Steve getting cut off from his parents and following Robin to college. She brings him thrift shopping because that's all he can afford now with his less than minimum wage job as a barista.
One day he finds this cool shirt and buys it, not realizing it's a band shirt. He wears it constantly because it's soft and comfortable from years of wear, likes how it feels against it skin.
Meanwhile Eddie is going insane because he keeps seeing Steve in a Metallica shirt around campus and his friends back home in Hawkins don't believe him. It's driving Eddie crazy in more ways than one.
Warnings: Forced pregnancy (backstory) and discussion of sexual assault
Summary:
From what Yelena and John spoke of, Bucky expected to see some montage of Winter Soldier highlights. Not the bright and cozy family room, not you standing opposite of him watching the scene unfold with tears streaming down your face.
A duplicate of you, younger, your hair a different colour, was handing a package over to a woman he didn't know.
A/N: im weak, i wont survive the winter.... baby fic. We were all talking about the Found Family of it all, what about the Found "Baby I Abandoned and Didn't Tell You About" in the Void?
part one, part two, part three, part four
   From what Yelena and John spoke of, Bucky expected to see some of the Winter Soldier highlights - an innocent's warm blood coating his face, the scream of one of his victims echoing in the inky black, a hit on an uncooperative politician. Not the bright and cozy family room, not you standing opposite of him watching the scene unfold with tears streaming down your face.
A duplicate of you, younger, your hair a different colour, was handing a package over to a woman he didn't know. They're speaking to each other. He opens his mouth to interrupt them, when he's shoved back.
"What-" Another shove. "Are-" Another. "You-" The hands pushing him become fists. "Doing-!?"
He snatches you by the wrists to stop you, and all of the fight seeps out of you. You're still sneering at him as though you hate him for stopping you and not fighting. The two of you were excellent at fighting.
"I thought you died, coming in here." he states, calm enough to set you off again.
You roll your eyes at him, scoffing. It doesnât convince him that you are as untouchable and unphased as you want it to come across. The tear tracks that had cut through the dust and grime on your face from that last fight, had him thinking otherwise.
A mask for what he can see is a deep sadness. This room...what was so traumatic about a room? He moves to pass you, to get a closer look at the woman he didn't know.Â
Your instinct is to grapple him to the ground. It didnât matter that you were one of the best fighters this world had known, he wasnât going to use his strength. The two of you had fought each other in the past, but he never hurt you. This has not been the first time you have pinned him, and knowing you, it will not be the last. Your knee is in his back, his hands twisted into your grip.
The door slams shut as your younger self nearly runs away. A second later, you come back in with the unfamiliar woman.
âIs she one of the younger ones?â she asks as they step through the door, around the two of you on the floor.
There is a whimper of a response, but Bucky canât see from his position who it comes from.
âI-I-I-Iâm next-âÂ
His chest feels like it collapses in on itself. Thatâs your voice, heâs never heard you cry before. When he speaks, he directs it up to you, âYour next what? What is she saying?â
You take a deep breath above him, in through the nose out through the mouth, before ordering, âStay down.â
His hands are released and you get off his back. You donât move too far, simply sitting with him on the ground. Not risking another grapple, Bucky places his hands palm down, lifts his head to tilt his ear toward the conversation taking place.
âSo heâs going to come then?âÂ
Younger you sniffs and hums an acknowledgement. âI lost him in DC, I think he was assigned another mission.â
The other woman gasps, âProject Insight. SHIELDâs entire archive was released. Three helicarriers crashed into the Potomac.â
âKnowing my luck, he survived.â
Older you snorts in amusement.Â
Bucky twists his head to give you a bemused look. He had gathered that they were talking about him - or, the Winter Soldier. But the look fades as the realization sets in. Bob was showing them their fears. Yelena had described this as a shame room.
You were afraid of him.Â
The you of the memory continues talking, âI can lead them away. No one will know about this, and when I tell you, you will be the only person to know. It has to stay that way. You will be in danger from HYDRA, the Red Room, and who knows who else. I am telling you because you got me out. You are the only person I trust, Oksana.â
âŃĐ”ŃŃŃа, you are one of the nests. They will hunt you to the ends of the earth.â
âIâll do it for her. Just take her far away.â
âSheâs yours! You can hide now, with her.â
âI can lead them away. Sheâs his. They will come for her. Theyâll send him. Maybe heâll kill her outright, he wonât know sheâs his daughter.â
The revelation takes its time sinking in. He doesnât get up, doesnât move. He just turns onto his back, now trapped between you and a couch on the floor of a memory that isnât even his. He was wrong. This wasnât your shame room. The Winter Soldier had committed many atrocities but this was the worst.Â
This was a shame room built for him. He had doneâ that to you.
