#gender queerness

[duskyumbra101]

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One question that always comes with telling folks I'm nonbinary is "so what do I call you?"

You know what?

Call me admiral. Call me commander. Call me colonel. Call me general, chief, maybe even captain. That's what I want to be addressed as.

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[big-mickeychad-and-other-things]

My Mickey Mouse and Gender Essay Hit a 100 Notes!!!

I’m so grateful for you guys, genuinely, I never though it would ever get this popular.

Thank you really.

To celebrate, I made a zine

Here’s the notes of the words are hard to make out.

[onyxisnotuniqueenough]

long ramble about my gender feelings lol

i truly do not understand how people seems so easily able to identify with one end of the binary, or even be able to place themselves anywhere on any point of the gender spectrum. I thought i was agender in my last year of high school but then went back to the "non-binary label" (yes i know agender is under the non-binary umbrella but choosing "the EXACT word to describe myself" seemed very important for me at the time.) but truly, i think my experience of gender is best-described with being AGENDER. I am not in between, I am not a moving dot on some kind of plane or space (line, circle, sphere, infinity) you could somehow visualize. I am simply a human being and there is no way that i could place my gender dot anywhere. because there is simply no dot.

I need to read more and learn more about myself and make myself RID of the image of gender i "should" aspire to. I am letting conforming to androgyny, and fear of social rejection, be an obstacle to my happiness. My appearance does not matter, and no amount of body hair or lack of feminine features will EVER be able to portray the way i feel inside. I need to deepen and strengthen the distinction i make in my brain between SOCIALIZATION and my own internal reality. I am socialized and always have been socialized as a woman. I am a female statistic. I have womanly fears, live womanly experiences, and face womanly dangers and discrimination. I may not know what it feels like to feel or identify as a woman, but i sure as hell know what they go through. The world sees me as a woman, and the way the world is going, it will never let me forget my birth as a woman, no matter what i do with my clothes, posture or body.

And I can't put the world's misunderstanding of who i am influence who i am. I shouldn't work towards appeasing the world, with mustaches and binders, because the world has never made any effort to appease me! no friend i've ever had has made any effort to FUCKING gender me correctly! they don't care about my feelings and insecurities and consistently continue to call me a girl, a woman, maybe because their cisness or whatever society did to them COMPLETELY unables them to see me as more than a confused woman, or a gender-queer woman, or a non-binary woman.

i should stop feeling sorry for myself or blaming them for doing that! It is not their fault nor is it mine, and of course i do the same thing. i can't help the way I let their appearance and the opinions i have of who they are filter what they're actually saying.

my appearance filters and deforms my words. No matter how tolerant you are, you will see a womanly body say what i say. You will hear a womanly voice say what i say. They are constant reminders.

Now, even if i truly believe in everything i just said, I still have trouble applying my own belief. I don't know yet how to see myself as something other than a woman. I don't know yet how to accept myself for what i am.

Also, lastly, I don't word things perfectly and probably made mistakes. And you'll probably read this and understand something different than what i actually meant. But i still hope it can resonate with you! with anyone! feel free to talk to me about YOUR GENDER and how you feel about yourself if you'd like a listening ear!

[mynameisdannyfenton]

Tfw your mother talks about how being trans gender, agender, non-binary etc was nothing new to your native ancestors but won't support your own queerness.

[plaguedaddy420]

So I'm getting my hair cut on friday. I'm going to finally cut it short but im using the excuse that im donating it. Im obviously going to donate it still but i just dont feel comfortable telling people the real reason.