summary: a story about y/n, Redbull’s new second driver, told in non-sequential order
a/n: I love febuwhump and have participated before for other fandoms but this is a first for me — attempting to compete it via smau only. Hopefully I can write a complete story eventually and I will be posting it on its own masterlist in the correct order to read but it’ll be written based on the febuwhump prompt list! @febuwhump
a/n2: based on the 2024 year; sorry checo but you got replaced earlier!
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f1gossip: For those wondering about y/n’s crash today — here is a video from her onboard during and a photo from anonymous sources showing her car in the aftermath. Allegedly, they had to bring blowtorches in to remove her from the vehicle.
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user1: Jesus that’s bad
↳user2: you could say that again…
user3: and she’s ok? When her car looks like that????
↳user4: well… You know she was taken to the hospital…BUT she was conscious and talking?
↳user3: a good sign then!
user5: really? A blow torch?!?
↳user6: that does seem excessive…
↳f1gossip: a hazard of reporting things as they happen — we (sometimes) get the first report wrong
↳user7: that makes me feel better actually…
user8: do we have her radios from the crash yet?
↳user9: seriously??
↳user8: I mean so we can hear if she’s ok? Like how she was talking??
↳user9: 🤨🤨 thin ice dude…
user10: oh it looks like her radios are available now!
↳user11: fuck…
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y/n_rb: weewoo weewoo weewoo
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user12: oh my god who let her have her phone!
user13: oh this is about to be very entertaining…
user14: signs of life!
↳y/n_rb: no! Sounds of ambulance!
↳user15: oh they got you on the good stuff already huh?
user16: they let you keep your phone?
↳yourmanager: it was about the only way they could calm her down enough to stay put
Whumper saying “I love you” every torture session, conditioning the whumpee to associate that word with hurt, so when they’re brought back to the people who care the most they can’t stand being told those words. They won’t say it, they hate hearing it, so caretakers have to come up with different forms of showing their love. The worst part is that whumpee knows that whumper meant every word of it. Every time whumper said “I love you.” It was said with so much affection. Making it ten times harder to accept love from the people they actually care about.
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Confessions -
John and Yassen are captured by Scorpia when they try to leave for their assignment in Malta. Scorpia, however, grew suspicious of them. Now, trapped in a cell it's only a matter of time before one of them confesses.
Febuwhump ALT 2: "I love you"
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Fandom: Alex Rider - Anthony Horowitz
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Word count: 2,038
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Additional Tags: One-Sided Relationship, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Angst, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Whump, Hurt No Comfort, Unrequited Love, Implied/Referenced Torture
Before Grim could shout out a warning Ahsoka leapt at Vader.
Time seemed to slow for a moment as she watched what took place. Vader blocked one strike, but Ahsoka’s other lightsaber made contact with his helmet, slicing it in half. She tumbled to the ground and Vader fell to his knees.
Grim stood there in complete shock for a moment, her own lightsaber still blazing in her hand. Then, she deactivated the blade and ran to her wife. She began to help her off the ground. “Ash, are you alright?” She asked.
Ahsoka was about to speak, but Vader did instead. “Ahsoka,” he wheezed. His voice only halfway changed through the broken mask.
She looked away from Grim and at Vader instead. Her eyes widened in shock, and recognition upon seeing the half-visible face of Anakin Skywalker. Not even the burn scars of Mustafar could change who it belonged to.
“Ahsoka,” Vader said again. His breathing was heavy - more than it usually was. Damaging the mask had also damaged a portion of his life support. He couldn't go long in this state.
“Anakin,” Ahsoka gasped. She turned her head to face her wife, who was still holding onto her arm. “Grim, why didn't you tell me?” She asked, tears were in her eyes, and they would fall any moment.
“I'm sorry,” was all Grim could say. “But we have to go,” she added. Now that Ahsoka was standing again she tried to pull her away from her former Master.
Ahsoka didn't move. She only looked back at Vader. She couldn't believe what she was seeing. What this meant. For so many years she believed Anakin to be dead, that he died saving the Jedi, and now-
He had been the one to kill them.
“Ahsoka, we have to go,” said Grim.
Ahsoka looked back at her, looking down at her face. She took in its image, of the freckles that covered it, the lightsaber scar on the left side, the faint marks of lightning, and those kind green eyes shimmering with tears. “No,” she said. “I can't.”
“But he'll kill us!” she protested.
Ahsoka smiled gently. She clipped one of her lightsabers to her belt and with her free hand caressed Grim's cheek. She moved her head ever so slightly so she was looking directly up at her. Their eyes meeting, both with tears falling from them. “I love you,” she told her.
She leaned down and kissed her. Then she slowly pulled away.
“Ash-” Grim started, but she didn't know what to say.
“I'm sorry,” she replied. Then she used the Force to shove her back.
“Ahsoka!” Grim cried, already running back to her.
She stood facing Vader, who too was standing now. Words were exchanged, Grim barely heard them and it didn't even matter, she had heard them before.
Vader’s lightsaber ignited. Ahsoka's following.
Grim couldn't move. She screamed at her wife. Begging her not to fight Vader.
It didn't matter. She watched as the Sith Temple collapsed, and she could no longer see either her wife or the Sith Lord.
She had lost her again, and this time, she didn't have anyone else.
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@febuwhump alt 2 - trapped under a collapsed building
He holds it still, strong and steady. The large piece of rubble ready to collapse and kill them all, he keeps it in the air, above them.
His team huddle by his feet. The youngest, closest to him, looks up at him, watching, with fear and adoration dancing in their eyes.
The techie is trying to establish communications, to call for help. She keeps yelling into a small box, hoping for a sign that someone is listening, that someone is coming for them. She doesn’t look up at him, not once. He only ever sees the top of her covered head. She somehow knows that he’s not going to let it drop on her, on any of them.
He locks eyes on his second-in-command whose foot was trapped under rubble. He twists his body to hold on to the youngest, hugging them tight and using his body as a shield if the rubble were to come down. He knew that their leader wasn’t superhuman, just a man with muscles that could tire even if his will didn’t break.
His arms start to shake with the strain, his muscles twitching and aching. The enormous weight he carries on his shoulders and neck, threatens to crush him at any second. He feels his legs start to bend and give out. With a groan he straightens them anyway.
The tech’s voice gets louder still, disturbing some small parts of rubble and dust. She was getting a response finally as she gave their location and other details. The words fall out of her mouth at an accelerated rate until it stops suddenly. After a pause, she looks up at him finally, eyes wide with fear and flinching when some pebbles dropped beside her.
“They said two hours.”
He winces as his second-in-command groans out. The youngest lets out a whimper and holds the other man tighter.
The tech gasps suddenly when parts of the large piece break off beside her. She gets ushered closer to them as tears slip out of her eyes.
He can’t find his voice so he mouths at her instead.
“It’s going to be okay. I’m not gonna let it drop, alright? You’re safe, it’s okay. It’s going to be okay.”
She nods before huddling with the other two. The leader lets out a small strained sound as he holds the rubble further from their heads.