You take his closest hand - the metal one - in your two, and pull the pair of you to your feet.Â
âYour next.â he says, his voice thin. He had misheard your younger self, âYouâre a nest.â
He had heard about a subsect of the Widow program, the Nest, dedicated to the repopulation of the small army. The few of the Widows who were left in tact for Dreykovâs nefarious purposes. A program for training swallows. Teenage baby factories.Â
You squeeze his hand. âYes, and you-â
âHow can you even look at me?â he was shaking his head, âItâs not right. What I did-â
âWas as much assault on you as it was for me. You arenât the only one in therapy. Bucky, this room is not for you. Iâm the one that left her. Didnât tell you.â
âI hunted you, of course you didnât tell me.âÂ
As if he could dismiss your self-hatred with his own. The easy forgiveness brought the tears back to your eyes. You close your eyes to block them, gritting your teeth. He brushes your tears away for you, and rests his hand on your cheek. The hesitance in the air makes you open your eyes and make eye contact.
He takes in a breath, as if steeling himself.
âCan I look at her?â
You take his hand and lead him over to the back of the couch so the pair of you might lean over the memory. He had seen the baby as a package of some sort earlier, because younger you had used a shipping box as a makeshift carrier. The cardboard box was stuffed with a soft hoodie as a blanket. The baby had not made a sound the entire time, even as a younger you shoved the box into the other woman, Oksanaâs, hands. Ignoring her protests, you tell her, âDonât tell me where youâre going. Protect her.â
And you leave. Bucky turns his head to watch you go, and when he turns back - Oksana and the baby are nowhere to be found.Â
The door opens again. The two Widows walk in, and Bucky trails them back to the couch that they sit down on.
âSheâs so little,â he comments. He does not look at you, lest he acknowledge the fact that seeing a reflection of you holding his baby was plucking a heart string.
The pair of you lean in, and you huff out a laugh, as you nudge him, âLooks like you from tip to tail, doesnât she?â
He looks up at you, sees the tiny features that made the baby beautiful to him. His jaw is left hanging. âLooks like you.â
You grimace and apologize to the baby, âSorry, junior.â You reach down to poke the babyâs nose.
Buckyâs heart clenches, imagining it all turn to smoke and shadow. He had not touched anything to do with this room, contributing to the dreamlike quality that this all held. But you touch the baby, scrunching your nose when the baby adorably wrinkles her face against your finger.
A voice, not yours, and yours at the same time speaks from the younger you.
âYou knew then. Donât be stupid. You donât deserve her. âÂ
There is something behind you - and on the wall. Bucky puts his hand on your shoulder to move you and the baby behind him, put himself in between. Instinctively, you scoop up the baby.Â
But there is no standing between you and your shadow. As if you had a second arm attached at the elbow, a darkness - a void - clamps down on your wrist and twists.
When you yelp, Bucky reaches into the split in space and yanks the shadow from you. You recoil, hunching over the baby. Your good arm still cradling her to your body, turned away from the chaos. The darkness manifests itself as the younger you. She sneers at Bucky.Â
âLook at me, Soldat.â she says, enraged, âYou forgot a name on the list. Where is the effort to make amends, Sergeant James Buchanan Barnes?â
She goes for a strike. Pale and frozen, he takes the hits. You can see the pattern, the memory is taking the same moves you would use now, not the Red Room clone that you used to be. Or have you always been that obvious, telegraphing your punches? You watch Bucky and understand him. You understand why you could pin a super soldier like the Winter Soldier.
He has never hurt you, but you know thatâs because he would never fight you.
You draw your gun to help, but your aim shakes with the weight of it on your broken wrist. In that instance, the woman who had rescued you from Dreykov restrains you. With her arm around your throat, and your injured arm twisted behind.
With her holding your arms and dragging you back, you can only call out.
âSheâs not me, Barnes!â you shout at him, âKick her ass!â
You watch him sink into a place he hasnât in a long time. Bucky would never hurt you, but the Winter Soldier has no mercy. Following your command, the metal hand reaches back and grabs the ankle of the twenty year old assassin on his back. In a maneuver too quick to track, he has her pinned and her throat caught in his hands. She gasps for air, tilting her head up- to look at you. Her mouth moves - and you hear her (not yours and yours at the same time) voice from Oksana behind you.
âSee how he hates you? See how the hero will never love the villain? He will always hurt us.â
Thatâs not true. He never fought back.
With that flimsy plate of armor around your heart, you bend your head to bite Oksana. Her recoil gives you enough room to drop and spin, knocking her feet from under her. You use the momentum to slide yourself away and point your gun up at her. She drops and you turn the muzzle on yourself - your younger self. Two bullets for your ledger. Daddy Alexei would be so proud of his little murderer, dripping red.
