☆ onyx (they/them)
☆ art blog : @onyxalsolikesart
☆ bluesky : @onyxisnotunique
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$LAYYYTER
let's talk about Bridgerton tea, my ask is open
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Cosimo Galluzzi
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@theartofmadeline
occasionally subtle
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Sweet Seals For You, Always
Misplaced Lens Cap
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Three Goblin Art
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he wasn't even looking at me and he found me
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☆ onyx (they/them)
☆ art blog : @onyxalsolikesart
☆ bluesky : @onyxisnotunique
ps : this is my main, so text posts, asks and reblogs only! if you want to see my art, go to my art blog :D
i can't believe no one thought of making a billford edit to shirley bassey's Goldfinger i mean ford literally turned into gold. also gold can also be a metaphor for glory. TALENTED EDITORS PLEASE TAKE THIS IDEA AND TAG ME! I AM NOT CAPABLE OF LEARNING TO EDIT FAST ENOUGH BEFORE MY GRAVITY PHASE PASSES!!
long ramble about my gender feelings lol
i truly do not understand how people seems so easily able to identify with one end of the binary, or even be able to place themselves anywhere on any point of the gender spectrum. I thought i was agender in my last year of high school but then went back to the "non-binary label" (yes i know agender is under the non-binary umbrella but choosing "the EXACT word to describe myself" seemed very important for me at the time.) but truly, i think my experience of gender is best-described with being AGENDER. I am not in between, I am not a moving dot on some kind of plane or space (line, circle, sphere, infinity) you could somehow visualize. I am simply a human being and there is no way that i could place my gender dot anywhere. because there is simply no dot.
I need to read more and learn more about myself and make myself RID of the image of gender i "should" aspire to. I am letting conforming to androgyny, and fear of social rejection, be an obstacle to my happiness. My appearance does not matter, and no amount of body hair or lack of feminine features will EVER be able to portray the way i feel inside. I need to deepen and strengthen the distinction i make in my brain between SOCIALIZATION and my own internal reality. I am socialized and always have been socialized as a woman. I am a female statistic. I have womanly fears, live womanly experiences, and face womanly dangers and discrimination. I may not know what it feels like to feel or identify as a woman, but i sure as hell know what they go through. The world sees me as a woman, and the way the world is going, it will never let me forget my birth as a woman, no matter what i do with my clothes, posture or body.
And I can't put the world's misunderstanding of who i am influence who i am. I shouldn't work towards appeasing the world, with mustaches and binders, because the world has never made any effort to appease me! no friend i've ever had has made any effort to FUCKING gender me correctly! they don't care about my feelings and insecurities and consistently continue to call me a girl, a woman, maybe because their cisness or whatever society did to them COMPLETELY unables them to see me as more than a confused woman, or a gender-queer woman, or a non-binary woman.
i should stop feeling sorry for myself or blaming them for doing that! It is not their fault nor is it mine, and of course i do the same thing. i can't help the way I let their appearance and the opinions i have of who they are filter what they're actually saying.
my appearance filters and deforms my words. No matter how tolerant you are, you will see a womanly body say what i say. You will hear a womanly voice say what i say. They are constant reminders.
Now, even if i truly believe in everything i just said, I still have trouble applying my own belief. I don't know yet how to see myself as something other than a woman. I don't know yet how to accept myself for what i am.
Also, lastly, I don't word things perfectly and probably made mistakes. And you'll probably read this and understand something different than what i actually meant. But i still hope it can resonate with you! with anyone! feel free to talk to me about YOUR GENDER and how you feel about yourself if you'd like a listening ear!
i'm going through my own posts because i haven't been on tumblr for a while and some of my old posts are so good. i like my own posts. you know? like 2023/2024 onyx was eating....damn....
cross posting because i'd love to talk mlre about this :)
No one can choose who they are in this world.
i've never fiddled so much with the effects....this took 6h25mn....a speedpaint would require an epilepsy warning....
and yet it still hasn't come out like i wanted to
i watched this video a week ago or so, (i don't remember certain points and maybe i should've posted when it was fresh) and while i didn't agree with everything it made me think more about kris and i have weirdly grown to love them 500 times more over the week....kris i love you.....you are my child.....
[“I think shame provides social capital to white people in a few key ways. First, it garners sympathy. In the era of self-care, shame is something we believe we shouldn’t feel. If shame says “I am bad” rather than “what I did was bad,” then, in a self-care/self-help framework, no one should feel shame because we are all inherently good. The “I am inherently good” mantra is amplified for white people because our goodness is systematically reinforced across society: “good” neighborhoods and schools being stand-ins for white, and white as a stand-in for ideal human. When that taken-for-granted yet unacknowledged sense of racial goodness is challenged, we feel attacked at our very core. Whiteness studies scholar Michelle Fine speaks to this moral insulation when she says: “Whiteness accrues privilege and status, gets itself surrounded by protective pillows of resources and/or benefits of the doubt; how Whiteness repels gossip and voyeurism and instead demands dignity.” White people seldom find ourselves without these “protective pillows,” and when we do, it is typically because we have chosen to temporarily step outside our comfort zones. Within our insulated racial environment we come to not only expect racial comfort but to also be less tolerant of racial stress. Expressing shame elicits comfort and relief as we turn to others seeking reassurance, in essence asking to be reminded of our goodness.