The second-in-command looks up, eyes creased with worry. “I wish I could help you.” He says simply. He tries to pull his leg out but only lets out a moan in pain for his efforts. The two beside him hold him tighter.
“It’s okay. I’ve got this.”
He has got this. He can hold this piece of rock up. For 2 hours. 120 minutes. 7200 seconds.
Every painful second dragged longer than it felt like it should. His arms were bent and locked in place, his fingers were splayed and numb, he couldn’t feel the roughness of the stone anymore. He couldn’t feel his legs. The only sensation was a throbbing pain, emanating deep in him and an ache in his bones that begged his mind to let them rest.
He feels his arms start to give so he looks back at his, huddled and scared and strength surges through him again. He’s not going to let them down. He promised them he’s going to keep this thing up. So he will.
The minutes tick by in silence, his left arm starts to weaken and the large rubble begins to slide down from the left before he catches it again, just above the tech’s head. He gives a hoarse apology before continuing his duty.
He guesses it’s been about thirty minutes since his tech had made a call and nods to her. She gets the signal and tries to make contact again. It’s a few scary moments of just static before a voice crackles out of the small device.
“We’ll be with you shortly, hold on.”
“How long?” the tech asks tersely.
His sore muscles tense during some muttering before an answer.
Please don’t be longer.
“About 30-40 minutes. Please hold on until then.”
He sighs in relief, that’s less time than he expected. He has no excuse not to hold the rock up until then.
His body aches in protest. He has no idea how he can hold it up for another thirty minutes, likely more. He doesn’t have a choice. He tries to adjust his grip but the position ends up being even more painful and he lets out a hiss.
The team look up at him for a moment, he gives a single nod.
I’m fine. I have to be.
Every minute seemed to drag on for eternity. He lets out a growl and shifts to hold the slipping piece of rock. Exhaustion starts to weigh in him, his shoulders, arms, back and neck screaming at him to let go. He can’t. He licks his dry lips and tries to blink away the black dots in his vision.
He’s not passing out. He can’t. He has to hold on.
It’s another twenty minutes before they can hear the rescuers above them. He watches the team quietly cheer, not wanting to disturb the rubble. He meets the tired gaze of his second-in-command. He frowns, the other man’s leg was probably worse than he thought.
He hopes that the rescuers will be here soon. He feels himself start to give out under the massive weight. He can’t hold it for much longer.
The rescuers’ voices get closer and closer until there’s an arm that sticks out of a gap. The tech gets up suddenly, in a desperate attempt to get help sooner. It knocks the leader off balance slightly and the rocks slips from his arms.
No. NO!
There’s a moment where he is certain of their death, he feels himself being pushed to the ground, a second from being completely squashed when the rock stops suddenly in mid air.
He looks over, eyes wide with surprise, to see the youngest holding the rock up. They let out a yell in effort and their arms shake under the weight. He moves to hold up the other end of the rubble as the tech guides the rescuers to free the second-in-command.
Then she’s pulled out, he gives a smile to the youngest as they are reluctantly carried from the wreckage. Finally, he lets the large piece go once he’s pulled out of the way of its collapse. It makes a large crash as it slams to the ground, covering the surrounding area in a thick dust.
Febuwhump '22 - Billy Butcher / The Boys Edition [ao3]
Alt 2: Trapped under a collapsed building
Alternate scene for Season 2, Episode 5: We Gotta Go Now
Word count: ~8.7k
Warnings: thoughts about suicide, blood and cussing (it's The Boys, what did you expect?)
A/N: I know, February has been over for quite some time now, but I do have some more prompts that I want to fill. So look out, I'm not done yet. Also, once again all my love goes out to @zecklein for being my biggest motivator, with everything from cookies to threats.
[Febuwhump Masterpost]
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“M.M.! Come on! Everybody, out!”
They ran quickly up the stairs as Black Noir’s smoke bomb filled the basement with tear gas. Butcher had grabbed Terror, carrying him under one arm with the other outstretched before him, gun in hand. When they arrived in the hallway again, he pushed the dog into Hughie’s arms. Then he scanned the room, M.M. and Judy hot on their heels. There was no sign of the supe.
The living room was dark and completely destroyed, the bombs had really done their job. The air was hung with smoke and some of the upholstered furniture was still burning in places. There wasn’t any time to feel bad about demolishing his aunt’s house, though.
“Out of the side door! Move!” he commanded forcefully.
M.M. had his hand on Judy’s shoulder as he guided her towards the door and Hughie was struggling to keep his grip on the very unhappy bulldog. Butcher hovered in the door for a moment, exceedingly reckless thoughts chasing through his head.
“Butcher?” Hughie asked, still suspicious after the suicidal behaviour he had shown before.
“Get ‘em out of here,” he replied urgently and, without waiting for a reply, threw the door shut behind himself. Then, for good measure, he tugged a chair under the handle to keep the others from coming back in.
“Butcher, wait! Wait!” Hughie shouted desperately and tried to shove the door back open, but to no avail. “Butcher! Butcher, what are you doing? Butcher, you don’t- Don’t do this!”
Completely ignoring the young man’s attempts to call him back, Butcher cautiously walked back into the wrecked living room.
“Alright, you fucker. Where are ya?” he called out into the silence, but before he even had the chance to take a breath, he was suddenly thrown into a wall.
The impact knocked the air out of his lungs, and he found himself on the ground. When he looked up, the black-clad supe was watching him, his head tilted to the side almost curiously. Butcher saw a poker lying halfway between him and the fireplace and while holding Noir’s gaze, he carefully inched his hand towards it.
The supe raised his gloved index finger and shook it in a mocking gesture. Noir moved effortlessly and in one swift motion stepped on his reaching hand, stomping down on his fingers. Butcher gritted his teeth in pain and tried to retract his hand from under the supe’s sole. Noir grabbed him by the collar and tossed him across the room like a rag doll.
Butcher crashed into the kitchen island, pain immediately shooting up and down his back as a loud crack signalled the breaking of at least one rib. In a reflex reaction, he hugged one arm around his middle, his other hand braced on the countertop to keep himself upright. The all too familiar, metallic taste of blood on his tongue made him feel lightheaded. A dark smirk curled his lips as he watched Noir move towards him, just like a cat on the prowl.
Suddenly, his eyes landed on the supe’s belt, and his attention was caught by the concussion grenade that was dangling from Noir’s hip. A plan formed in his head as he remembered the oven on the other side of the kitchen island and the gas pipes it was connected to. His smirk widened.
If Billy Butcher had to go out today, he’d do it with a blast and take as much of the supe with him as possible. In that moment nothing outside that room existed, his whole world had reduced itself to the walls of Judy’s house. All his rage was directed at the supe before him, even the thought of Homelander had vanished. He just needed to find a way to snatch the grenade from Noir, and quickly, because he knew he didn’t stand a real chance if he let the fight go on for too long. Afterall, he was already injured.
As fast as his legs allowed, he moved into action again and scrambled to get around the kitchen island, each step sending a shockwave of pain through his rib cage. Luckily, he had years of experience with ignoring his body’s responses to violence.
