[Text ID: They carved out my chest with scalpels, with glinting metal, with sterile hands. They saw the man underneath my overflowing skin, freed him from the too-fullness of his flesh. But you loved me, not just despite, but with the buds on my body. Right before I went under, my brain turning gooey, my breath sludgy, I asked them to do me a favor: to carve out a little extra space around my heart. I could feel it swelling in my chest, aching to bloom with all the love it holds for you, but I went limp on the cold table before I could hear their answer. I woke up blurry and thirsty, my chest hidden under thick layers. Two days passed before I unwrapped myself, carefully peeling back layers, unfurling petals. I put a shaky hand over my heart, and through the numb flesh I could feel my heart beating jackrabbit fast, lioness strong, and knew my wish was granted. /End ID]
How could I not love what you also love? When I look at you and see your eyes light up, the way the words pour out of your mouth with such excitement, the smile that goes across your face? I could be convinced to be a fan of anything if it had something to do with you
yo i don’t want to be annoying and send like heaps of requests but i had an idea that i’m obsessed with and i trust you with writing it!
i was thinking of a scenario where an ftm reader has had top surgery and after he’s had his recovery time etc, he can finally move enough to be able to fuck someone but he’s never fucked before because he was uncomfortable with his body. it starts off with finally being able to touch his flat bare chest, and he wants his bf felix to be the first one to touch his chest so felix just touches it so softly and lovingly while looking in the mirror or something like that and then because the reader is now happy with his body, he’s ready to have sex so then it ends up with felix just being so sweet with him and maybe felix just subtly keeps running his fingers over his bf’s chest scars and kisses them really lightly and sweetly to really show that he genuinely loves him, and yeah just a really sweet first time for the reader (and probably for lixie too :P)
∘₊✧— Our First Time —✧₊∘
- 24 Aug 2022
- OMG sorry for the long wait- vacation seems like a lot of time but it's over before you know it😭
- Also- I was hyped to write this cause.. I wish I had a boyfriend like this
- I hope you enjoy~
- trigger!warning; NSFW!
Standing in front of the mirror, many thoughts raced through y/n's head. It had been about 6 months since his top surgery, and he felt like he was finally ready to accept his body as it was. Sure, the scars that ran across his chest were still not pretty, but he took them for granted. They were far better to see than the things that were there before. Y/n took a deep breath, moving his hand up to his chest, but then let it back down. Was he ready? Did he want to be the first to touch it?
Y/n was pulled from his inner world as he felt two arms snake around his waist. A soft kiss was placed on his cheek, noticing the warmth of another male's body pressing against his back then. Felix rested his chin on y/n's shoulder, smiling sweetly at him via the mirror. "What are you thinking about? You look so handsome, no need to worry about anything anymore, remember?" Y/n nodded, looking back at his boyfriend through the reflective surface.
"Touch me." Y/n spoke softly, blushing slightly as he had decided what he wanted. Felix made a small sound, tilting his head in confusion. "Touch you? I already am.." Felix stroked over y/n's skin with his thumb. Y/n shook his head, chuckling slightly. "No, I mean.. touch my chest. Please?" Felix's confusion then turned into pride, showing his bright smile. "Really? Can I?" As y/n had confirmed with a nod, Felix carefully moved one hand up, gliding over the other male's skin until he reached the scars. Tracing over them with all his focus, Felix admired how his boyfriend looked.
Y/n watched how Felix caressed his chest, feeling a wave of euphoria and relief overwhelm him. He took a deep breath, a few tears pricking in the corners of his eyes. They were happy tears, as he finally could let go of most of the dark thoughts that had swarmed his mind for years. Letting out a huge sigh of relief, y/n turned slightly in Felix's embrace to look at him. "I want to do it now. I feel ready." Felix looked directly at y/n, staring into his eyes. "Now? You.. we.. we're going to make love?" Y/n nodded once again. Felix felt his heart flutter, taking y/n's hand and leading him to the bed.
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After having slowly stripped out of the rest of their clothes and making out while doing so, Felix wanted to prepare y/n for what was to come. It was the first time for both of them, and Felix wanted to make sure that everything went well. A bit of discussing went by, as y/n wanted Felix the prepare the right hole, not the one he felt disconnected with. Felix did it all with great care, watching y/n's expressions closely and only doing things with his consent.
As they were then finally ready to do the real deed, Felix positioned himself, giving one last glance at y/n. His boyfriend smiled and nodded, a blush already on his cheeks. "Please.. make love with me." Felix hummed, slowly pushing in, his hands immediately finding their way to y/n's sides. Both their groans filled the room, having to get used to this new but exciting feeling. Felix then felt his hands being moved up, as y/n pulled them up to his chest. "Keep touching me. Don't stop. I finally have the right feeling in it and I want you to love me..." Felix nodded, caressing y/n's chest as he then began moving his hips.
Y/n closed his eyes, never having imagined this to feel so right. He had been scared for years, keeping everything that had to do with sex far away. But now he was so glad to be able to do it in a way he felt loved and cared for. This was what he had always wanted. Felix moaned softly, y/n giving a somewhat louder moan in return as the freckled male sped up. The pleasurable feeling had already spread through both of their bodies. Felix then bent down, beginning to press kisses on y/n's scars ever so softly. This made y/n's heart beat even faster, moaning out Felix's name in delight.
Releasing at the same time, Felix and y/n shuddered as their climax was reached. Panting heavily and holding onto eachother tightly, they both broke out in happy laughter, both relieved and proud to have done this with eachother. Felix hummed as he pulled out, taking off the condom, tying it and then tossing it in the bin next to the bed. He then lay down next to y/n, pulling his boyfriend into a tight hug. "I love you so much. Thank you for letting me be your first." Y/n smiled brightly, placing a kiss on Felix's lips. "I love you more. Thank you for loving me as I am."
We went and got breakfast together and then we walked through a bunch of antique store and I spent an unreasonable amount of money on books and then we sat outside a library and we kissed!!!!!!!