#ender rants

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Me cracking my back on the school chairs

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Something that irked me about Philza’s stream yesterday was chat- I mean… chat is usually something that irks me about stream but let me explain.

When Philza was explaining certain ADHD stims he does, chat was just… unreadable. Constant spamming of “one of us”, one dono even blatantly said “Philza, you have ADHD”.

What the fuck?

Firstly, diagnosing people isn’t okay. If Phil asked chat to help him figure out why he displayed stims like that, then maybe it wouldn’t have been so bad. But Phil, 1, did not ask, and 2, guiding Phil instead of diagnosing him would have been the way to go. Directing him to resources (once again, should he want them) and sharing experiences.

Secondly, donating MONEY to Phil, a person you don’t even know (sorry to all the #parasocial people out there) to diagnose him? Blatantly saying “you have ADHD” and giving him money to say so? That’s- in the nicest language I can use, so fucking weird.

How would you like it if some random stranger, walked up to you, threw £10 at your face and diagnosed you with a mental disorder BASED on the fact that they have it and you display maybe one or two symptoms of such.

Phil has said it before and will undoubtedly say it again. If it becomes a concern to him, he will check it out. But until then, for the love of him and everyone trying to watch the stream, keep it to yourself. Assuming people’s mental health and diagnosing them is on the same level of weird as assuming someone’s sexuality and labelling them.

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Hello, this is a request for you to talk about the Dream SMP. Whatever you want, just go off -S

I went off..

Okay I'm writing a literal essay about this but until I finish

Wilburs character arc follows perfectly the arc for L'manberg and that means that there's a decent chance that the end of most major conflicts will only happen when revivedbur deals with his problems and becomes a better person.

Okay so basically Wilburs arc started as a scrappy general trying to drag his army out of hell to get freedom, he was never the best general, never the best leader, he actually left most of the heavy lifting to Tommy but that wasn't bad, he was never a bad person, he had an ideal he fought for and he would die to get it.

In comparison L'manberg stood as a scrappy blown up ideal of a country, barely anything, but it was good, it was a home, it was enough.

L'manberg began to fall as Wilbur got paranoid, as Wilbur excluded Quackity from L'manberg due to him not being European, as he tried to rig the election to cement his power, L'manberg was a happy home for those within mostly, but as Wilbur put his need for power over the countries two main ideals of freedom from tyranny and protection from the dream SMP for any who would need it, it began to decay.

Similarly Wilbur was still strong and true he had strong ideals strong beliefs but his fears that he could never make L'manberg perfect lead to a horribly perfect oroboros of pain.

Which is why it's such a perfect lead in to his mental breakdown following the break down of L'manberg, as Manberg began to shatter so did Wilburs belief that he could ever make the country he aspired for, he became the way he did because he had fed into all his fears and reaped the rewards. His oroboros took it's expected course, he caused his own narrative downfall by taking L'manberg with him.

The destruction of L'manberg was in fact the death of L'manberg, not doomsday, when Wilbur pressed that button and demanded Phil kill him he wasn't simply killing himself he killed L'manberg, the true heart of L'manberg, with it.

Instead of the true L'manberg, New L'manberg was in fact a ghost of the happy ideals of L'manberg, a pale imitation, trying to erase mistakes of the past just to do them again.

Unfortunately because Wilbur is dead there is absolutely nothing this could parallel for him- /s

Ghostbur and New L'manberg were very similar in showing how erasing the bad parts of history never ended well, Ghostburs constant attempts to hold L'manberg to the standards of the anthem, standards it had failed once before lead to his break down in doomsday, he tried desperately to ignore the bad parts of new L'manberg, and himself, in order to make everything good.

The Tubbo administration similarly followed the exact trajectory of past mistakes, different causes certainly but Tubbo, and more importantly Quackity, ignored the warnings of the past, believing their administration could continue and that them repeating the same things as old L'manberg would be okay because it was them.

Ghostbur and New L'manberg were the same, and fell the same.

Now you're probably thinking "well L'manberg is completely gone and Wilburs arc isn't over yet so?????" WRONG

L'manberg was never a country! I lied in the beginning! Wilburs arc started right before L'manberg by bringing friends together to make drugs, Wilburs real super power was the power to bring people together and he used this power to create L'manberg, Lmanberg was never a country it was people, which is how Pogtopia was considerably more L'manberg than Manberg.

