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[lt-sarai]

Why it sucks to be an extrovert #69

Birthdays.

I get upset when people forget it. Facebook wall posts aren’t good enough. Texts are marginally better. I want people to invite me out. I want other people to plan a party for me and have the whole day centered on me like when I was a child.

I hate that I feel this way. It’s stupid. I never remember anyone else’s, I shouldn’t expect anything at all. My birthday is 4 days from Christmas, IT MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE TO GATHER TWICE IN ONE WEEK, LET ALONE THIS FUCKING WEEK GODDAMMIT. I hate that I felt like I had to bring it up in every conversation I had bc no one knew or remembered.

I turned 30 yesterday and I feel like I’m making an annoyingly big deal out of it and no one cares, or that they think I’m dumb for making such a big deal out of it, or that I’m trying to make them feel guilty for not remembering when I bring it up.

I made a big deal out of insisting I wouldn’t make it to 30 when I was a teenager, y;know, like you do when 30 is 15 years away, so this feels like a Huge Thing™ to me and of course no one knows that why would they know that I haven’t mentioned it in fucking 10 years

I just want to be one of those people who don’t mind when only a few people remember their birthday. I would absolutely love to not give a fuck about it. I live for the day when I’m satisfied with only my family and a couple of friends remembering to say anything.

[hackedmotionsensors]

where do spn fans even get these fucking quotes from?

[writer-in-world]

If you put a word on a paper today, GOOD JOB! Every word counts!!!!!

[dreamyarcana]

what's up y'all, much for the queue today as always, that's how I'm getting literally all my posts (I always use it) but espicially today because I'm a 12 hour road trip and don't have much data so if you see me posting and not answering discord or Tumblr dms that's why~ have a great Friday ^°^

[core-the-squip-blog]

I don’t know if you saw this before, but I’m sending it to you anyway.

//AHHH I didn't see this!!! It's so good though!!!

[blue-mood-blue]

Why is it. That when I am in the shower - the place that paper and electronic devices cannot go - I can compose wonderful sentences that say what I would like them to say in creative ways that are clear but not so direct that they’re awkward or stilted.

But then. THEN. When I have some time to spare and the document open in front of me and I am ready to go.... I can’t think of a single word. Not even one word. No word is sufficient and the task of constructing a sentence is an undertaking so monumental that even the thought is exhausting.

[certaintimebox]

As the Internet becomes more and more centered around corporations, marketability, and AI, I can't help but be reminded of the burning of the library of Alexandria. One day there will be so many bot statistics, so much corporate minsformation, that reliable sources will fall to the wayside, and the Internet as a whole will be written off as a resource. Dead Internet theory isn't just "bots will take over", it's the killing of the user base as a whole. Will this become our spit dog? Something future historians know was important to day-to-day life, but will never be able to describe or really, truly understand because nobody bothered to write down what it was or what it meant? In a world where something as simple as chatting on discord requires ID and government surveillance, will fact become lost media? Will any of this be recorded, or be lost to time?