You Can Do This! <3
You know, I’ve been seeing this phrase and sentiment very often lately. One of - you can change your life anytime you want to. You are in control. It’s easy. Don’t make excuses, just do it…. Etc etc.
I used to hate things like this. When you are ill, you often don’t feel in control. You feel like life is just happening to you and here there are people who seem so pretty and perfect on the surface who tell you you just need to change your perspective and stop being such a lazy shit/ whiny lil bitch and hustle your life to success.
As someone who’s been there and is now in the process of trying to make a life that is mine, I’ll tell you that some of these people might mean well when they share the way they have ‘fixed’ themselves and their lives.
But this does not happen overnight. Some of us can’t wake up on the right side of the bed and decide one day that everything is going to change for the better and then with a snap it just happens. It doesn’t. And if it does for a few days, it’s often short-lived
It’s a process that requires you to already have been thinking of yourself for a while and to have the hope that you’d lost, re-enter in your life. It’s you recognizing that you still have things you haven’t seen or experienced yet and something left to live for. It’s acknowledging the things that have happened to you in the past and crying about it but in time realizing that you will never let that happen to you again. It takes time. And it’s not pretty or unilinear.
And then one day, this thought will just hit you with the force of a tidal wave and it will say to you- I want to live my life. I want to live and do the things I’ve always dreamed of doing. And I will do it. This thought may come to you one night. But remember it was a long time in the making. Your brain and cognitive processes were being primed in anticipation for this thought for some time now. And even if this thought does come to you, it might be hard to execute it in that very minute.
Things like money, skill and self-work do not manifest simultaneously with this revolutionary thought.
And that can be very very frustrating. But hold on to that thought. That is your lifeline and your birthright. And you will live long enough to see the life you’ve wanted and worked hard towards.
And you’re on that journey. It’s happening as you read this. Hold on.