For white progressives, shame is seen as socially legitimate (or we wouldn’t express it), a sign that we care and that we feel empathy. This may be why we express shame so much more readily than guilt. Guilt means we are responsible for something; shame relieves us of responsibility. If I focus on what I did, I must take responsibility for repair. If I focus on what I am, it is impossible to change and I am relieved of responsibility.
In distinguishing shame from guilt, psychologist Joseph Burgo explains,
Although many people use the two words ‘guilt’ and ‘shame’ interchangeably, from a psychological perspective, they actually refer to different experiences. Guilt and shame sometimes go hand in hand; the same action may give rise to feelings of both shame and guilt, where the former reflects how we feel about ourselves and the latter involves an awareness that our actions have injured someone else. In other words, shame relates to self; guilt to others.
If guilt relates to external actions and shame to an internal or private state, we can begin to see why shame is the preferred narrative: it protects our positions within the status quo by making it difficult for anyone outside ourselves to address. (The “personal experience” narrative functions the same way; as soon as I invoke that what I am claiming is “just my personal experience,” it becomes private—something internal to myself that only I can know or understand and that therefore cannot be challenged by others.)
Second, it is hard to move forward when we feel shame, as shame tends to be paralyzing; shame actually excuses us from moving forward. What can we do when we feel so bad? We can’t act until we work through this feeling, and that will take time and resources. Of course, given the requirement of time and resources, most of us won’t work through our feelings at all.
Indulging in racial shame whenever we feel exposed (but only when we feel exposed) puts our focus on ourselves and away from those we may have harmed. In this way, shame functions to deny our power and excuse our paralysis, allowing us to indulge in a sense of our own victimization. Both bell hooks and Audre Lorde have noted that feeling bad about racism or white privilege can function as a form of self-centeredness in which white progressives turn the focus back onto themselves. Hooks considered shame to be the performance of whiteness and not an indicator that whiteness was being interrupted.
Feminist writer and independent scholar Sara Ahmed explains, “The shameful white subject expresses shame about its racism, and in expressing its shame, it ‘shows’ that it is not racist: if we are shamed, we mean well. The white subject that is shamed by whiteness is also a white subject that is proud about its shame. The very claim to feel bad (about this or that) also involves a self-perception of ‘being good.’” In other words, if I feel bad enough, I both demonstrate and retain my morality. Ahmed raises the question of whether anti-racism is really about “making people feel better: safer, happier, more hopeful, less depressed, and so on.” There is certainly much concern within anti-racist education about white people not feeling “too” bad lest they withdraw from engagement, and much time and attention is given to keeping white people in the conversation. This concern is heightened when the shame narrative emerges; we now must tread very carefully so as not to cause the person to disengage.”]
robin diangelo, from nice racism: how progressive white people perpetuate racial harm
sunset patrol
we are SO back
SOOOO Quick and Sooooo Angry
RECENT MAGMA ART JAMS DUMP....i've been spending all my time on there !!
last guy is a redesign of @quieted-silent-silence 's oc (asked for ofc). the rest are people asking to draw their ocs, but i don't have their @s
except for miku and garnet ofc ofc
i can't afford art school and while i'm not great, it's my only skill.
job-wise, the art industry looks bleak. what am i supposed to do?
it feels like i'll never be able to live off my only true passion, especially when i'm not experienced or skilled enough to stand out in the huge art crowd. i know that all i want is to have movies, or a show or a comic and be able to tell the stories i want to tell, on a hayao miyazaki kinda level. but that dream seems unreachable
hi kiwi, i was recently wondering what happened with your mitski class project you were working on a few years back. did you ever post it? :O
i do not remember finishing this but apparently i did!
i love uptown girls
guys i've had the magician oc since 7TH FUCKING GRADE and i wanted her to be prism's nemesis/one of his enemies because i didn't know what to do with her. and then I SCRAPPED HER BECAUSE I GOT IDEAS FOR A WEREWOLF SIDEKICK FOR HIM AND A WEREBUNNY NEMESIS. AND GUESS WHAT. IT ALL CLICKED TONIGHT, WHILE REORGANIZING MY PINTEREST, THAT THE WEREBUNNY NEEDS A SIDEKICK TOO!! AAAAANNNDDDD GUES WHO'S OLD ASS PINTEREST BOARD WAS LOOKING AT ME WHILE I SAID THAT TO MYSELF. it's all coming together baby i'm so proud of my little neurons
I feel like some of you dont understand what a serialized narrative is. Like why r you asking me what happens next just wait for the next episode.
me to me when i get anxiety about my future and my purpose on earth
i need friends be my friend
i don't need you to be in the same fandoms as me necessarily, but if it helps us possibly connect i like :
both digital and trad art, mitski, kendrick, thee sacred souls, house md, miraculous, spider-man, daredevil, smosh, danny/drew/kurtis/chad chad, and i'm currently watching abbott elementary. i also have lots of predictable queer art kid experience under my belt (SU, Sonic, etc.)
i would also love to have someone to talk religion with, idk if that's corny but when am i not
DM ME!!
"Why do you hate found family" you guys will call characters who r literally coworkers siblings its stupid.
I think ppl r actually too obsessed with doing nuclear family dynamics on their beloved characters i don't want mom and dad and their two kids this shit is lame irl why can't people just have funny little friendships.