Noir’s gaze followed him attentively and it was excruciatingly obvious that he didn’t consider the other man a threat. Once again, he made Butcher think of a cat that intended to play with its prey before landing the fatal blow.
Figuratively speaking, it would make him the mouse in this scenario and that’s where the metaphor became faulty to him. Billy Butcher was no mouse. If anything, he was a rat, determined to fight and bite and do as much damage to his opponent as physically possible.
With one precise motion, he snatched a carving knife from the counter and just in time too, because it took Noir mere seconds to swiftly move around the kitchen island and land a well-aimed punch to his stomach.
Butcher gasped for air, his eyes wide in renewed pain. But he didn’t hesitate to take a swing with his knife-hand and plunge it into the supe’s shoulder where the material of his suite was slightly less protective to allow for better movement. Noir flinched in surprise and pulled the now bloody knife out of his flesh. Then he let it clatter to the floor carelessly. Apparently, all Butcher’s attack had accomplished was to anger the supe even further.
Without so much as a warning, Butcher found his throat enclosed by two fierce hands, gloved fingers digging into his skin and his windpipe dangerously close to being crushed under the pressure. This was it, the only chance he had. While struggling to get even a hint of air into his lungs, his right hand shot out and snagged the grenade from Noir’s belt. Fortunately, the supe was too preoccupied to even notice. Butcher just about managed to push down the lever and pull the pin before he was suddenly thrown across the room again.
He crashed back first into the knocked over sofa, the pain almost wringing a cry of agony from his lips. The only thing that made him restrain himself was the reassuring weight of the grenade in his hand. Scrambling to push himself up on his elbow, Butcher looked over at Noir who was staring down at him from behind the kitchen island.
Despite the harrowing feeling of suffocation that was still gripping him, he gave the supe a dark smirk. He knew he wouldn’t be able to kill Noir. But that certainly didn’t mean he wouldn’t try.
“Burn in hell, cunt,” Butcher grunted and put all the strength he had left into hurling the armed grenade at the oven right next to his opponent.
Time seemed to slow down as his eyes followed the missile. Even Noir’s movements appeared lazy to him now. Then he heard the door behind him being smashed open with brute force. There was no time to turn around and the sofa would’ve blocked his view anyway. But he knew it had to be Hughie and M.M.. He had counted on them being safe and sound outside.
“No!” he yelled hoarsely, but it was already too late.
The kitchen was suddenly engulfed in a massive explosion, flames licking at the black outlines of the supe before him. Then, as time sped up again, everything around him came crashing down.
* * *
Violent tremors shook Butcher’s body in waves and his head was pounding so badly, he was afraid it was on the verge of exploding. His throat felt like it was on fire, and it took him a few moments to realise that he was coughing. He tried to open his eyes, but his lids were heavy with dirt. With each uncontrollable cough he inhaled even more dust and his lungs seemed impossibly constricted. He tried to roll over onto his side, but something pinned him down and he couldn’t move. Not even an inch.
“Shit,” he pressed through gritted teeth, still tasting blood.
Finally, he managed to blink a few times and eventually he opened his eyes. The semi-darkness around him didn’t allow for much information about his location. There was nothing but dust and debris.
Then, as if his coming to had been the go-ahead for his body to catch up with recent events, he noticed the pain. It was everywhere. He took a sharp breath and tried to focus. There were different nuances to it, he observed detachedly. While his head was still pounding and his lungs were burning, there was also a crushing pressure on his chest, the searing ache radiating from his broken rib, and a stabbing pain in his right thigh. The last one was the hardest to explain.
With great effort he took control of his shaking hand and let it wander down his torso. Almost immediately his fingers came into contact with the sharp edges of a heavy piece of drywall that was pressing down on his chest. The further down he went, the heavier his breathing became. When his hand finally reached his leg, a frown formed on his face. His fingertips gingerly closed in on the source of his pain and were met with a slim, cold piece of metal. Carefully, he let them trace down the object. It was slick with blood. Shit. He’d apparently managed to impale himself on some broken off piece of rebar. Quickly, his fingers found the point of entry on the backside of his thigh. The rod had gone straight through his flesh like a hot knife through butter.
“Fucking fantastic,” he grunted as he let his head fall back to the ground.
Obviously, Noir had failed terribly at killing him, rendering his attempted suicide by supe a complete waste of his resources. Butcher had truly not given a single shit about dying when he’d been fighting Noir, had even yearned for it. But now, buried under a heap of rubble that had once been his aunt’s kitchen, his resolve was crumbling and his survival instincts kicked in. This was not the way he’d wanted to go out.
So, he tried to calm his breathing and consequently his fiercely pumping heart. It was his only chance to at least somewhat slow down the blood loss. He knew his only hope was for Hughie and M.M. to dig him out of the mess he’d gotten himself into. The big problem was that he couldn’t be sure if the two of them were even alive. Was the supe still there?
His best bet was to wait it out for as long as possible, seeing as he was physically unable to move and all. Butcher closed his eyes in something close to defeat, but not quite. He just needed to stay awake. Easier said than done, he soon realised. His head was getting woozier by the minute and his extremities were slowly going numb from poor blood circulation. While he had succeeded in steadying his breathing, his coughing fits had in no way subsided and the convulsions it sent through his battered body were painful.
It was getting harder to cling to consciousness as his body grew heavier and his thoughts became sluggish. Somewhere buried deep down in his brain resided the knowledge that he couldn’t give in to the sweet pull of oblivion. But it was ridiculously easy to ignore. He was completely exhausted and so, slowly, he felt the pain fade as he drifted off.
* * *
Hughie heard the footsteps before he was able to even think about opening his eyes. They were light but the rubble and dust on the floor amplified them. Although a groan was threatening to spill from his lips, he forced them to stay shut. Just as he forced his eyes to stay shut, too. If Noir saw him coming to, there was no way of telling what would happen to him. M.M. was on the floor a few feet away from him and he couldn’t be sure if the other man was conscious.
So, he tried to keep his breathing as shallow and undetectable as possible, lying on his front with his face pressed into the dust. Maybe it was a good thing that an ice-cold fear had taken hold of him because it as good as locked his limbs in a state of paralysis. Hughie just hoped that his wildly beating heart wouldn’t betray him as the footsteps came closer and then stopped right next to him. Without warning, the tip of a heavy boot collided with his ribs and the explosion of pain made him bite his tongue so hard, he drew blood.
Then he almost flinched in shock when the silence was broken by the sudden sound of a ringing phone. It did however save him from another kick to the chest. Noir picked up his phone halfway through the first ring. Hughie was able to make out a muffled voice on the other end of the line, but the words were indiscernible to him. He was quite sure Noir was able to smell the panic sweat that had broken out all over his body and it was taking a lot of effort to remain still.
Luckily and to his great relief, the supe hung up his phone and then quickly walked past him, through the door and out of the house. Whoever the caller was, Hughie was beyond grateful because they’d called off Noir and probably saved his life in the process, even if unintentionally.
