat but me. But they do not care. Everything I work for cast aside for the next meal served up on a silver ware dish.
I never have enough for them, I am never enough, no matter how much I give. They’re empty inside.