Bucky staggers to his feet, eyes wide and fearful before he looks at you. Child murderer. Thereâs no shadow to remind you of what you are, but you know. This memory is a decade old. You have just shot a twenty year old who has just escaped the prison that held her for her entire life. He must see the same child you do.Â
His face twists into something else, and itâs worse than you could have dreaded. He looks at you with pity.
You feel it then.
That same rush of adrenaline that comes with firing a shot - that same rush of adrenaline that comes with quarrel for the sake of quarrel - that same rush of adrenaline when he looks at you with any other expression, when he shines that spotlight attention on even a fraction of you.Â
You want to be mad, to tell him off for pitying you, but the relief that all of you are okay hits you before the urge to fight comes up like nausea.
He steps forward, and you think heâs just going to leave you. But he comes behind you to help you to your feet.
You take the opportunity to put the gun away and cradle the baby. You trace her fragile skull with your finger. The pain radiates from your wrist to the tips of your fingers. You deserve this pain. You donât deserve to touch her. This is why you left her behind.
Bucky still hasnât stopped supporting you, leaning into your back as he wraps his metal arm around your waist. You feel his other hand move to support your wrist, careful to not touch the inflamed bruising.Â
âDo you want me to take her?â he asks. You take a breath to steady yourself. Heâs standing so close that swaying on your feet leans you into his chest. You shake your head, but hand her over all the same. âWe have to find Sentry.â
âBob.â you correct. You still had the image of that sweet civilian who grabbed a gun and ran into a field of soldiers to distract them. It didnât matter that Valentina dyed his hair and poisoned him against you and the team. âHis name is Bob. He needs our help.â
Thereâs no Winter Soldier in the soft look you receive. âYou came in here not knowing if we can save him.â
âWe havenât moved on. Can you carry her?â
âYes, of course,â He adjusted the baby as if to show off how capable he was. You grit your teeth at the back of your mouth to not see a father holding his baby. You have a mission. Save Bob.
You nod and lead the way to the door out of the room.
a/n: ummmm ya in the middle of italy and every time i see someone smoking all i think of is paget brewster maybe i have a problem. also writing this violently hungover and i havenât written smut in months & this is not proofread. relationship between em and reader is left to interpretation xx enjoy!!
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âyou know how bad that is for you, right?â you spoke from behind, the older womanâs eyes turning to meet yours. you stood leaning against the precinct doors, arms crossed as you eyed the cigarette between emilyâs fingers.
âitâs stress relief,â she replied, tapping the end to remove ash. âonly do it at work.â
âiâm sure thereâs some better ways to relieve stress,â you said, moving towards her. there was something about the way she held the cigarette between her hands, so delicately as if it the most fragile item in the world.
prentiss shrugged, moving the cigarette to between her lips and taking a hit. your eyes followed, your legs clenching as you watched her movements. how was something so deadly so attractive?
âso,â emily started, taking note of the way your cheeks heated as she blew out the smoke. âyou come out here to watch or for a case-related question?â
âoh, right, sorry.â you muttered, clearing your throat as you felt your cheeks get red. âyeah, we think we found a lead in the case.â
**
as it turned out, the lead was a dead end and the team was back to square one. frustrated, hotch sent everyone back to the hotel for the night. which is how you not only found yourself rooming with emily, but you also found yourself ogling as she whipped out a cigarette on the hotel balcony. you watched her settle into the chair, her eyes focused on the view in front of her. well, until she turned and saw you staring.
emily smirked as she caught you watching her. she found it amusing, really, the way your eyes were fixated on the little product in her hand. as she pulled the cigarette to her mouth for another draw, she motioned to the chair next to her as if to invite you over.
you picked up on this and pulled yourself out of bed, making your way over to the balcony in your pajamas. wordlessly, you settled in the chair next to emily, mere inches separating you two. you shivered, unaware of just how cold it was.
you felt emilyâs eyes rake over your body and suddenly became aware of your clothing choice. your small tank top and ever shorter shorts were not uncommon for you to wear around her on a case, but today was different.
âhere, hold this.â emily said, passing you her cigarette as she took off her sweatshirt. your eyes shamelessly watched, cigarette in hand as you watched her tank top ride up just a bit as she removed the outer layer.
you two traded items, reaching for the sweatshirt with a grateful smile.
âlooks good on you,â emily spoke, fiddling with the hem of your sleeve. you looked down, noticing it was her old academy sweatshirt. just a little too big for your frame, the front design fading slightly, it fit you perfectly.