Minutes went by without anything happening, but Hughie was too scared to move. M.M. still hadn’t given any indication of being awake either, a fact that made him worry even more. He was still trying to breathe as little as humanly possible, and his brain started to go fuzzy from lack of oxygen. Then, out of the blue, something warm and wet slobbered all over his face, and finally made him rip his eyes open in shock. Terror’s big, wrinkly face was uncomfortably close to him, and his breath was terrible.
“Shit!” Hughie shrieked and quickly scrambled to get himself into an upright position.
“Keep your voice down!” M.M. hissed and made Hughie flinch some more.
“You’re conscious!” he whispered – very loudly – while Terror tried to climb onto his lap.
“Would you just-” M.M. made a very insistent hushing motion at Hughie, then turned towards the living room door. There were footsteps in the hallway. Hughie held his breath as he followed M.M.’s gaze.
“What are you sitting around on the ground for? That black supe’s just left. Walked past me like I wasn’t there.” Judy announced briskly when she appeared in the doorway and both men sighed in relief. “Oh, bloody hell, what did you do to my kitchen? How am I supposed to pay for the repairs? Suburban drug dealing isn’t what it used to be! And where the hell is Billy?”
Hughie and M.M. silently looked at each other before finally glancing at the ruin that had been Judy’s kitchen. While most of the outer walls were still intact, there was nothing much left of the furniture and appliances. The backwall had crumbled down and the floor had given out. It looked like a sink hole had opened in the middle of the room and swallowed everything in its way. There was rubble everywhere and, as far as they could see, no sign of Billy Butcher.
“Noir was right by the oven when we came in. But I didn’t see Butcher anywhere,” Hughie said shakily as realisation hit him with the force of a truck. “I heard him shouting something, though! He has to be around here somewhere.”
Judy’s eyes widened in fear as she took a few steps towards the rubble, but M.M. had quickly gotten up and wrapped a hand around her wrist. She raised her eyebrows at him challengingly.
“My nephew’s somewhere under there. If you think I won’t look for him, you’re a very stupid man.”
“Mrs Atkinson, we don’t even know if the floor’s still stable,” M.M. tried to reason and looked down at the other man for support.
But Hughie wasn’t returning his glance. He was still frozen to the spot, no longer wrestling with the bulldog who was now comfortably sitting on his lap. A dreadful thought had taken over his mind and a cold fear was gripping his heart tightly. Noir had obviously been out to kill Butcher and if his breezy exit was anything to go by, then that had to mean… Had Butcher’s attempted suicide actually succeeded?
He walked past the other two in complete disregard of the strained caution that M.M. was practically oozing. Stumbling over bits and pieces of rubble, he approached the kitchen area and almost scared himself when he opened his mouth and started yelling.
“Butcher! Fuck, where are you? Butcher!”
“Hughie, careful!” M.M. warned him. He let go of Judy again in favour of joining his friend, the woman hot on his heels. He too was afraid of what they might find.
So, the three of them scattered, carefully toeing the floor to check for instabilities and scanning piles of debris for any trace that might lead them to the missing man. Terror seemed to have grasped the gravity of the situation too, and was now strolling restlessly through the rubble, sniffing in random places, and whining along with Hughie’s continuing calls for Butcher.
There was no reply.
* * *
The sunlight was warm and soft as it flooded their bedroom. Her head was pillowed on his chest and she smiled up at him, drawing lazy circles on his bare stomach with her fingertips. She was everything.
Her face was glowing with pride at the praise she’d just received from the supe in the star-spangled cape. As the blond man left them standing there, she turned towards Billy and touched his face, his lips, with a sparkle in her eyes. She was happy.
They were sitting at the table, engulfed in a silence he didn’t know how to break. Her face was pale and her hair unkempt. She didn’t look at him, hadn’t looked at him for quite some time. He was desperate for her to say something, anything. She was slipping away.
Her arms were tightly wrapped around herself as she was sitting on the bench, looking like she was barely holding herself together. She hadn’t moved for hours. Then, suddenly, she got up and purposefully walked out of view. She was gone.
He was lying on the ground, blinking against the blinding sunlight and trying very hard to wish the supe above him out of existence. The man talked and talked but he didn’t understand, had no idea what he was saying. Then he saw her. Saw her looking at him, the disbelief he was feeling written all over her face, too. She was alive.
They were sitting in the boot of her car, her back against his chest, sharing a smoke. The night was warm, but there were goosebumps all over his arms. He still couldn’t believe she was here, she was with him. His love for her had never faded, but he had almost forgotten how strong it was when he was with her. She was a mother now.
Her hands were on his face again, desperation and defeat in her eyes. She loved him. She was scared of him, too. Not for herself but for her son. She loved him more. She told him he was wrong about her, that he’d always been wrong about her, and she rejected him. She was the love of his life, but she was lost to him.
* * *
A few long minutes of fruitless searching had passed, and Hughie’s panic was only growing stronger. Why hadn’t they found Butcher yet? Each second was crucial, he knew that. Even if they were able to find him, there was no way of telling what state he’d be in. He was becoming more and more reckless in his attempts to clear away the rubble and dig through the pieces of drywall and broken furniture. More than once, M.M. had to pull him back from the debris-filled hole in the ground.
“Shit, what are we going to do?” Hughie eventually asked into the tense silence.
“Keep digging,” Judy retorted tersely and through gritted teeth. “Billy’s the only family I have left on this side of the pond. So, keep. Fucking. Digging.”
“We’re doing our best here. But could someone get this dog off me?” M.M. requested in irritation. He wasn’t any less worried than the others, but as usual, he tried not to let it control him. Someone had to keep a clear head. “He keeps gnawing at my boots.”
“Terror! Stop it!”
Judy had looked up from her pile of debris and the dog gave her an accusatory bark. Then he waddled off towards a door at which he started to scratch insistently. Hughie’s eyes had followed him, and he observed him thoughtfully. Then he walked over and opened the door for Terror. The dog immediately ran down the stairs to the basement.
“Shit,” Hughie mumbled under his breath as realisation once again hit him. “SHIT!”
“What?” M.M. asked sharply.
“The basement! Why didn’t we think of that?” With that, the young man hastily followed the dog. M.M. and Judy wasted no time to do the same.
They quickly crossed the first room and then ducked through the open door to Judy’s “taffy room”. The front left part of the basement was completely wrecked and filled with remains of the crumbled kitchen. They had a hard time climbing over the heaps of rough wall fragments, blackened bricks, and singed pieces of wood, but eventually they all managed to enter. Terror was already pawing and sniffing at the huge pile of rubble again.
“We’ll find him,” M.M. reassured the other two, with his hands on one of their shoulders each.
Their resolve to find Butcher renewed now that they had better access, they once again started to dig.
* * *
He was clawing his way upwards. There were pipes and bricks and so many sharp edges all around him, scratching and digging into his skin, but he needed to get out. He felt like his lungs were filled with cement and each breath was painful. He kept fighting though, he had to.
Then sudden specks of light announced that he was getting closer, and he eventually pushed through the final layer of debris. Expecting more light and clean air, he blinked a few times and inhaled deeply. But the room was wanly lit at best, long shadows stretching across the littered floor, and he coughed as dust filled his airway once again.
