#felix grayson

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Bonus scene #1: Nighttime Strolls

Felix smirked, quickly sprinting into the bushes, outside of the capitol entrance, these sunlight guards were getting easier and easier to trick.

After taking a few moments to catch his breath and check he wasn’t being followed, he stepped out of the underbrush, taking a look around the woods in the evening light.

Kishin should be around here somewhere…

“Kiissshhhinnnnnn!” Felix called out, wandering around the starlit forest, wondering where his horned friend was.

It was a chilly yet peaceful night, a soft breeze blowing through the Cosmotellaris woodland. Most citizens of the capital would have found the night eerie and dangerous, away from sunlight protection. But for Felix, it was freedom, no senseless rules and no scrutinizing eyes watching him constantly.

It wasn’t exactly hard to find Kishin to be honest, just follow the trail of uprooted plants whether it be the smallest daisy or the largest oak.

This evening, it seemed the oak was the victim, Kishin was sitting on a rock, contentedly finishing the tree before snacking on the bark as if they were chips.

Felix chuckled softly, watching his friend snack. “There you are.”

Kishin perked up seeing the teen, swallowing the last of his tree bark before speaking “Felix! There you are, I was wondering what took you so long.

“Yeah sorry… I uh- had something that held me up at home.” Felix replied, quick to think of a better reason than trying to stay on his temperamental father’s good side.

Kishin hopped up from the rock he was sitting on before grabbing Felix’s wrist, guiding him along. “You’re here now. Now let’s go, my favorite species of sunflower just came into season and I wanna find some!”

Following the kebula, Felix let out a small huff of laughter, leave it to Kishin to lighten the mood via his cravings. “Didn’t you just eat a whole tree?? How in the name of the universe are you still hungry?”

Kishin looked back with a small pout “That was just to hold me over till we got the sunflowers!”

It had been a fun yet chaotic evening, the two had wandered for a bit before finding a field with Kishin’s sunflowers, everything was fine.

However as he was helping Kishin pick flowers, Felix saw a gray konster nearby and immediately wanted to pet it, grabbing out dog treats from his fanny pack, hoping to tame it with snacks.

Luckily Kishin noticed before Felix could get too close, whisking him away from the beast, much to Felix’s disappointment.

As they returned to their usual clearing, Felix looked up at the stars, the beings he loved so dearly before looking over to Kishin who was happily munching on sunflowers.

“Kishin? What do you think of the constellations..?”

Kishin looked up, nearly choking on a sunflower head “-The constellations? Why??”

“Do you think they listen to us? That if I worked really hard to prove myself, they would hear?” Felix asked, looking slightly embarrassed about the question.

The kebula sighed and set down his sunflowers before looking up at the night sky. “ to be honest, I’m not sure. I’m not the biggest believer in the constellations. Who knows, maybe there are people in the sky who give people powers, maybe it’s genetic.”

“I just know that I’m not going to spend my life wishing on a star. Already tried that.” Kishin replied earnestly.

After hearing Kishin’s response, Felix shrinks into himself a little, feeling stupid for asking. “Oh… okay.” Was all he said in response, silently berating himself for asking something so silly.

Watching Felix, Kishin frowned slightly, he didn’t want to bum the kid out, but he also didn’t want to just smile and lie to him either. The teen deserved better than that.

“It’s okay to have different beliefs you know. I know the constellations mean a lot to you.” Kishin sighed again before continuing, “Just remember, you can wait around forever waiting for wishes on shooting stars. So go live the life of your choice rather than waiting for some star god to save you.”

“For example,” Kishin pulled out his wedding ring from under his vest, his expression visibly softening at the simple band of metal “ I found people who I care about, and held them close.”

Felix looked up at his friend, at the ring he held so gingerly. “Was it Irina?” He asked softly, watching the kebula reminisce.

Kishin nodded, smiling softly. “It was her that saved me… call me crazy, but based off of what you’ve told me, I think you’ve found your person too.”

Felix could feel his face heat up “my what??”

“Your person, or people for that matter. What did you think I was saying?” Kishin replied with a little chuckle.

“Oh. Uhm… nothing.”

They sat there in silence for a few minutes, listening to the sound of the wind.

Felix smiled, thinking of all the people he had met in these past months, people who always made his day shine just a little brighter.

Irina, Sebastian, Kishin, and Anton… especially Anton. Felix didn’t know what he would do without his best friend.

“Thank you Kishin… that helped a lot.”

Kishin smiled before biting into another sunflower, “Anytime.”

