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a lot of people portray Ghost as unstable, with deep trauma that servers in the army and broods in a corner in self pity and suicidal thoughts
but honestly? taking in consideration the fact that he serves for SAS, is one of the reasons he actually went (or still going) to therapy, taking medication etc for whatever he needs to be able to continue to serve
personally I think Ghost is on top of his mental and physical health so he can continue serving, and even though he has his traumas etc (that we don't know much of because his backstory in the reboot is still not revealed) he acts like a normal person just a bit more closed off
especially considering he formed some sort of friendship with Soap, who hasn't shown signs of being scared of Ghost or that he is unstable and gotta walk on egg shells around him
I feel this constant emptiness, it’s always there in the back of my mind even if I don’t always notice it. Sometimes if I’m distracted it’s goes away for a bit but once the noise stops, once I’m left without distraction and I finally sit in silence no matter how hard I fight it, it always comes back.
It’s like I’ve taught myself to fear silence, to fear time without distraction. It’s so hard to live with yourself when just sitting there with your own thoughts feels like torture. I feel everything and nothing, i’m numb, I’m impulsive and confusing and I dont understand myself, I don’t think I ever will.
Ive spent so long trying to figure out what is wrong with me. I always knew something was off, something but I could never figure out what and after all this time all i’ve gotten were diagnosis and more and more medication because apperently drugs are the only way to regulate how I feel. I don’t really know what I was expecting when I asked for help I try not to expect much anymore because it always leads to disappointment in the end.
I don’t normally vent like this but it’s my blog so I’ll say whatever I want <3
i feel numb without you.
Being in love with you is a sorrowfull dream that I love to watch every single day
It cut my heart into peices
Yet i never forget to love you in silence
Every night i dream of being your love of life
Even though you don't even think of me
Dear, didn't t you ever loved me?
Maybe don't but still you loved the thing "being loved by me" oh, maybe it is just "being loved" and by me was silent
Yet i never regret about being in love with you, falling for you every day even though you'll never be mine
Because you really need someone's love
You really craved to be loved
To be seen
To be cared
To listen to your words
To see your childishness
To see your values
To be loved
Yes like everyone you really craved
To be admired by someone
To be adored by someone
To be loved by someone
You really did dear, I'm sure!
Yes so all for that you kept me with you
To get all of it as your wish
Yet dear how could you forget
I'am just a girl"
With dreams
Like you , dear
With a dream
To be loved by you
why is barely anyone talking about Stephen Gogolev? his technique and performances as a whole were consistently clean throughout every program he was featured in. i was genuinely in awe when i watched his debut performance in the men’s short program for the first time, and i still find myself VERY impressed when rewatching them. considering how many complications he has faced that, for the most part, were completely out of his control, he has come so far yet he’s so underrated!
there is so much to be cherished about every athlete’s story and unique performance, not just the ones that are getting all the media attention. Alysa Liu is extremely talented and such a joy to watch, but she is far from all that should be appreciated about the 2026 Winter Olympic figure skating group as a whole. another person i’d like to mention is Ilia Malinin, who was so hyped up by the media to the point at which he felt genuinely overwhelmed by such a high expectation. there are a plethora of lovable athletes with stellar capabilities, so let’s appreciate them, as well!
this is in no way a post meant to insult any particular individual. in fact, i intend it to be quite the opposite. we should spread love generously, and no hard-earned talent should go unappreciated.
when the dots are connecting… into a neat little web