He struggled desperately to free himself, but he was stuck from the waist down. Both his legs had gone numb from exertion and pain, and he looked around helplessly until his eyes fell on a slim figure in a far corner.
“Becca!” he cried out in agony as the figure slowly walked towards him, her head bowed.
Then she raised her eyes up at him, her hair framing her beautiful face like a portrait. There was pain in her eyes too, but her features remained cold and unmoving. She was paler than he’d ever seen her, and it scared him to death. Finally, she opened her mouth and all of a sudden her voice echoed off the walls as if she was screaming. She wasn’t, though.
“I don’t need you, Billy,” Becca stated, not a hint of emotion in her tone. “I’m safe here with Vought. Have been all these years while you gave up looking for me. Ryan needs his mother and the stability of a home. A home you cannot provide. You… You’re not safe. You’re dangerous. To me and certainly to him. I don’t want you around my son. We don’t need you.”
His throat felt constricted and his chest tightened painfully at her words. There, his worst fears laid out before him, he didn’t find it in him to even try and keep fighting. Becca didn’t want him and that was the truth. She’d told him before.
“Becca,” he whispered, on the verge of letting the first tear spill. “Don’t… Don’t do this.”
“I never knew how to save you,” she said, but now there was no regret in her voice, no sorrow. Not like last time.
Very slowly a huge but distinct shadow appeared on the wall behind her. The shadow of a caped hero that threatened to engulf her. She didn’t run. She made no move at all, her eyes still fixed on his as a pair of hands slipped over her shoulders and wrapped around her neck.
“BECCA!” he yelled in despair and started to struggle against his prison again. “Run! You can’t stay there! He’s right behind you!”
He needed to save her and suddenly, as if his pure force of will was enough, he broke through the obstructions that had held him in place. But it was too late. He stumbled and fell at her feet as the shadow swallowed her whole, his name on her lips in unexpected fear.
“Billy!”
“BECCA!”
* * *
“He has to be here, right? I mean, he can’t just have… evaporated?”
Hughie was standing in front of the ruins, sweating all over and slowly reaching his limits. Judy had sat down and M.M. was still digging. It felt like they hadn’t made any progress at all. No one had an answer to Hughie’s question.
He rubbed at his face with both hands, smearing dirt across his clammy skin in the process. With each passing minute his hopes of finding their friend alive faded a little more and he just couldn’t deal with that thought. He stood by what he’d once said. Billy Butcher was too much of an asshole to die.
Just when he was about to turn back to look at M.M. with dread coiling around his insides, his attention was caught by Terror. The dog was pawing manically at something he’d apparently found in the rubble. It was a blue piece of fabric and Terror was adamant in his efforts to retrieve the object. Hughie had to take a step closer to get a better look as the dog finally freed his prey and immediately started to chew on it. The young man had to supress an actual laugh at what he saw. Terror was slobbering all over a stuffed Homelander toy.
“Hey guys! GUYS! Look!”
Judy and M.M. quickly followed Hughie’s pointing finger and simultaneously raised their eyebrows.
“Where did he find that?” M.M. asked in confusion.
“He just dug it up,” Hughie explained, feeling excited for some reason as he looked over at Judy. “Is it his?”
“No,” the woman shrugged, nonplussed. “Billy must’ve brought it.”
“Definitely seems like something he’d do,” M.M. agreed, a hopeful smile curling is lips.
“BUTCHER!” Hughie started calling again, the other’s not wasting any time before joining in.
* * *
The voices weren’t just in his head anymore. There were sounds reaching his ears, waking him from his trance-like nightmare. He knew it hadn’t been real, but that didn’t mean the image of Becca wasn’t burnt into his brain. Her words of rejection still echoed through his skull, amplifying his headache by a hundred percent.
“Butcher!”
The voices sounded so familiar, yet he couldn’t quite place them. His eyes fluttered open once more and he was mildly surprised that he wasn’t, after all, dead. He tried to move but was thwarted in his efforts as the dormant pain from his leg shot up and down his body again. It made him groan involuntarily which in turn silenced the voices for a moment. Then a nervous kind of excitement seemed to be breaking out outside his confines.
“Did you hear that?”
“Butcher?”
“Here,” he tried to respond, but the word was torn to shreds on its way across his dry tongue as a violent coughing fit sent his whole body into spasms. His muscles cramped up uncontrollably and his thigh squeezed painfully around the piece of rebar his leg was still impaled on. “Fuck,” he spat out gruffly between heavy breaths and convulsive coughs, a thick sheen of sweat on his brows.
“It’s him! He’s alive!” Hughie. That was definitely Hughie’s voice.
“Butcher!” And M.M.. They were fine, thank fuck.
“Billy, talk to us!” Judy’s ever demanding tone almost made him smile.
He tried to clear his throat, but his insides appeared to have turned into sandpaper. Although the reply I’m here, tossers was on the tip of his tongue, all he could manage was a weak wheeze. Nevertheless, it seemed to do the trick because it was greeted with some urgent scratches and a low bark. Terror.
Then there was movement in the layers of rubble to his right, the piece of drywall that was pressing down on his chest starting to shift a little and dust rained down into his eyes. The voices grew louder, and he just about managed to rasp out a thin “Careful!”. One wrong move and the whole fragile mount could crash down on him. Again.
All of a sudden, a bright ray of light fell on his face and made him scrunch his eyes shut. They were slowly unearthing him, mindful not to injure him further. The bulldog was pressing through the remaining debris impatiently and it didn’t take long until Butcher was assaulted by the excited licks of a rough tongue.
“Good boy,” he chuckled, still very short of breath, and tried to free his hand to pat Terror. “Glad ya found me, aye?”
Next M.M. appeared in his line of vision, a relieved expression on his face. “Keep still,” the other man warned him and waved Hughie over to help him clear away the last pieces of rubble.
“Took you lot long enough. Careful with the leg,” Butcher instructed with a hiss as a sharp flash of pain shot up his body again. “Got a little skewered down there.”
“Jesus, Billy, you scared the hell out of us!” Judy said, her voice clearly tinged with reproach.
“Yeah, well… sorry,” he replied without the slightest hint of regret. “Had no other choice.”
“What do you mean, you had no other choice?” Up until now Hughie had kept quiet, but now he was as good as shouting at him. “You very clearly tried to kill yourself along with Black Noir! And he walked away without so much as a scratch!”
For a second, Butcher’s expression softened at the hurt look on the young man’s face. It was true that he’d been reckless and very disregardful with his own life. Yes, self-destruction had very much been on the table, and he hadn’t thought about what it would do to the others at all. Hughie’s confession that he was still thinking about just cashing it in after Robin’s death was permanently burnt into his memory. That had cut him deeper than he cared to admit and triggered images of his brother he’d suppressed for years now. Maybe Hughie was right to be angry.
“Calm down, lad. I’m alive, ain’t I?” he retorted bluntly, then added in a somewhat muted tone, “Though… I am sorry. Guess I wasn’t in me right mind.”