âif it goes missing, you know where to find it,â you teased, moving closer to the older woman. the two of you sat in silence, emilyâs hand still playing with the sweatshirt. except, she moved on from the sleeve and started toying with the bottom, right at your upper thigh.
as she finished her cigarette she teased you, slowly moving her hands around your thighs. it was torturously slow, almost agonizing the way she made it feel like hours.
eventually there was nothing of the cigarette left, your eyes following as you watched the butt fall to the ground. emilyâs eyes turned to you, pupils blown with lust as she pulled you closer.
no words were spoken as you were pulled into her lips, kiss deeper than ever imagined. you could taste the cigarette on her tongue as it entered your mouth, moaning at the taste.
emily smirked hearing your moan, pulling back and eliciting a whine from you. she ignored it, beginning to trail her lips down your neck. âsuch a hypocrite,â she murmured, pecking your neck. âhates the concept of cigarettes, but becomes such a slut when she sees me with one.â
âemily,â you gasped, feeling her hands move up under the sweatshirt. you moaned, feeling her pinching your nipples through your tank top. your hand raked through her hair, grounding yourself as you felt wetness around your pussy. you used your free hand to grab her chin, lifting her off your neck and pulling her into a kiss.
this time it was emily who moaned, deepening the kiss as she stood up. she pulled you with, careful not to knock the chairs over. you giggled as she picked you up, keeping your lips pressed together as she carried you inside.
settling you down on the bed, emily pulled back, studying you. âlook so pretty in my sweatshirt, sweetheart,â she murmured, hands once again finding the hem. âthink youâd look better naked,â though. in a swift motion she whisked both the hoodie and your tank top off, discarding them somewhere on the floor.
your hands mimicked hers, tugging at emilyâs shirt and pulling it off. âso pretty,â you whispered, lips attaching to her breast and sucking a hickey into her skin. emily moaned, her hands exploring your body freely as she rested her head atop your hair. your hand moved to her ass, squeezing hard before pulling her sweatpants down.
you gasped as your hand trailed over her pussy, the combined material of the lace thong and the feeling of her wetness eliciting a smirk. âyou always wear this to bed?â you asked, toying with the top of her thong.
âthatâs for me to know and for you to find out,â emily replied, pulling off of you. âletâs see what youâve got on, baby.â you watched her reaction as she tugged your shorts down, eyes dark when they were met with your bare, dripping cunt. âall this for me?â she asked, dragging her finger through your folds and collecting your wetness from your cunt. âall this,â she began, eliciting a moan as she brushed over your clit, âfrom a cigarette?â
âem, oh fuck,â you whined, watching her bring her drenched finger to her lips and suck. you pulled her by the hair and brought her into a smashing kiss, whining at the combined taste of yourself and the remnants of her cigarette. you felt your pussy clench around nothing at the taste, emilyâs palm making its way back down to your dripping cunt. you rutted against her hand, wordlessly begging for more friction.
âuse your words, princess,â emily said between kisses, her other hand snaking down to press against your hips, effectively stilling your movements.
âneed more, em, please,â you begged, trying as best you could to move despite being held down. emily didnât respond, instead choosing to plunge two fingers into your hole. she instantly hit your sweet spot, eliciting a gasp from you as your hands clawed down her back.
âfeel so fucking good, baby,â emily praised, sucking a hickey into your chest. âso fucking tight and wet, all for me.â
âall yours,â you choked out, emilyâs gaze reaching up to yours. you could feel the knot in your stomach growing, sensitivity increasing as your orgasm drew closer. as if on cue, emily added a third finger into your cunt, and began flicking her thumb across your clit.
âclose?â she asked. you nodded frantically, arching your hips to get emilyâs fingers impossibly deeper.
emily leaned down, nipping your earlobe. âcome for me, sweet girl,â she whispered. âshow me how good you are.â
at emilyâs command, you felt your orgasm wash over you, the pleasure hitting you hard as emilyâs lips made their way back to yours. she fucked you through it, only retreating when you began panting in her mouth.
emily collapsed on top of you, her fingers breaching your lips as you sucked them clean of your juices. she smiled, watching your fucked-out haze slowly begin to pass. too in awe of your beauty, she gasped as she felt your fingers brush through her slit.
you smirked at emilyâs sudden reaction, fingers going deeper into her cunt. âmy turn.â
THIS IS SO FUNNY the âwhatâ is full of exasperation, isaac is fr pissing reader off đ you already know i LOVE seeing ur art but take your time đ„șđ€đ
not like forensically. at first it was romantic obsession n then he discovers rhat theyre a frfr cannibal & the vibes werent off js bcs hes scared of attachment or theyre aesthetically dangerous. theyre gen depraved.