I woke up and decided to confront some of the lies and hidden truths I harbored. It wasn’t easy, because there were so many things to confess. I had to stop being afraid of losing people. I realized when I try to hold on to people I overcompensate with lies and politeness. I never wanted to ruffle feathers. I hated when I felt ignored or insignificant. So I would lie. Fabricate things to be more understandable, significant, and loved. It was my coping mechanism. There has been this destructive need to be valued. I needed to be valued. It wasn’t until I realized you can’t be valued if it’s not authentic. I got to this point in my life where my personal truth was better than any lie I could have told. My truth finally gave me the love and embrace I’ve always wanted...shit craved for. I am still learning how to live in my truth fearlessly. To my amazing friends who encourage and embrace me for who I am and not what I want them to see I thank you. You give me courage to live my best and most authentic life. I’ve been blessed to have experiences that have humbled me. I have a couple of things I’m still working on like my isolation issues, binge eating, and finding a proper creative space. I still need to learn how to block out some of the voices in my head, but one voice I can never block out is the voice that keeps telling me to be better by doing better. I am grateful for the opportunities God provides for me to learn and encourage myself. I am nowhere near perfect in fact i’m flawed AF, but I’m still worthy of love and I’m excited to pursue my happiness and self love. I can’t say this has been easy, but it has been rewarding. I’m grateful. It’s SKNDEEP and I’m OUT!