M.M.’s eyes widened in disbelief as he paused in his efforts to free his friend and looked back and forth between him and Hughie. The honesty of Butcher’s apology was unprecedented. He could count the times he’d heard those words leave the man’s mouth on the fingers of one hand, and they had never, in all the years he’d known him, been this genuine.
“Well… okay, then,” Hughie replied lamely, obviously as dumbstruck as M.M. was.
“Now, I don’t wanna piss on your moment, but would you be so kind and just get on with it?” Butcher inquired with a groan as he tried to prop himself up on his elbows.
Hastily, they went back to work and when Hughie lifted a smaller piece of drywall from the man’s leg, his face immediately turned a sickly shade of pale green. He had uncovered the rebar that was sticking out of Butcher’s thigh.
“Oi, don’t you dare throw up on me now,” Butcher commented drily at the look on Hughie’s face. Then he finally managed to push himself into a sitting position and inspected the piece of metal himself.
“Shit,” M.M. breathed out in shock at the sight. “How deep does it go?”
“Went straight through,” he responded in unsettling nonchalance.
The former medic turned to Judy and urgently asked, “Do you have any medical supplies around here?”
“Of course, I do. What kind of woman do you take me for?” she replied brusquely and quickly went to scramble over the remaining rubble and to her shelves.
“We need pressure bandages, disinfectant, pain meds, and something to stitch him up with,” M.M. gave his list as she started her search. Then he looked back at the patient, instantly turning alarmed. “Butcher, what the hell are you doing?”
The man in question had wrapped his right hand around the intrusive piece of metal tentatively, his left hand pressing down on his thigh close to the entry wound.
“Ya might want to look away for this,” he mumbled in Hughie’s direction with his tongue between his teeth.
“Wha-“ Hughie started, but got yelled over by M.M..
“Butcher, no!”
But it was already too late. In one swift motion Butcher had pulled the rebar out of his leg, the wet sucking sound making Hughie wretch.
“What the fuck, Butcher?” the young man cried out, utterly horrified and turning impossibly paler.
“Are you insane?” M.M. yelled and swiftly jumped to his side to press down on the wound.
“We need to get out of here,” Butcher stated between heavy, shallow breaths, and tossed the rebar to the side. “Let’s not make this a bigger deal than it is, alright?”
“You’re not going anywhere like this,” the other man shot back and searched the room for a more appropriate location to treat Butcher’s thigh. “Hughie, come one. Help me get him over to the sofa.”
The young man was still a little shaky, but he nodded nevertheless as he stooped down beside them and, with a little more force than strictly necessary, wrapped Butcher’s arm around his shoulder. No one commented on that. Together with M.M. he got him to his feet, but he was physically unable to put any kind of weight on his injured leg. Even the few feet over to the sofa were a struggle. Terror followed them, the Homelander toy in his mouth already dripping with saliva.
When they lowered Butcher down again, the dog clambered up onto the seat beside his owner and nestled into the pillows, chewing contently on the plush supe. Despite the pain he was in, he smirked down at his dog.
“Good boy,” he said again and scratched Terror behind his ears.
“Focus, Butcher. You need to get your pants down. And before you say anything, this is as uncomfortable for me as it is for you,” M.M. requested of the man before him.
“Yer a medic, this shouldn’t be uncomfortable at all,” Butcher replied offhandedly, but started to undo his pants without further comment, lifting himself with a grunt to push the jeans down to his knees.
“Yeah, but you’re not my usual type of patient,” the other man grumbled and looked at the wound. “Mrs Atkinson, did you find the supplies?”
“I got some bandages, disinfectant, and a syringe for the pain killers. They’re morphine based, though. Might be a tad strong,” Judy said when she joined them at the sofa.
“I wouldn’t mind some stronger drugs,” Butcher asserted through gritted teeth, his hands clamping down on the pillows with each wave of pain. “I have a bleedin’ hole in my leg, if you haven’t noticed.”
“Yeah, yeah," his aunt said, the accompanying eye roll audible in her tone. Then she turned around, walked over to Hughie, and dropped her findings into his hands. “You’re the nurse now, boy. I’m going to go upstairs and keep a look out. The fire brigade’s sure to be back soon, so hurry up.”
The young man fumbled around with the supplies for a second, trying not to drop anything, as Judy left them to it. After everything that had happened, he felt a little detached and very far away from what was going on around him right then. He could hear the blood rushing in his ears as he saw Butcher’s seeping out from his wound and running down his thigh. It was like he was frozen to the spot and couldn’t help himself staring at the injured man’s leg.
“Hughie! Hey, snap out of it!” M.M. looked a little concerned when he waved him over with an urgent gesture. “Come on, we don’t have time for this right now.”
Hughie shook his head, trying to get himself back to reality, and clumsily hurried over to them while struggling not to stumble. Then he crouched down beside the other two men and laid the supplies out on the small coffee table. It was nothing if not sheer good luck that the sitting area was still more or less intact.
“What do you need?” he asked M.M. in a jittery voice.
“Just hand me the bandage,” M.M. replied before addressing Butcher again. “The bleeding’s still too strong to even think about disinfecting the wound. I’m just gonna put a pressure bandage on it. Hopefully, that will be enough until we find a safer place to stay, and I can stitch you up.”
“I’m good with whatever,” Butcher shot back and lifted his leg as much as his position and the pain allowed. “Now, get on with it.”
Without further ado, M.M. began to wrap the gauze bandage around the other man’s thigh, careful to put the right amount of pressure on it. Butcher ground his teeth and screwed his eyes shut. When he was finally all bandaged, he let out a relieved breath and looked at M.M. again.
“What about the morphine?” he asked curtly and looked over at the table.
Although it was obvious that he was in pain, he didn’t want to let them know how bad it actually was. It took all his remaining strength to keep his leg from shaking, and his rib cage still felt like it was on the verge of being crushed. To channel at least some of his tension, he kept biting down on his cheek, the taste of blood a constant reminder that he had once again survived when he shouldn’t have. He wasn’t usually one to welcome care or attention of any kind, but he was also smart enough to know when it was time to accept help. Now was that time, and help couldn’t come soon enough in his opinion.
“I’m going as fast as I can, asshole. But you really don’t want me to rush this part,” M.M. responded testily while painstakingly drawing up the liquid pain killers into the syringe. “Now, give me your arm.”
Butcher wordlessly slipped out of his coat and held his bare arm out to finally receive the sweet gift of pain relief. Each movement took effort, and he wasn’t even sure if he’d be able to make it to the car because fainting was very much still on the table. He’d have to literally lean on the others for that.
“Hughie, put some disinfectant on a tissue and clean the crook of his elbow,” M.M. ordered, and the young man quickly jumped into action, trying very hard to keep his hand from trembling as he dabbed at Butcher’s skin.
“I’ll only repeat myself once, lad. If you throw up on me, I’m gonna kill you.”
“Not helping, Butcher. Shut up and let him do his job,” M.M. mumbled with his tongue between his lips in concentration. Then, as Hughie moved away again, he unceremoniously stuck the needle into Butcher’s skin and injected the morphine into his vein. “Should take about ten minutes before the meds kick in. So, any other injuries I should know about?”
