taking a moment away from my rebecca ferguson thirst to express my appreciation for the writing and acting on ewan's monologue here. gorgeous work - both showing Dan as someone who was buried alive under his addiction and pain and now, eight years later, as someone who has found the life within him again
"I'm not much of a speech guy. I just thought I'd hold the chip and talk about whatever popped up. So, here I am. And I'm thinkin' about my dad. I saw a chip like this in his hand once. A couple months before he died. Five month chip, I'm pretty sure.
He hurt me once when he was drunk. Broke my arm. Then he dried right out. He died when I was five, so the only way I got to know him, really got to know him, was when I went dark. When I… When I drank to dull the… or, uh… whenever I wanted to break someone's face, 'cause the drinking and the temper and the anger, those things in me were his. And they were all I could know of him.
But now, well, now I get to know him a little different… 'cause he also stood in a room like this once… wanting to get well for me and my mom. And he held the chip in his hand and the chip said five months, and on that day, he… Before it all… Well, on that day, all he wanted in the world was to stand where I'm standing now. And here I am, so thank you for us both, I guess."