Aaaa sorry that one took awhile to write, I hope u liked it :)

I’ll have a few happy, slice of life bonus scenes like this before we come back to our normal Felix tragedy

@shycroissanti @myluckymoon @lucytsukii @elronthemage

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Could you tell me about Felix's possible hobbies? :3

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Thank uuuuuuuu Lucy!!!

So Felix is a mega nerd when it comes to the constellations, he really wants to discover at least one of the abandoned constellation shrines. He also loves to go on long walks around the neighborhood, helping local buisnesses. At night he often sneaks out of the city and goes on walks with Kishin (so Irina doesn't get mad at him for going alone)

He also is very obsessed with old relics from around our time. He loves music from our time, he has a practically ancient iPod that has a ton of old music downloaded music on it, its his most precious belonging and he lets almost no one touch it.

he also loves riding fast on stuff like hoverboards (though he falls off almost all the time so he often sits on it lol (Sebastian tends to tease him for it)

also tagging Shy so she can see this @shycroissanti

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Trigger warning: parental abuse, homophobic language, suicidal ideation… yeah I know I’m a terrible person for doing this… so read at your own discretion

I promise this section is the worst things get trigger wise, I have happy things planned for Felix I swear

So life was continuing like normal for Felix, he would stay at either Ruby’s house or in Sebastian’s tree house if he didn’t want to go home.

Also one thing I wanted to change, Felix had a small altar in his closet for the constellations, filled with trinkets he kept for them, things he either made or found.

Originally, it was kept in his closet, usually his parents didn’t go through his room so he figured it would be safe.

As we’ve learned by now, things usually don’t go well for this boy. His mother found it told Felix’s father who quickly came home to discipline the young man, for even thinking about forshipping the “fake gods”.

Felix was able to sneak away most of the items on the altar to a temporary safe place, but as he was taking the last of it out, his father got home, saw him sneaking stuff through the window, grabbed him by the hair, and dragged him down the stairs, still holding onto his hair. Felix cried out for his father to stop, like normal, that didn’t work. His father was determined to get the “sin” out of his son. Even if it meant taking drastic measures.

If you read the previous part, you may have noticed that Felix gets anxious around bodies of water. That’s thanks to his dad.

Punishments could vary, from simple stuff like writing various passages from the bible, beatings, and forceful baptism, aka prolonged waterboarding. Getting splashed or pushed into water will activate his fight or flight, it takes a lot to calm him down afterwards.

(note that in this time, most parts of the bible, and Christianity as a whole. had been lost or replaced so a lot of it isn’t what we know it as today. Often times it’s just used in anti kebula movements, anti LGBTQ+ stuff is much less common but the people who still participate in that, like Mr. and Mrs. Grayson) do it wholeheartedly.

Things had been getting worse at home, Felix’s father was coming home to Cosmotellaris more. A chapel was going to be built in the capitol, so Felix’s father would be around more to “fix” his son. His parents had discovered he had been skipping school, (small, private Christian school that wasn’t actually teaching him anything) for years.

Outwardly, Felix acted like it hadn’t bothered him, to the outside world, he acted cheerful and energetic, and for the most part he was, especially when he got to do things he loved and be with the people he loved. But at home he was completely different, quiet, submissive, hesitant.

Not to mention he looked much different too, his luscious locks were tied back in a tight ponytail, instead of hoodie from Ruby and baggy jeans, a polo and slacks, with a small cross pendant around his neck.

It had been a week since construction of the chapel started in Cosmotellaris, a week since Felix’s father came home to stay. No one had seen or heard from Felix, not even Ruby or Anton.

Things had been worse than ever, feeling like an abandoned soldier behind enemy lines, Felix was extremely careful, doing all he can to placate his parents, keep them distracted, in a good mood, in a safe mood.

It was rather difficult, especially as his parents learned more and more about what Felix had been doing instead of going to school, making friends with sunlights, Kebulas, studying materials that weren’t from the Christian school, studying the constellations.

The punishments were terrible, painful, and only got more violent if he tried to resist.

There was one point during what Felix’s father called baptism, (waterboarding) Felix felt his mind going fuzzy, everything going numb, dark. He felt comfort in it, knowing that he wouldn’t be hurting anymore.

He felt like no one would even miss him, why bother fighting at this point? Who would remember a small, weak teen like him?

But he was eventually pulled out, coughing up water. Those thoughts hadn’t changed though. Maybe his parents were right, he was a failure, a disgrace.

It wasn’t the first time Felix had these thoughts, but normally he suppressed them, put them somewhere he couldn’t feel. But staring at the drop from the balcony he couldn’t seem to distract himself.