“Nothing major,” Butcher replied offhandedly and started to pull up his pants again with a few awkward movements and the odd groan.
“Come on, man. This is not the time for strong and silent,” the other man insisted with an irritable look on his face.
“Might’ve cracked a rib or two,” he conceded with an eye roll. “Nothing you can do about that right now. I’ll just wait for the morphine to work its magic.”
“Fucking hell, Butcher,” M.M. grumbled and gave a long-suffering sigh. “Show me.”
“We ain’t got time for your doctoring,” Butcher grunted and was about to push himself up, but M.M. stared him down again pretty easily.
“You really wanna argue with me right now, asshole?” He gestured his impatience at the stubborn man before him, clearly willing to use force if needed.
“Jesus fucking Christ,” Butcher mumbled under his breath but eventually proceeded to unbutton his shirt without further resistance.
All the while, Hughie had kept quiet again, still trying to shake the picture of the bloody metal bar sticking out of the soft flesh of Butcher’s thigh. On both sides. The horrible sucking sound of him pulling the thing out was still echoing around his skull. His stomach was in tight, painful knots and he expected to throw up any second with his bile still very close to passing the threshold.
Inwardly cursing himself for having had eggs for breakfast, he tried to focus on the present and the two men around him. But when Butcher had finally opened his shirt and Hughie’s eyes fell on the huge, blackish red bruise that stretched across his torso, he immediately felt faint again.
Of course, he’d seen worse ever since Butcher had stepped into his life, had even been hurt himself a few times. But for some reason the events of this day had shaken him to the core. Tracking down Butcher because they were worried for him, the threat of potentially being killed by Black Noir, Butcher throwing himself into a suicide mission, explosions upon explosions, and finally the very real fear of having lost their friend.
“Hughie! Eyes up here!” Butcher was snapping his fingers very close to the younger man’s face, and they locked eyes for the first time since they’d dug him up. “I’m fine, okay?”
“Yeah,” Hughie muttered and shook his head in an attempt to clear his thoughts. “Yeah, I know.”
“Okay, focus up,” M.M. butted in and quickly got back both men’s attention. Then he stretched out his right hand and very carefully touched the swollen skin just beneath Butcher’s chest. The injured man sucked in a surprised breath and narrowed his eyes at the former medic. By this point his struggle to control the quick, shallow rise and fall of his chest was too obvious to fool any of them, so M.M. ignored him. “I can’t really be sure, but it looks like your sixth and seventh rib are at least contused. Did you hear any cracking?”
“Ya mean when Noir tossed me into the counter or when the kitchen almost crushed me into a pulp?” Butcher deadpanned. “Because in both cases, yes, there was lots of cracking.”
M.M. retracted his hand in favour of rubbing it across his face. “Okay, we definitely need to get you to a hospital as soon as possible. Just to rule out any internal injuries.”
“Let’s not make a fuss about this, alright? I’m fine.” Butcher replied, but the way he hissed the words through gritted teeth instantly refuted his statement. He was getting short-tempered now, very much just wanting to get out of there. So, he decided to at least keep the splitting headache to himself so as not to offer M.M. another target and pray for the pain meds to kick in instead. “We’ve got the authorities as good as up our asses, the hospital’s not an option.”
“Shit, Butcher!” Hughie suddenly burst out in frustration. “Would you please, just for once, shut the fuck up and listen to us? You owe us at least that much. What good would it do any of us if you kicked the bucket just because you’re too stubborn to go to a fucking hospital? Jack squat! You’d just hurt us and… and Becca! So, stop acting like a selfish jackass!”
The young man was breathing very hard as two sets of eyes lay on him in a mixture of utter disbelief and shocked awe. It was obvious that Hughie had kept his anger and worry to himself for far too long, his eventual escalation apparently having been inevitable. For some reason Hughie couldn’t meet their gazes now, and Butcher finally cleared his throat.
“Okay, then.”
Now it was Hughie’s turn to be taken aback. He had expected a lot more resistance and, as he looked up again, was met with an expression best described as defeated compliance. As much as he despised Butcher’s methods most of the time, he found that he'd come to heavily rely on his unceasing determination to make it through no matter what. So, it made his heart clench to find Butcher so void of… fight. But just as he was about to apologize for his bluntness, the other man gave him a crooked smirk and a wink. The moment lasted less than a few seconds but almost completely relieved Hughie of the ominous feelings that had curled up his guts before.
“Let’s get a move on,” Butcher announced with yet another groan as he started to lift himself up again.
M.M. was by his side immediately, helping him back to his feet and supporting his weight with an arm around his back. Butcher, in turn, slung his arm over M.M.’s shoulder and reluctantly let himself lean on his friend. Meanwhile, Hughie had quickly scrambled to pick up the remaining medical supplies and stuff them into his pockets as best as possible. Then he followed the other two to the door and, with a look over his shoulder, made sure that Terror was also tagging along.
Their journey upstairs was slow and arduous because Butcher’s right leg was as good as useless, and he needed to pause every few steps to catch his breath. The dog kept pulling on the legs of Hughie’s jeans each time they had to stop and although he really loved pets, this was getting seriously irritating. But he got it. They were all worried and anxious.
“What took you so long?” Judy greeted them impatiently when they finally arrived at the top of the stairs.
“Butcher’s been hurt worse than we expected,” M.M. explained, renewing his grip on the man in question.
“Oh Billy,” she sighed, taking in the sight of her battered nephew. “What have you done to yourself?”
“Nothing this one can’t fix,” Butcher tried to smile as he awkwardly patted his friend’s shoulder.
“I can’t tell how bad it really is,” M.M. stated seriously. “We need to get him to a hospital, stat.”
“As I said before, it’s not an option. We’re wanted and-“ Butcher started but quickly got interrupted by his aunt.
“Shut up, Billy,” she said sternly before addressing M.M.. “I know a doctor in Staten Island who’ll gladly do whatever you need. He owes me one.”
“Quit making a fuss about this. I’m fine,” the injured man once again tried to downplay his situation, but to no avail.
“Fucking hell, Butcher!” This time it was Hughie who cut him short. “Just get with the program.”
Butcher pursed his lips in evident annoyance, but kept his mouth shut for now. Judy produced her phone from her pocket and started to make a call. Meanwhile, they made their way out of the wrecked house, onto the street and towards their cars. As if they’d come to a silent agreement, Hughie and M.M. moved towards Butcher’s pick-up, already having decided to abandon the car they’d arrived in. After a few moments of silence Judy caught up with them, already having hung up her phone.
“Dr Martinez has agreed to do a check-up on you,” she said and quickly typed something out on her display. “I’m texting you the address right now.” Only a second later Butcher’s phone gave a short ring, announcing the arrival of her message.
“Thanks Judy,” Butcher sighed and gave her an apologetic look. “I’m sorry I pulled ya into this mess.”
“Nonsense,” she replied curtly. “I’ve known you your whole life, boy. Don’t start making apologies now.”
