#frustrated post

[lill-mamacita]

I was having a really shitty day yesterday; my job was chaotic and I was doing a lot of different things at the same time (stocking rooms, overlooking expirations for supplies, processing labs, calling in STAT labs, helping the assistants of the doctors out.. just a LOT) and it really bothered me that instead of being empathetic of all the tasks I was clearly handling, the doctor and their assistant chose to whisper to my supervisor that I was slacking on certain (petty) matters (that they could’ve handled themselves). Thankfully, my supervisor had my back but wow, people can be super fucking shitty and two-faced. The audacity of it all, the assistant of this doctor attempted to keke with me today after being up under this doctor while they spoke on me to others around them like no…shit ain’t sweet, you’re two-timey and before I get out of character, ima stay in my corner. They have me looking like a bipolar maniac with the way I’m sweet and social one day, and disassociating and non social the next day. Honestly, fuck this job.

This is a promise that I will land a GREAT ASS OPPORTUNITY by this summer. End rant.

[fuckngangryallthetime]

oh my god why is it so frustrating when the person you're talking to doesn't even follow through with the things they say they're going to do. why does it feel like im being lied to?

ugh bro i just want to know i'm not being forgotten, is that too much to fucking ask. am i toxic? is it toxic to want something?

fuck

[thegiddyowl]

“They said fic is okay”

“I don’t make porn so I’ll be ok”

“Why is everyone freaking out?”

[confusedconcept]

This week is proving to be quite taxing already. I mostly had abusive callers at crisis clinic Sunday (which I KNOW I shouldn’t take personally... a lot of people call to yell at the volunteers to make themselves feel better)... but it still doesn’t feel good to be yelled at. Over and over again. 

Tomorrow I have my 2nd physics midterm and I guess I’m just feeling emotionally taxed. I haven’t really had a break from hard classes since I graduated and I’m just feeling drained and lost... especially since a lot of wonderful people I know have been rejected from med school. This journey is arduous and exhausting, but it is something I do truly want. 

I guess I’m asking myself where to draw the line. I don’t tend to cope well with stress and I’m so tired of dealing w/ my mental health. I’ve made so many strides in the last 2 years but I’ve been considering a more intensive outpatient program at some point because some things aren’t getting better.  

[league-of-badass-women]

So frustrated!! My straight close friend has a girl-friend that she messes around with at parties. And here I am a queer female with no one. Zero girls for me! Ugh

[galagraphia]

I don’t understand my brain. Why is it when I paint in Clip Studio, I get crazy juicy vibrant colors, but I absolutely can’t do it in Photoshop? In Photoshop everything just looks gray. When I do it. Other artists don’t seem to have this problem, lol. I need to keep digging and trying, I must figure out how to get the right result from the good old PS, lol.

[itssierrastyles]

I hate that I don’t hate you. And it kills me to know that you couldn’t give a shit either way.

But what’s new, right?

[sleepy-stars-and-void]

Why do I bother it’s not like anyone cares anyway.