Thankfully, he didn’t act on his dangerous thoughts that night. But the next day, his parents found out about his close relationship with Anton, who wasn’t only a kebula but also son of the Midnight I. Felix had been grabbed by the ponytail and shoved against the wall, flinching away from his father who was yelling at him.

“How many times do I need to remind you? You are not allowed anywhere near those demons?”

His father paused for a minute, his voice going dangerously calm.

“Do you like that son of satan?”

Felix’s heart stopped in his chest, blood turning to ice in his veins. “He’s just a friend.”

“He’s just a friend, I only go to Ruby’s to help her at the shop, I don’t know any sunlights. How many lies do you plan on telling boy?” His father growled, pressing closer to his son.

“Had you been any other teen, I would’ve just let you go to hell. But you are MINE Felix. As head pastor, I can’t let you continue down this path, I will cleanse you of sin, even if I have to beat it, drown it, burn it out of you.”

Felix felt tears brim his eyes as his father grabbed him by the throat and said, “I’ll ask you one more time, do you like that sinful demon? Are you more than a disgrace Felix? Do you also have to be a disgusting fa***t too?”

Felix’s hands went to his throat, trying to loosen his father’s grip, to no avail, Mr. Grayson just gripped harder on Felix’s trachea.

“Answer me.”

Desprately gasping for air, Felix had two options, submit, or resist. And he was tired of submitting to this man.

He kicked his father square in the gut knocking him off while also accidentally throwing himself to the hard floor, landing with a crack, he felt a rib or two break, but there was no time to waste, gasping for air, Felix ran up to his room, grabbed an emergency bag he had made in case a moment like this came and ran out of the house as fast as he could, only one place in mind, the treehouse. That would be the only safe place, his dad knew where Ruby’s market was so that was a no go.

He had only been in the treehouse for an hour, trying to treat his wounds when Sebastian came in, Felix quickly covered everything up, careful to not make his friend suspicious.

It didn’t work though, Sebastian could tell something was wrong. But he played along with Felix’s lies, not believing them for a moment, he could see bruises on his friend’s neck from underneath his hoodie, already planning to get Irina as soon as physically possible.

Excusing himself, Sebastian made his way outside, quickly pulling out his communicator, calling Irina.

The communicator rang twice before she picked up, Irina never ignored her apprentice’s calls, in case something might be wrong.

“H-hey Irina? Can you come meet me at the treehouse?” Sebastian said, voice taunted with worry.

Irina frowned, Sebastian was never like this “Sebastian what’s wrong? Are you okay?”

“I’m fine, it’s Felix. Something’s wrong. I think he’s hurt… and he’s lying about it… Irina I don’t know what to-“

“I’m on my way.” She said before hanging up.

She was there in less than five minutes, speeding down the streets of Cosmotellaris on her motorcycle.

She jumped off the bike, looking at Sebastian who was standing outside.

“How bad is it?” She asked, looking concerned

“Bad.” Sebastian confirmed. “He’s still in there, Irina I don’t know what to do.”

“Everything will be fine.” She reassured Sebastian, “he likely just fell and he’s too embarrassed to admit it.”

“There were bruises around his neck.”

Upon hearing that, Irina quickly turned around and entered the treehouse.

Muahahah and that’s where I leave it until the next part but I promise that this is the saddest bit in the saga of Felix Grayson, he will get his joy and whimsy I swear

@shycroissanti @myluckymoon @lucytsukii @elronthemage <- ur always the 1st to like so I figured I’d make it easier for u

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Felix Grayson WIP

@shycroissanti and @lucytsukii

I haven’t drawn much recently so I’m trying to redeem myself

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U should give me Felix refs so I can draw him >:3

*gasp* okayyyy

Most of these are by @shycroissanti because I’m just now realizing that I don’t have any of my doodles in my camera roll…

The only one I can find is a rlly old, crappy side profile lol

I left em in my other sketchbook which is at home…

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Yay more Felix stuff!

Part 2B: meeting Anton

Moving away from my favorite straight couple (Kishin and Irina) most days Felix was still helping out at Ruby’s market, when he wasn’t helping out, he’s usually in the back of the shop, working on his self assigned homework (since he technically doesn’t have a school, he tries to maintain some semblance of an education but it can be difficult sometimes, he has once lit a math textbook on fire out of frustration)

One day, Yudi had some stuff he had to deal with in Dulinovat, so he had his son, Anton visit Ruby in Cosmotellaris, thinking it would be good to get his son out of the house.

