Ever since I could remember I wanted to be a model. I was told, "Models have grace, and you don't" I never really understood what that meant. Anyone could have grace. What they were actually talking about is the grace of a thin body. A fat body could never pose in the graceful way a thin body could, could never walk the way a thin body could. A fat body just isn't as "good" as a thin body. I looked at all fashion magazines. None of the people in these magazines had bodies like mine. This taught me my body was wrong. That I was not worthy of looking good; that I should be unnoticeable. Fast forward to now, whenever I do pick up a fashion magazine, I see my body in those pages. Not many, but a few. I see these beautiful plus size models rocking bikinis and tight outfits. Being so visible in all their glory, fatness and grace. I wish my 10 year old self got to see these fat models of today. It could have saved me so many years of hating myself for not looking like what I thought I model had to be. And one day my fat a$$ will be in a fashion magazines showing other little girls that their bodies are perfect they way they are 💜 Mark my words. Outfit: @torrid . . . . @effyoyrbeautystandards#effyourbeautystandards #fatpositive #bodypositive #selflove #fatmodel #queermodel #loveyourcurves (at Toronto, C•a•n•a•d•a) https://www.instagram.com/p/CDT7WXWg7I0/?igshid=hs23uy0unxot