Why is this in my drafts?
I read a quote online and it goes something like- how ironic it is to forget the things we want to remember and remember the things we want to forget and it’s kind of applicable for all of us aint it? So it just kinda reminded me of my little situation where I really want to forget this certain memory yet it’s hard and ya gotta accept things and you know deep down that it’s not what you really wanna happen but it should happen.
The feeling of trying to get rid of these emotions and memories with theperson is hard, right. Why do I even want to forget it. I guess the answer is simple- It’s dragging me down when I remember it. Im weak. I know i’m not alone with this one so this should be written.
You know when theperson understands you, makes you feel like you’re worth it even if you represented almost all kinds of mistake, when you can be yourself when you’re around him/her, when you’re looking forward for another day no matter how toxic it gets, when you’re aware of how tough the circumstances are and still know how strong theperson is, when you know you’re sick as fuck yet everything feels better, and when the whole world still feel so right after knowing how wrong it really is. I mean, it’s just obvious how 4keeps he/she is but then you know to yourself hoping or forcing yourself to just forget everything is so much better than dealing with it knowing you’ll never even have the slightest chance of making your most likely deepest desire possible.