The pair met when Anton was standing on the ceiling, helping restock the high shelves when Felix turns into the aisle and runs straight into the kebula

After laughing at the boys, Ruby introduces the two, both parties are a little shy and awkward, Anton in particular

Throughout the day, they work together around the market, with awkward small talk until Anton saw Felix’s little study corner which was mainly notes on where to look for more info on constellations.

After asking Felix about it, the two quickly fall into detailed conversations, comparing all the things they know as they work.

That same evening, after Ruby closes up shop, they stay up all night just talking, their conversation had long since derailed from the constellations, simply talking about life, their hobbies, all sorts of things.

The next morning when Ruby checked the guest room, she was surprised to see that Felix was still here, and both boys were peacefully sleeping on the floor, they had made almost a nest of sorts from blankets and pillows and it was full of book and random things they were showing each other.

Ruby was delighted to say the least, Anton had a friend.

After that, Felix asked Ruby almost daily when would Anton come and visit again. Whenever he did come visit from Dulinovat, the two were inseparable, Felix showed Anton his favorite places in the capitol, the media museums, various shops and parks, but his favorite was the public library at the Aristotle Educational Institute, its normally where he went to learn when he couldn’t snag something from the sunlight academy.

His favorite spot there was the top floor, the observatory which was open to the public, giant domes inspired by ancient architecture from times nearly forgotten, large ionic marble pillars, paintings depicting almost every constellation imaginable. Easily one of the grandest buildings in the city.

When they got tired of walking, they typically went back to Ruby's to take a break (and snag some ice cream)

Anton would tell Felix about other nations he’s been to with his father, but mainly Dulinovat and what life was like there.

The two were close and told each other almost everything. For awhile, Anton was nervous about telling Felix that his father was THE Yudi Kazan, leader of Dulinovat and the midnight I

(I think that’s the right midnight…? My tumblr won’t load so I can’t check…)

Luckily, Felix took the news rather well. He was surprised of course, learning your best friend is basically a prince. But it also explained some of his friend’s unique abilities.

This would go on for another few months, Anton visiting, the two hanging out, a misadventure or two, then Anton would go home to Dulinovat.

The two quickly recognized patterns in the other, Felix would get upset when Anton scratched at his hands when he got anxious. So Felix made his friend a little stress toy shaped like a frog. It’s name is Leroy in case you were curious.

Anton would notice how the usually upbeat Felix would get antsy around bodies of water, so they tried to steer clear on their walks.

Whenever Anton came to Cosmotellaris, there was a guaranteed sleepover happening, whether it was at Ruby’s house or more recently, Sebastian’s tree house, Felix had introduced Sebastian to Anton and the three would hang out on occasion.

@shycroissanti @myluckymoon

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Rewriting Felix lore part one!

This won’t affect much in the early parts but more crucial things will change in later bits

Felix Grayson is a 16-year-old teen living in the capital of Cosmotellaris. He’s a bit of a quirky guy, who is obsessed with history and the constellations. Both of his parents are very religious Christians, a religion that has almost completely faded by the time Sunlight Force takes place.

Felix is a chaotic-good-leaning character, preferring to stick to his own moral code rather than most rules. Like… he follows rules unless he finds them redundant or in need of updating (which is many rules)

Felix’s father is a pastor at the chapels in Kontokat, so he’s usually not at home. Felix’s mother is a landscaper who… exists… (she's not important). Both of his parents are very prejudiced; they hate gays, they think kebulas are demons, and they think the tale of the constellations to be a big lie.

Felix grew up surrounded by these ideas, yet they never stuck. He went to a local Christian homeschool where he did well, except for bible study, which he could never really understand. Everyone knew that the constellations were responsible for saving humanity, and yet everyone around him stayed ignorant, claiming that the rapture had happened and they had been left behind. He wanted to learn the truth: who were these constellations and where were they now? Of course, his parents didn't let him learn such a thing, so he began to sneak around, learning in secret.

his parents weren’t pleased with this. Punishments were violent, and Felix’s father believed that his son was a sinful disgrace. Beatings were common and aggressive. The scar on Felix’s eyebrow is from his father slamming him on the floor.

By the time he was 16, Felix had taken his education into his own hands, skipping homeschool and going throughout the city to libraries and museums to find information about the constellations while trying to keep some semblance of a proper education.

Much to his annoyance, information about the constellations was rather limited to local folklore and the same old story, but little information on the constellations themselves, or their sanctuaries.