Yep, everything in this essay is a metaphor, Wilbur is a metaphor for L'manberg, L'manberg is a metaphor for Friendship, I might get into Wilbur being a metaphor some other time but it's not relevant here.

(I'm not gonna go into detail with this but a major failure in Wilburs character was that he couldn't recognise this fact, I actually lied in the Manberg part and in fact as L'manberg grew stronger in Pogtopia Wilbur became worse because he thought L'manberg was a country, he mirrored Manberg instead of L'manberg)

This is how L'manbergs story isn't over.

Did y'all notice, after his revival (which perfectly cooencided with Snowchester by the way) Ghostbur hasn't returned, who has however was Alivebur's ghost, different characters obviously, because this story is way too confusing.

When everyone on the server came together, the ghost of Alivebur appeared, he didn't quite understand why, but that L'manberg heart, fighting against Dream, brought him back for a little bit.

Snowchester is the sequel to L'manberg with new lessons learnt, Tubbo isn't starting a government knowing that they always fail (and also because he's really not fond of the idea of being killed by Techno again), he is trying to grow stronger so he can't be pushed around anymore, he's making a home that everyone will be safe in with the lessons learnt from L'manberg.

It's not truly L'manberg yet, but if everyone else can become friends enough it certainly can begin to be that way.

This revival of L'manberg is also timing well with the future revival of Alivebur, everyone wants Wilbur back, and they will make a home for him, when Wilbur is revived he will be the same cynical pessimistic Wilbur who destroyed L'manberg, but he could grow to change.

If Wilbur can do what Eret hopes he will, and bring everyone together once more, then, and only then, can L'manberg, and the people who make L'manberg what it is, have a happy ending.

Unless the cultists fuck it up there is a non zero chance the egg will win.

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Google search: How do I make an Android fall in love with me?

My Google IRL unit from across the room: Excuse me what the fuck?

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This has almost certainly been done. Everytime I hear her name I have to do a double take

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THESE FUCKING SHAPES.INC ADS ARE SO ANNOYING OH MY FUCKING GOD TUMBLR COP ON

No actually please SHUT THE FUCK UP. Stop REPLACING PEOPLE WITH COMPUTER GENERATED SLOP. THEY STRIP YOUR BELOVED ROLE-PLAY SERVERS AND FANFICTIONS AND POISON CREATIVITY. YOU CANNOT REPLACE HUMAN CONNECTION WITH UNFEELING TRASH.

Please don't recreate your irl friends and family or even online mutuals on these apps. Please for the love of god, role-play with real people, read fanfiction, WRITE fanfiction. If you can write paragraph responses to your ai chatbots, you can write a short story. You deserve better than talking to something doing a hollow mockery of a human.

These? Are absolutely ridiculous. And disgusting and such a fucking joke.

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YOU PEOPLE DONT UNDERSTAND-

HOUSE IS AUTISTIC.

They acknowledge it in S3 E4. Wilson heavily suggests to Cuddy that House has Asperger syndrome, but they decide that he can't possibly because he's just a jerk.

Let autistic people be jerks. Let autistic people be assholes WITHOUT USING AUTISM AS AN EXCUSE. IM AN ASSHOLE SOMETIMES. NOT BECAUSE IM AUTISTIC, IM JUST A PRICK. Yes I understand that one of the reasons for him being such a dickhead is because of his leg, he's in pain all the time. But thats even more of a reason to believe that it is a separate issue.

They say that he wants to relate to the kid because then he can get away with being a dick, but he does relate to the kid. He hates change, he thrives on consistency, he needs stimulation or he gets bored and frustrated, he isolates himself- and when he does have to interact, it's with the same people he sees everyday.

House can be autistic AND an asshole. Those two things do not cancel each other out.

(Edit: as a disabled autistic person, I see myself in House in ways that I never have in canonically autistic characters. I am aware it's never confirmed in the show. I am aware that not everyone agrees with this headcanon, and genuinely that is all it is, a headcanon. I'm not Hugh Laurie. This was just a rant about how House is treated while showing, what I and many other people, including characters inside the show, view as symptoms of ASD or other such disorders. I apologise if it came across as lying or spreading false information.)

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I truly feel like if you thought Cinderella's Castle was "too much" or "unnecessarily inappropriate", you need to be reminded that Starkid wrote

"PENIS: THE MUSICAL"

and

"SHITTING YOURSELF TO DEATH: THE MUSICAL"