#emante

[colour-me-music]

There are tracks out there in the world that really hit a chord with you and have you think back to times in your life that you thought you’d long forgotten and that’s exactly what Phoria’s track has done with me now. The track is called Saving Us A Riot and its heart achingly beautiful with just a gentle guitar guiding you through accompanied by the noble companionship of a violin and those vocals that are just filled to the brim with emotion. As I listen to the song I am just thinking of things that’ve gone in my past and present to some extent that make me think and wonder what could’ve been done differently, what could change and what part of my life would change from that. A melancholy track filled with so much emotion that if you don’t feel anything then you must have a heart of stone, especially if you don’t feel anything at the violin section at the end of the track - Jakk

[mindofmachine]

characters from least angsty to angstiest (also all the ones on the right belong to kayla). its for a!!! THING!!!

[bctrolls]

Is Emante one of those slaves, or is Celkov at least decent enough not to fuck children?

putting under a readmore just in case someone doesnt wanna read about this

he's not, unfortunately. celkov is my one character that really truly does not have any sort of boundaries whatsoever, and while i dont fancy writing about/rping it, it is canon that hes done that sort of thing, yes, to emante included. hence why the experience has had such an overwhelmingly strong impact on emante's life and why his utter hatred for seadwellers extends so far and so firmly

when i say that celkov is a terrible person i dont mean it in like the silly "haha what a jackass" kind of way i mean he really does do horrible, unforgivable things and what he did to emante probably wasnt even one of the worst things hes ever done

[bctrolls]

what does emante do when he's super pissed and needs to calm down fast? has he ever been caught stealing shit? if so, what happened?

tBH emante doesnt rly have any kind of anger-management/coping techniques. the best he can do is think about how bad he might get beat if he lashes out and then forces himself not to LOL

aaand he has, yes :0 the results are always varied depending on the troll that catches him. one example is galfir, though, who noticed him pickpocketing on the street and blackmailed him into working for them. other times it usually ends in getting his ass kicked or just fleeing lmao

[bctrolls]

an interesting thing about emante's development that i was thinking about is how differently he looks at hivelessness now. he used to see it as freedom, a reward after sweeps of suffering, a lifestyle that let him do what he wanted with no restrictions but now that he's experienced what it's like to have friends and be close to people and live with them, being back on the streets isn't as gratifying as it was. he feels a whole lot more lonely and isolated (which is mostly his fault but that's for another day lmao) and being hiveless no longer feels fun or free or rewarding. it feels more like a punishment to him, and he'd probably give anything to be able to go back to living with someone that cares about him now so yeah i like how that viewpoint has been completely flipped around for him, especially because it's not something i ever planned or expected ;0

[bctrolls]

Somehow I get the feeling he'd be the type to leave embarrassing or annoying stains in other troll's hives though.

it depends whose hive it was lmao

in osi's hive he had like an "anything goes" mentality and just kinda did whatever but like in bielav's hive he was super careful not to make messes and to keep everything the way he found it

[bctrolls]

So I guess we could add dirt and grass stains to his clothes from... wherever it is he stows them when he's not wearing them.

emante burying his clothes in holes underground to keep them safe

[bctrolls]

How about carpets or furniture? What kind of stains might he be trying to hide around the hive?

he's hiveless lmao