Fuck transIDs
Why the fuck do you want a body like mine so bad? You don’t know what it’s like to be helplessly useless with no chance of getting better. You don’t know what it’s like to be stuck with something that fucks you up so bad it traumatises you. You don’t know what it’s like, simple.
What you see is mostly masking among other things. Romanticisation, social media, mental health positivity. You identify as the pathetic overly-processed version that you see on your phone screen. You think you understand. Yet you have no idea what’s actually going on.
We see you hiding behind a screen at all hours of the day thinking that you have autism or ADHD, or some other disorder that is genuinely exhausting to live with. You might use an actual disability of your own as an excuse because you want to justify the hurt you’re doing. “Oh no I’m not ableist I’m actually disabled as well as being transid you’re so mean!” That doesn’t change anything. It doesn’t change the fact that you’re mocking actually disabled people who have the disorder you wish you had so bad.
One of the labels I hate most is ‘transselfharmscars.’ People who think they should have self-harm scars even if they don’t. They fucking draw the scars on themselves, I am being genuine right now, this is something they do. Okay so how would you react if I showed you my actual scars? I’d get done within seconds for harassment or some shit. But no, whatever, go wear someone else's pain and suffering as a costume for yourself.
I’ve never seen you break down in tears in the middle of a shopping plaza because a plan changed, something you can’t handle. I’ve never seen you feel physically sick and nauseous from fear. Do you know what it’s like to have moments where you collapse, almost faint, and can’t move for up to 10 minutes because the sounds around you were too loud and your body genuinely fucking gave up on you?
You literally don’t. You don’t experience what I experience. Your personality isn’t split, you don’t experience narcissistic episodes, you don’t have any mental disabilities, you're not a neurodiverse person, and you’ll never understand.
