#fat kid

[crookedlylovinggoatee69]

[oneeyedrabbitfreak]

[isopodplush]

me and my knight went wild swimming and i was never taught how to swim as a kid!

and we got into how hard it is for like gender weird autistic kids to get into sports or even do sports, and even harder for fat kids too!

my family obviously didnt have the money for swimming lessons so i just never learnt?

i used to love sports and being active as kid, but i hit an age where i was aware of my body and how it looks and moves.

i was most aware of how my body looked and moved compared to my peers.

i wasnt put into the age range i was because i was bigger so i had to go into the older groups. which was so weird! because they didnt look like me or act like me because they were much older than me!

so when i got to a point where i could choose to go or not, i choose to not go. because of how left out i felt cus because my body and mind was different.

now that i am older and more comfortable with myself and understand how to chill out the harmful thoughts, i want to go back into sports and being active. but it still feels volatile to fat trans people (even more now toward trans ppl...)

but i still want to, i want to be able to swim or run or punch without feeling like i shouldnt be there due to my body.

[rosetyler42]

Was thinking about those posts that mentioned fatphobia against fat kids and babies and thought of Ericka and Simon. At first it was going to just be protective "Don't talk to me or my son again" and then it became Autistic Mama Ericka Captain obviousing, making things weird being like "Yeah, No Duh? that's what babies are?"

Bonus: Lil Lucy ready to square up with the person who made her brother sad. XD

Ericka's outfit partly inspired by @ssleeping-in-a-coffin 's profAU Ericka.

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[cloud-based-and-rainpilled]

Just a PSA for my ‘offbeat’ girlies but you’re allowed to cut the people out of your life who only view you as entertainment value and not as a human being to be respected. Just a thought

[annegraves]

Bro I was watching insatiable and in the first episode there's a line that really got to me "I went on my first diet at 8 years old" and that really hit me hard.

As someone who grew up (and still is) fat, (at least in asia, compared to all my friends with flat stomachs) that line is so true. Like I when on a 2 year diet from my parents(I was 10) and there were lasting effects (e.g. Brain fog).

I mean this is literally what I do when I'm sad. Blame it on a unhealthy relationship with food.

[thewomanintheshadow]

My biggest obstacle in life

I have to confess I have a problem. I don't know if it's a lack of discipline or just a compulsive behaviour that I can't control it but it's a big problem for me. It's like a cycle and even though sometimes I manage to fight it, other times I just give in to it.....Mental Cravings. I have been binge eating for the past 17 years of my life.

Growing up, I had a very loving mother who cooked delicious food for the whole family. The last memories I have of being skinny was when I was about 5-6 years old. I remember afterwards, I started gaining wait consistently.

Weight has always been discussed in my family and even from a very young age everybody would comment on how perfect I was in every way except when it came to my body weight. My mom had issues with her pregnancies when she was younger and after her last pregnancy she gained a massive amount of weight. I knew that she was struggling and it did affect her confidence since she used to be very beautify and quite the skinny looking model in her early 20s before she started having children. However, after gaining weight, I feel like she lost the confidence she used to have and to an extent she projected that on to me. My mother consistently reminded me of how awful it is to be fat and that it's very important for a girl to be thin because that way you are the most beautiful and the most successful woman. I mean.....even till this day I do agree with her and she was always right but at the time hearing her say that consistently was so annoying. She would consistently compare me to my skinny cousins or celebrities or actresses in American movies and would make comments such as "you are so much beautiful than them, they are only pretty because they are skinny".

Food had always been an issue for me since the beginning of my teenage hood and as far as I can remember I have laid on my pillow every night and thought about how I was gonna wake up and "go on a diet" the next day. Back in the early 2000s, the skinny models on Tv were the ideal beauty goddesses. Sometimes, these beautiful models and actresses were interviewed on their diet and would make comments such as "I only eat salads" or "I only eat one banana till the evening" or "I diet until I have lost all the weight". My mom would hear these and would look at me and say "see, these people don't eat as much, thats why they are so skinny". My father was the worst because he would consistently make comments about my body and how I should be eating less or lose weight. I always knew that they were just trying to help me but I think that was the beginning of my yoyo dieting journey.

Yoyo dieting started for me at an early stage of life. I would watch these beautiful girls in the movies such as Kristen Stewarts and Nina Dobrev and just fantasize about having their bodies. I would actually fantasize and visualize looking like a girl who had an hour glass figure and long straight blow-blowdryed soft hair. My hair was black, short and curly and I did not appreciate it. That was also the beginning of social media when my dad brought a laptop home and introduced me to the world of internet back in early 2010s. I quickly became introduced to the world of YouTube and started searching for videos such as "How to lose weight fast" to see if I could find a solution to my big problem. Deep down I was so tired and frustrated and just hated my body. I noticed from a very young age that my hips was much wider than the typically beautiful hour glass figure. Later I found out that I had an apple shaped figure.

Eventually after years of yoyo dieting, occasionally going to bed hungry not having dinner because "feeling full = feeling fatness" I developed a bigger problem with food and my habits in general. When I started exercising, I developed a huge unrealistic expectation that I was going to become skinning just within a matter of 2 months. Spoiler alert! it did not work like that. Even though I was exercising, I was still eating high calorie foods that where not "processed" or "fast food" but still did not help me lose weight. I became more and more frustrated and more desperate with time. I would concisely diet for weeks, and then binge eat and fall into my previous habits. This habits carried on for years. I thinking the last time I was 55 kgs was when I was in fourth grade where I was disgusting weight with a girl my age and she said "I weight 45 kgs " and I said "me too". Later I found out that I actually weighed 10 kilos extra than what she weighed. I started losing more and more confidence and I need that affected my ability to connect with people or having any true socializing skills. I hid myself in my room and started watching YouTube videos as my form of coping mechanism. I didn't even want to study anymore because I lost all motivation. I was also living in country/city at that time where if I wanted to go to the park, my mom had to drive 40 minutes until we reached the park. I could not even go outside and play by myself in the streets because it was not appropriate for a girl nor was it safe. If I wanted to go jogging outside, cars would actually stop and people would harass/talk to you. So....my life became YouTube. My screen time increased and I spent hours on my desk trying to fantasize about a world I did not have access to at the time.

[takunwilliams]

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