#feeling normal today

[cyber-corp]

YESSS doctor SCREAM!!!!!! FEEL IMMENSE AGONY FROM THE REALISATION THAT THE PEOPLE YOU TRIED TO SAVE ARE SO SELF-CENTERED THAT THEY REFUSE TO LET YOU HELP THEM!!!! SCREAM THAT THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO!!! YESSSSSSSS

[waeponwifestre]

Today in unactionable pervert fantasies: being loved and held and told I’m ok.

[pearsandrust]

some brief phainon trailer thoughts from a non-hi3 player:

when he says "why is there absolutely nothing behind me now", he isn't just referring to the other chrysos heirs' deaths -- he's also realizing that all evidence of his past has been obliterated. the fact that the trailer cuts to hyacine emphasizes this, because she insisted on talking to her ancestors before setting off to reclaim aquila's coreflame. phainon does not have this privilege. every place he has ever loved has now been destroyed

all the red in this trailer (at least the non-aedes elysiae parts) is GENIUS. it 1) makes phainon stand out, 2) aligns with the whole "light shines brighter in darkness" theme they've got going on in the caption, and 3) goes well with phainon's motif of "burning"

the sequence of shots where they show a hand with golden blood on it, then phainon waking up in the wheat field? beautiful. it equates the gold of the blood to the gold of the wheat/sun, which brings up some interesting ideas. is it a symbol of fate (phainon's future was already written in his past)? is it a symbol of suffering (even in the most peaceful place, he's surrounded by grief)? either way, good stuff

he does the trope where a character obscures the sun by reaching towards it!!! very fitting. also very fitting that they drop this trailer after we see flame reaver gazing at the sky in 3.3

the sequence leading up to his transformation is great!! i have no clue what most of it means to be completely honest but i enjoyed it. nice amphoreus shape reference. phainon splitting into two ... is that him and flame reaver or a representation of two different parts of him?

flame reaver raising his sword to the sky as it caves in on him is surprisingly tragic. that is exactly what phainon does in 3.3 when they fight aquila. he never changes

that last shot of phainon gazing into the golden light as the world behind him falls into ruin brings the entire trailer back to the "there is absolutely nothing behind me now" line -- cyclical, just like amphoreus! it's also a great representation of phainon's character. although he has been trying to look towards the light of the flame-chase, he's never truly been able to stand in it. he has always remained in the shadows of his past

[64mpg]

walk in the gym and puke in my mouth on the first rep 👍

[kaaaaaaarf]

not a wire mother, not a cloth mother, but a secret third mother who is a soaking wet rag and makes you responsible for drying the water out only it never dries, it just gets more and more wet until you're kind of drowning a bit and also surprise it's actually your fault it's wet in the first place and you're actually being really ungrateful about the opportunity to try and dry it and stop whining about the fact you're drowning you don't know what it's like to be soaking wet rag mother.

[nincel69]

something abt trent talking abt how isolated he felt as a kid, how he didn’t rlly socialise a lot, how he only had tv shows as examples on how to socialise, how he never felt like he belonged anywhere, how he can’t act normal, how he openly stims on stage, how he used substances to cope, how he writes about loneliness in such a raw way

anyway i have a totally normal and good attachment to this person and don’t project my feelings onto him at all <3

[cthyga]

i think the soft reds and tans used in lain/ haibane renmei art are too elusive i want to feel the low contrast warmth of lain fanart like a blanket like a crushing 200lb weighted blanket

[painfulprompts]

I NEED TO ROOFIE SPAMTON AND FORCE HIM TO DRINK MORE ALCOHOL THAN HE CAN HANDLE. I WANT TO PRETEND TO BE SO WORRIED WHEN HE THROWS UP AND IS SO NAUSEOUS AND INCOHERENT. I WANT TO TAKE HIM HOME AND TAKE CARE OF HIM AFTER I CAUSED THIS IN THE FIRST PLACE. I NEED TO TAKE HIS CLOTHES OFF AND TELL HIM ITS JUST BECAUSE THEYRE DIRTY AND NO OTHER REASON. I NEED TO TOUCH HIM WHILE HES VULNERABLE AND UNAWARE AND NAKED.