#fieldofsunflowers

[keeneydesignme]

From this morning's photo shoot a McKees Besher Wildlife management.

[kimiq]

This one was definitely more challenging but I really enjoyed it! #draweveryday #day2 #fieldofsunflowers #sunflowers #marker #pen #ink #yellow #flowers #nature #drawing #art #artjournal #drawingchallenge

[miscling]

🌻

i love that i still get sunflowers

you've caught me at a pretty wistful time so i'm going to talk about my feelings on being owned, polyamory, and how i feel like a stray.

my basic stance is that i'm not looking to be owned and i don't like possessiveness, but my feelings are actually way more complicated than that. i reblog a ton of posts about being owned and even my last few original posts have had a sort of 'slap a collar on me and make me yours' vibe to them. i yearn for it. i want to give myself completely over to someone. i do want to be owned, but it feels like an unattainable fantasy.

i also can't figure out how it slots into polyamory, and especially the relationship anarchy i've found myself in. i've got five kiddos, a number of play partners some of whom i'd love to give myself to fully, my nesting partner, and at least a dozen people i may well be in love with. how do i let myself be 'owned' in this context? i can't really give myself to just one person, because so many already see me as theirs. in some ways the owner/owned dynamic feels a little bit monogamous, and i can't make a monogamous commitment.

so i feel like a stray, going from door to door to get the play i want without really feeling like anyone is responsible for me except myself. i believe that one must own themselves first: they can give that away to someone, but you can't offer someone something you don't possess first (in other words, you've got to have agency as a sub).

so i want to be owned but i don't know how to make that work. i play a lot, but in those spaces between play sessions i don't feel like i belong to anyone, so i start to feel down sometimes. i don't feel safe or secure and in my more depressed moments, i don't even feel wanted. the ways people own me always comes with a release at the end. if i were to have an owner i'd want someone who can keep up with my kinks and maintain background control of me, but it feels like a *big* ask and a level of commitment for both of us that would be monumental in its undertaking.

in the end, i haven't worked it out yet. i know i want to be owned, but i don't know how to make it work, so it's easier to tell people i don't want to be. it's definitely not something i think that i can start a relationship with, but something that might grow out of one down the line, which is why my default position is that i avoid possessiveness. it's something i want, but i'm not sure if this fantasy can really be a reality.

so this turned into an essay, and not a light one for me either, but it's been on my mind a lot. thanks for giving me a way to get it out and develop my perspective for when i need to talk about it.

(send me a 🌻 to prompt me to write about anything i want to, it'll probably be something kink related though)

[jessejunkocreates]

What makes you feel beautiful? @jewel sang (and I’m paraphrasing) “Maybe if we are surrounded by beauty one day we will become what we see.” 📷 @ahouse_in_vines 🌻 @van_noble_farm 🪄 @alexaligns ☂ = Jesse Junko Beardslee . . . #fieldofsunflowers #justgimmeanumbrella #beauty #surroundedbybeauty #youarebeauty https://www.instagram.com/p/CKwV9majpxf/?igshid=d74byv63ocat

[eliseloyola]

A little sunflower latergram.🌻🧡 #sunflowers #fieldofsunflowers #monarchbutterfly #sunflower #autumn #fall #butterfly #pennsylvania #hburgmade #pretty #beautiful #nature #creation #yellow #lovely #dreamy #adventure #explore #mancesmovetopa #latergram (at Strites' Orchard Farm Market and Bakery) https://www.instagram.com/p/CGLU58xn3gD/?igshid=15er48wffzrdu

[cavallofinejewelry]

“A sunflower field is like a sky with a thousand suns.” ...Corina Abdulahm-Negura . . . #fieldofsunflowers #sunflowers #sunflowerjewelry #shopcavallofinejewelry (at Cavallo Fine Jewelry) https://www.instagram.com/p/CAEdfegnEuE/?igshid=y448557iwp9

[magnificentunknownbluebird]

Goats #goats #animals #villageroad #field #fieldofsunflowers #sunflowersfield #instagoat #instaanimals (at Mariupol Harbor, Donets'Ka Oblast', Ukraine) https://www.instagram.com/p/B2Udia1oos1/?igshid=1t0fk6tnwe4tu

[nonbinary-nature-lover-jeri]

A field of sunflowers 🌻 in the South of France from CBS Sunday Morning closing Nature minute feature. #Sunflowers #Nature #France #SouthOfFrance #FieldOfSunflowers https://www.instagram.com/p/BzPlyMKA8_3/?igshid=50aqr7r8zdvi