He frequented multiple media museums, universities, and the Sunlight Academy (even stealing from a few, which has gotten him in trouble with the sunlights multiple times)

The sunlight academy was his favorite by far, a place where information on the constellations were much easier to find. Only problem was he wasn’t a student. So he occasionally snuck in a few times to watch lessons and training from afar.

One of my favorite times is once he pretended to be part of the janitor staff and snuck through staff only areas using stolen codes.

Felix lives nearby Ruby’s market, so he often helps her out there with any task whether it’s cleaning, delivering stuff, or working the cash register. He refuses pay, he just likes being helpful. He calls Ruby Auntie, something he just said on accident one day and now it’s just normal. Before meeting Irina and Kishin, Ruby is the only trusted adult in his life. She knows a bit about his home life but she doesn’t ask anything, she is just there with open arms, and if things get worse, a spare bedroom to stay the night.

Irina was familiar with the clever teen; she often tried to keep him out of trouble, she's normally the one who catches him trying to break into the restricted section of libraries and media museums. Initially, she just thought he was an immature little trouble maker in need of supervision until one day while patrolling the neighborhood, she was surprised to see him helping everyone he could, from small tasks like picking up trash to climbing up trees to help a little kid who was stuck. Irina was like “oh, hey you’re not that bad”.

But what really got her attention was a small konster attack in the outer city. It was a stray, feral gray konster, chasing people around, property destruction, general chaos. When Irina arrived, she was surprised to see the teen keeping the kebula distracted by fighting it… with a large stick. He was scratched and bruised, but grinning. He was anything but strong, but he was agile and thought on his feet.

Irina quickly stepped in to help, beating up the kebula just a little, enough for it to run away.

Since then Felix would follow her around, asking tons of questions about the starlights, but specifically about their connections to the constellations, what did she know about the constellations? Who was her constellation? Did they actually give you powers? Why were they so idolized by the people yet so little information is known about them? Why aren’t there studies on the connections between the deities and people?

Part two will come out hopefully soon, i have to edit a few more things but gimme an hour or two

Ppl who might find this interesting: @shycroissanti @lucytsukii @myluckymoon @meetmeataliminalspace and @elronthemage

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Okay, so I wanted to lore dump abt felix because yeah

This is just a part one, I was gonna do one but post but I wanted shy to see this just in case I got stuff wrong.

I made Felix for @shycroissanti and uhm yeah

Felix Grayson is a 16-year-old teen living in the capital of Cosmotellaris. He’s a bit of a quirky guy, who is obsessed with history and the constellations. Both of his parents are very religious Christians, a religion that has almost completely faded by the time Sunlight Force takes place.

Felix is a chaotic-good leaning character, preferring to stick to his own moral code rather than most rules.

Felix’s father is a pastor at the chapels in Kontokat, so he’s usually not at home. Felix’s mother is a landscaper who… exists… (she's not important). Both of his parents are very prejudiced; they hate gays, they think kebulas are demons, and they think the tale of the constellations to be a big lie.

Felix grew up surrounded by these ideas, yet they never stuck. He went to a local Christian homeschool where he did well, except for bible study, which he could never really understand. Everyone knew that the constellations were responsible for saving humanity, and yet everyone around him stayed ignorant, claiming that the rapture had happened and they had been left behind. He wanted to learn the truth: who were these constellations and where were they now? Of course, his parents didn't let him learn such a thing, so he began to sneak around, learning in secret.

his parents weren’t pleased with this. Punishments were violent, and Felix’s father believed that his son was a sinful disgrace. Beatings were common and aggressive. The scar on Felix’s eyebrow is from his father slamming him on the floor. By the time he was 16, Felix had taken his education into his own hands, skipping homeschool and going throughout the city to libraries and museums to find information about the constellations while trying to keep some semblance of a proper education.

He frequented multiple media museums (even stealing from a few, which has gotten him in trouble with the sunlights multiple times)

Much to his annoyance, information about the constellations was rather limited to local folklore and the same old story, but little information on the constellations themselves, or their sanctuaries.

Felix lives nearby Ruby’s market, so he often helps her out there with any task whether it’s cleaning, delivering stuff, or working the cash register. He refuses pay, he just likes being helpful. He calls Ruby Auntie, something he just said on accident one day and now it’s just normal. Before meeting Irina and Kishin, Ruby is the only trusted adult in his life. She knows a bit about his home life but she doesn’t ask anything, she is just there with open arms, and if things get worse, a spare bedroom to stay the night.

Also have some crappy drawings I did of Felix (I have artblock rn it’s so bad)

Part two of lore dump here <-