In case the 2nd video is not linking for you guys, here is the LINK.
It is about the SA of Men by Women Played for Laughs. And of the two videos, it is the more important concerning the Moxxie-Verosika situation obviously.
But BOTH videos are peak. Especially the endings of both.
SA played for laughs, of any gender, are never harmless. These video essays breakdown why that is. People are more likely to watch/listen.
Huge CW: Frank discussions of SA, R*pe Culture, normalization of this kind of thing in the media. And it really highlights just how damn common it is. It gets heavy.
Please watch this. Try to see where I'm coming from.
[ Maybe don't if you're easily triggered by these topics. Especially the first video. A lot of clips of shows making prison jokes. It's gross how common it is. ]
Seela is constantly subjecting herself to fashionable cosmetic surgeries. All kinds of implants & removals, "sculpting" procedures like what we call BBL's and tummy tucks, laser hair removal, etc etc etc. but even more extreme because it's Star Wars. It's all in service of making her look as hot & marketable as possible. Pure insane billionaire celebrity shit. But most notably she is my only OC who has a purely cosmetic labiaplasty. And the laser hair removal was to make her pubes grow in the shape of a heart with everything else BALD. Horrifying actually. But she would in fact be doing all that and more. She had bioluminescent cells installed on her legs for a music video but they got infected and had to be removed and she spent 6 weeks regrowing her leg skin. And so on and so forth.
Tierlist: Okay Manik, you've been writing smut for a loooong time. So because of that, you've certainly developed a bunch of different crazy fetishes. So let's see you rank them all, and explain why you love your top kinks so much <3
Okay, here's a break down of the God-Tier~
Ear Fuck, Corruption, Moral Degeneration, Mind Control, Possession, Body Swap, Smell, Unusual Pupils: All of those fall under the umbrella of Mind Control to me, or are in this tier because of their association with mind control. Most fetishes will go up two to three tiers if you tie it to mind control as a general rule. Bimbofication and IQ drain weren't in that tierlist, but they would be here as well for the same reason.
All the Way Through, Expansion, Bukkake, Cumflation, Excessive Cum, Hyper, Large Body Parts: I love big things. Big asses, big tits, big cocks, etc. The cartoonishness and excessiveness of it all makes little neurons light up in my brain, which is the same reason I like Ahegao, Time Stop and Mind Break, except that the focus is on mental excess rather than physical with those. (Note: The best part of Time Stop is obviously the explosive, mind-breaking orgasm that happens once time stop ends. What actually happens during time stop is completely irrelevant)
Lolicon, Shotacon, Small Breasts, Incest: Actually a continuation of the above. This is similar, except that it exaggerates the taboo and forbidden. Though, as usual, what is hot in fiction isn't hot irl, etc. (Note: Small breasts actually are hot irl)
Futanari: Futanaris are just great. I love big tits, big cock, and big asses, and futas have all of that.
Femboys, Feminization, Prostate Massage, Yaoi: I like femboys. I like fat asses and big cocks, and femboys have both of those :P But in all seriousness, femboys really are great, and I love them, whether they are fucking a bitch, getting fucked by another dude, or getting fucked by a futa. (Note: Feminization isn't genderbending. Genderbending is fine, but I usually prefer feminisation to outright genderbending)
Ball Sucking, Semen Drinking, Kissing, Bukkake, Blowjobs: I have an oral fixation. If you haven't noticed, unless specified otherwise, my default sexual act in my asks is oral. I love sucking cocks, drinking semen, kissing, drool/saliva, thick lips, etc.
Transformation and Expansion: Again, the exaggeration of it is what I like. The impossibility of it. Though, transformation has its limits. Inanimate Transformation isn't my thing, for example. Usually, I veer closer to expansion than outright tf, but I also quite like tf, so I'm putting both up here.
An Archive of Our Own, a project of the Organization for Transformative Works
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: The Silmarillion and other histories of Middle-Earth - J. R. R. Tolkien, TOLKIEN J. R. R. - Works & Related Fandoms
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Elf | Elves
Additional Tags: Poetry, Short, warning in author's note
Summary:
One of the earliest elven captives in Utumno, one of the Quendi finds speech slipping away.
Let’s Talk About Shipping Discourse and What it’s Been Doing to the Fandom... and to Me.
