#fischls posts

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just realised i didnt post these when i made them lmao

kira + malia moodboards!!

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hi so i have been rotating this in my mind for yonks and i finally wrote it all out in a messy sort of way lol.

swimming pool by the front bottoms is the most theo raeken song possibly ever. walk with me now

There's comfort in the bottom of a swimming pool

pre-hell theo would practise his skating in the bowl of an empty swimming pool. completely alone in the dead of the night cuz hes normal like that. the symbolism of the empty, stagnant swimming pool vs the moving water of the creek that he drowned his sister tara in accentuates how hes still so stuck on that after all these years and it isnt going anywhere, the water is only going to sour and drain and hes the only thing left after its all gone.

I'm holding my breath for you

he never let himself fully breathe (read: live, or express his emotions in any way) after tara, always being on edge and having all his walls up, never being the same gentle boy he once was, the one that stiles knew he killed.

There's no doubt in my mind that if you could then you would try

To crack my ribcage open and pull my heart right through

this ones pretty heavy handed. in hell he experienced essentially a time loop nightmare where hed wake up in the morgue and run from tara and every time she would catch him, plunge her hand through his chest and rip his heart out. eventually he stopped running, telling her to take it. its hers, after all.

But I'm a creature of a culture that I create

hes the original chimera, he was the one putting together his ‘pack’ piece by piece with the dread doctors. he hates himself for it, hates that he became a monster, hates that he did it of his own volition. he signed his own fate the moment he decided to kill tara.

I'm the last one on the dance floor

As the chandelier gives way

he was the only chimera that survived everything (except hayden and corey, though hayden technically didnt survive), the only one of them left standing after the doctors resurrected la bête, there to watch it all crumble before him as he kills scott and ‘wins’.

And I am permanently

Preoccupied with your past

now we’re getting into the thiam lol. as seen in the zoo sequence, theo is so attuned to liams thought processes and is the only one that really knows how to deal with him. he helps liam through his flashbacks, not treating him as fragile or as a monster because he knows on a level no one else does.

I've been around long enough now

To know that the good things never last

They never last

well. the chimera pack all died or left. he spent all those years trying to build his pack for it all to be for nothing, sending him to hell to repent for what he did in order to have his own pack, his own family.

There's comfort in the silence of a living room

The TV is on for you

this bit is a lot more fanon-y? not as exact. i see this as liams way of reaching out to theo post-hell, sharing silence because they just Get each other, liam leaving ‘the tv’ on for theo, letting him know that theres a place for him in his pack, while the domesticity of the act is terrifying to theo who doesnt remember how to be part of a family, doesnt know how to live in a house, let alone a home.

Hide in your basement while your house burns down

they both have a tendency to linger in their trauma instead of healing or escaping. theyd both rather feel guilty forever than move on.

Your teeth are loose inside of your gums

They will eventually fall out

the inherent body horror of lycanthropy. the even more intense body horror of being a chimera. having fangs. yeah. this ones kinda vague.

Follow an orange extension cord under a carpet, to a closet door

i read this often as liam finding the train tracks in the town when the wild hunt crosses over into beacon hills, but i think it can also be theos morbid curiosity of the supernatural and the human body’s capabilities and limits leading into-

Feeding the black light that will someday make me very, very, very, very, very rich

-this part, the black light being his and the doctors’ research making them rich in knowledge and theo rich in his having a pack (of course this doesnt work out for either of them) the irony of him being so sure it would work out (very, very, very, very) and it all failing worse than he could have comprehended.

How low is your self esteem

And how low could it possibly be?

I know, I know you're in love with me

And I've been ignoring you

i always hear this as theo saying it to liam, asking what the hell must be wrong with him for liam to forgive theo and love him despite everything he did. theo knows liam loves him, hes an expert on reading people and chemosignals, how could he not know. he doesnt want him to love him, he doesnt want to be loved, he wants to suffer and repent and run away but instead he stays put, not exactly pushing liam away but not bringing him any closer than necessary, even ignoring liams yearning because he cares so much about liam.

I will stop cutting my pants into shorts

I will address the issues I cannot ignore

And I will do the things I think you might like

And I will be alone probably the rest of my life

this is theo accepting his ‘fate’. he wants to change, he will not and *cannot* be the same theo as before hell. he is going to do everything he can to protect liam and asks for nothing in return. as in literally, he doesnt want liam to give him anything back because he doesnt deserve it. theo resigns himself to his solitude, but he might be okay with it as long as he gets to make it up to people, even though he knows he never will, not really. not in any way that counts.

so yeah! those are my Thoughts. i have many more, there are so many emo and midwest emo songs that are so very very thiam coded, this one just feels like it was written specifically for theo and it makes me insane. :)

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i just published the first chapter of my first fic ever wooo!

its a maze runner x teen wolf crossover fic in which stiles and thomas are long-lost twins

im really proud of it and id really appreciate people taking the time to read it :3

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64460314/chapters/165517861

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made some new kandi today :3

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bro ive changed my phones main language to english and the region to australia and tumblr is STILL IN FRENCH. help me

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every time someone tags a post about deadly class (specifically marcus) with mattheo riddle an angel dies

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i just realised that i dont think ive ever done an intro post so. insert intro post

haii im kibble or kellin

he/it pronouns

im 18 😛

im autistic, i don’t usually require tone tags but i appreciate when people aren’t mean “as a joke”

plural system - a lot of us will post on here, doesnt rly belong to anyone in specific so we mostly just reblog our interests and stuff we find funny :P

my special interests are fischl from genshin impact, teen wolf, stranger things, my chemical romance, twenty one pilots and the maze runner series.

other interests/fandoms:

- nowhere boys

- project sekai

- music + music production

- dan and phil

- deadly class

- bunch of friends

- x men

- it

- sonic

im emo/scenemo and ive been making kandi for like five years now

im a border collie/wolflike dogboy/werewolf (but also sometimes a cat!) :3c

im australian 🇦🇺 and i speak native english and im relatively fluent in french, i know a little japanese but its mostly from the music i listen to (i can’t hold a conversation)

i love making friends (any ages, though preferably late teens/young adults like myself) so feel free to message me or share posts with me because i get scared and probably wont message first lol

my other blogs are

@metaphorically-im-asystem (system/pluralposting)

@metaphorically-im-awolf (otherkin/dogposting/werewolfposting)

@ur-moms-sketchbook (art)

@jaibaisetamere (french/language learning)

@fischls-study (fischl’s blog for witchcraft)

@camilles-craft-room (camille/mizuki’s blog for sewing and crafts)

@wanna-hear-it-in-spanish (mieszko/błażej’s blog for chaotic witchcraft + paranormal stuff)

[had to remove my spacehey profile cuz its BANNED IN AUSTRALIA *cries really loud*]

HARK! 🦅 ‘tis ⚡️THUNDERING ⚡️ RETRIBUTION!!!⚡️an omen of dark times ahead…

…that, and mein Fräulein’s laundry is still on the line.

wh! uh. SERIOUSLY??!