At that he just grinned and turned towards Terror who was sitting right by his side. Now that he was supporting himself with a hand on the car’s rooftop, M.M. and Hughie had proceeded to get ready for their departure and give them a bit of privacy.
He looked at his dog and would’ve very much liked to crouch down beside him to give him a proper pat good-bye. Neither his leg nor his ribs allowed for that, though. So, he contented himself with addressing Terror in a low voice.
“Well… here we are. I’m sorry. I almost threw in the towel like a bleedin’ twat. We’re harder than that, ain’t we? I will get your mum back. I swear to God, I’ll get your mum back. Just take a little bit longer.”
The dog watched him attentively and for all intents and purposes looked a lot like he understood every word of it.
“You hang in there. Alright? You be a good boy for Judy.”
Terror gave a soft bark and panted a little more excitedly.
“Yeah, that’s a good lad.”
With that he turned back to his aunt who was watching him with half a smile, her arms crossed over her chest. He extended one arm in invitation and Judy took a step closer to carefully hug her nephew.
“You’re alright for an old bat,” he said, almost softly.
“Yeah, yeah,” she scoffed and waved him off, the smile never leaving her face.
Then she patted her leg, signalling Terror to follow her to her car. The dog gave Butcher one last bark, then made after the woman. Not wanting to watch them leave, Butcher turned back and was met with an oddly empathetic look from Hughie who was on the other side of the car, about to climb into the passenger seat.
“You did good today,” Butcher conceded in a muted tone of voice. “And for what it’s worth… I’m glad ya came after me.”
Hughie’s lips turned into a knowing smile and he just nodded. “You’re welcome.”
It was then that the events of that day seemed to finally catch up with Butcher, and although the morphine was doing its job, he was suddenly overwhelmed by the dull ache left in the wake of true pain and an all-consuming weariness. His head started to swim, and he slumped against the car, doing everything he could to keep himself upright.
“Butcher!” Hughie called out in alarm and, together with M.M., hurried back around the car.
They both grabbed him by his arms and M.M. quickly pulled the backseat door open. Then they helped Butcher to carefully lower himself into the car.
“Okay, try to stay awake and take deep breaths. I know it hurts, but we need to prevent any chance of pneumonia, okay?” M.M. asked before turning to Hughie. “You gotta sit with him and make sure he doesn’t go out.”
Hughie nodded and swiftly made his way to the other backseat door to squeeze himself in beside Butcher. M.M. hopped into the driver’s seat, started the car and pulled it out onto the street.
“Told ya I’m knackered, didn’t I?” Butcher gave Hughie a weak smile and leaned back into his seat.
“Yeah well, we all are. But it doesn’t mean I’m above singing Billy Joel at you if it keeps you awake,” Hughie mumbled while watching the other man intently.
“Fuck no,” Butcher coughed out a hoarse laugh at the threat. “I’ll do me best, then.”
“That’s what I thought,” the young man retorted.
“Yer a good lad, Hughie.”
A small grin was tugging at the corners of his mouth. “I know.”
“Luke!” Leia’s voice filters through the commotion of the hangar, and Luke glances over his shoulder, pausing in his tinkering of his x-wing.
Artoo beeps impatiently at him, and he waves the droid away, “Just a minute, Artoo.” He picks up a random cloth off a toolkit, wiping away the oil on his hands as Leia approaches, the crowd parting like the sea in front of her small form, datapad in hand.
“I need you to sign this report on ship parts for high command,” she says all in one breath, and Luke hesitates, looking her over. Her shoulders are slumped, and there’s barely concealed darkness beneath her eyes. Of all people, Luke knows how hard she works, how little sleep she gets, and especially how hard it’s been since they lost Han. It weighs on both of them.
But she gestures the datapad impatiently under his nose, bringing him out of his thoughts, and he huffs out a small laugh, dropping the dirty rag back down and snatching the pad from her hand before she can smack him in the nose with it. But as he stares down at the report, Leia’s foot-tapping joining the noise of the larger hangar, he hears one of the men’s radio’s playing. It’s barely audible over people speaking and machines rattling, but it’s there.
Luke glances back up to Leia, her arms crossed and staring out across the large hangar, dark eyes hooded, and he makes a decision.
He deposits the datapad on top of the toolkit with a clatter. “Luke, what-” but Luke’s already tugging at her hands. She raises an eyebrow but slowly uncrosses her arms, letting him pull her closer. Luke smiles softly and raises the hand clasped in his prosthetic, resting his other hand on her back. And then he spins her around.
Tags: Not Courier 6 OC, The Legion, Hurt No Comfort
TWs: Legion Typical Slavery, References to Rape/Noncon, Noncon Pregnancy, Suicidal Ideation, Contemplation of Abortion
AN: New OC, enjoy
Febuwhump Masterlist
Anthea was left alone shortly after the priestess left. Drusus had spared a moment to place a possessive hand over her stomach before he left to attend to his duties. It took several breaths after he left for her to come to a point where she was anything more than numb. Her shaking hand came to rest over her stomach.
"Deodamnatus," she murmured as she stared at the flap of the tent Drusus had left through.
Anthea thought she had been so careful. She had bartered and fought to sneak her tonic every month; she didn't know where she had failed. But she had, and it meant that there was the chance of a child being forced into this life. But… only if she let it happen.
Her eyes darted across the room to one of Drusus's blades, left laying on the table. It had been long enough that the man wasn't concerned about leaving weapons in her reach, but he also hadn't factored in this new variable.
A sharp thrush through her stomach would have been enough to purge any growing infants, as well as potentially free her from this torment. The thought was tantalizing; she could be free from the horrors of the Legion. It would even bring shame to her so-called husband, for allowing his slave wife to kill herself, and his unborn.
It wasn't like she had much to live for. Her mother was gone; if Anthea was lucky, the woman was dead. Her brother likely had no idea what had happened to them over the past decade or more, and had moved on. She hoped he found his peace, like she hoped to soon.
She stood and approached the table. The blade was weighty in her hands. A solid dagger, long and sharp; his side blade. She held it out, watching how the light shifted along the polished metal.
"I'm sorry, little one," she murmured. "You will thank me for this. The Legion is hell, and I would not wish to drag you here with me."
She poised the knife over her stomach. Her hands shook, and the knife jittered slightly. She tried to take a deep breath and steady her hands. Her eyes flicked to the tent flap. Drusus was still gone. Who knew when he would return? If she was going to act, she had to do so now.
"It's for your own good," she assured the developing form in her womb, though it sounded more like she was trying to assure herself. "You would be better off dead than here. I—"
Her voice cracked and her hands shook. She frowned when she felt a drop of wet hit her hands. She glanced up, but saw no hole in the tent. When another fell, she reached up and touched her face. Tears.
She threw the dagger away, struggling to keep sobs from wracking her body. She was weak. A coward. If she had any sense at all, she would kill the child and herself in one fell swoop. And yet…
She wondered what Kane would think of his future niece or nephew. It had been so long since she had seen him. He had been younger than she was now. He was probably the same age their mother was when they left home, at this point.
And… this child was the only family she had now. She was selfish.
But after all this time, wasn't she allowed to be just a little selfish?
