Get Fit or GTFO ~ A notice to me, from me
In the past few years that I've paid attention to my weight, my highest weight was 200ish pounds in 2018, and my lowest has been 155.2 in 2021.
My 'ideal' weight is 111 to 130 lbs, and I give exactly zero fucks about those numbers. I give zero fucks about being "thin", "skinny", or a size 2. What I do care about, is that I'm taking heart medication 3 times a day, my Chiari's is exasperated by weight, as is my Pseudotumor, and my triglycerides are over 1000. I care very much about those.
I will always have heart issues, Chiari's, and a Pseudotumor. However, the fitter I am, the less they bother me. And right now, I am absolutely not fit.
My biggest problem, besides eating whatever I want and playing video games every waking free moment, is that I seem to act like throwing money AT fitness will somehow magically make me fit. I buy a gym membership and never go. I get exercise equipment and never use it, I start programs that I never carry through with. Basically like I said... I throw money at it. Full stop.
I used to think if I had someone to help keep me accountable, I'd do better. So I hired someone. He was great. I was not.
I then thought if I could make it fun I'd stick with it. So I got fitness VR games (Supernatural Fitness and Beat Saber). I loved them, but I stopped.
I know I do best when other are paying attention. When I'm in a group class that I have built a "community" with, I go all the time. I push twice as hard as I think I can. I kick ass. But without that community feel, it's just not close to the same.
I've tried to blog it out before, and that helped for a minute, but it also was not sustained.
So here's my umpteenth attempt to be a real human and not a blub in a skinsuit