This is going to be weird for me, because I’ve never made any secret of having an interest in dark erotica on my Tumblr, but in recent months, I’ve felt the need to keep it on the down-low, because I do not trust the maturity level of the fandom for which I have been creating a ton of artwork. They scare me, quite frankly. Made me frightened. Being in a server full of people who viciously turned on an artist whose work I adored and scared them off for merely not blocking certain people online. And in the wake of the shit that went down in the Amphibia fandom on Twitter, (more archived links here) I feel like I can’t continue to stay silent on this. I don’t want to be bullied by children who shouldn’t be in these spaces in the first place, children I do not wish to interact with. I want to share my artwork I’ve been toiling away at for months and only showing on Discord.
Anybody who has followed my blog long enough might be aware of the novel I was working on that was put on hiatus, Our Fearsome Goddess, which hasn’t been updated in like four years. I got caught up in other projects. But OFG contained disturbing subject matter, including rape, imprisonment, sex slavery, snuff, sexual torture and gore. And I never got any backlash on it. In fact, I have a history of drawing disturbing porn, some for shits and giggles or shock value, others because they are genuine fantasies of mine. Being able to draw and write these scenarios in a fictional context, where they are words on a screen or lines on paper, is the safest way I can explore these interests; interests that would be unthinkable for me to do IRL. I hate seeing people get hurt.
But since December of last year I have been focusing such dark fantasies on a Tumblr Sexyman (I know, shut up) that attracts enough underage or emotionally underdeveloped fandom police that I have genuinely feared the backlash I would get for sharing these works publicly, especially after seeing a lynch mob form against an artist whose work I adore in a Discord server and seeing the sort of weird conservative groupthink set in. And I’m tired of hiding it.
For the past eight months, I have been drawing a series of comics that center around a toxic relationship with two Deltarune characters; Spamton G. Spamton and Kris Dreemur. I found myself drawn to it because much of the art felt like it spoke to me, as someone who was a teenager who was never attracted to boys my age, but rather men who had to be at least nearly a decade my senior. This is a part of my sexuality, as well as wanting to depict an AFAB character as being the aggressor, the dominant one, the one with complete control and manipulating the older man, because this was something I fantasized about even back in high school. Teenage girls having crushes on older men is a very common experience and every time I saw it depicted in film in a way that acknowledged that such a relationship was not feasible, or was one-sided, I felt as though I was being seen. Looking back on My Girl or watching The Professional as an adult and seeing myself in Vada and Mathilda... and yes, I am aware of the hell that The Professional put Natalie Portman through but seeing her as Mathilda, she was the one I projected onto. But there was also a side of me fascinated by brutality, guilt, abuse and co-dependency in a relationship. I was never comfortable with the idea of the woman in a relationship being abused. I was abused enough as a kid. Instead I wanted to feel a sense of power and control I never had, of sexual freedom I was denied by a mother who seemed disgusted at the idea of her hormone-addled daughter expressing an interest in sex, and instilled a deep sense of shame in me in regards to anything even related to sex. The comics I have been writing have been me exploring this abusive relationship dynamic between a young, female abuser and a very traumatized and emotionally beaten-down man desperate for any signs of affection at all. I’ve been sharing these comics with friends and they’ve been nothing but supportive of me, even the ones that aren’t even into this sort of thing, because they are able to look at is as art, as a story, rather than as an endorsement of the actions depicted in these comics.
Look, I don’t want to spring what I’ve made onto people who don’t want to see it, and I am very aware that what I have made will make people uncomfortable. And they’re allowed to be uncomfortable! They have every right to be because I design the comics to be uncomfortable and brutal, same as I did with Our Fearsome Goddess. But the Deltarune fandom is full of young people who only seem to consume Marvel movies, children’s cartoons, babby games and YA novels where all the morals are spelled out and there’s little room for ambiguity or nuance. And what’s nuts is that in the 2000′s and even the early 2010′s, this content was allowed to exist without the fear of a bunch of minors trying to dox you, so long as you tagged it accordingly. Now, if you even so much as think about drawing porn of Jotaro from Part 3 of Jojo, there will be people jumping down your throat for sexualizing a minor... even though he looks like a 35 year-old man. I ain’t seen a single 17 year old in my life that looks like Jotaro.
I would not post these comics here because Tumblr keeps removing my old porn still to this day. I’d probably post it to AO3 with plenty of warnings, or maybe even do a dump on 4chan’s /trash/ board. No fucking way would I put this shit on my Twitter. I have been using Kris as essentially an author surrogate for my most sadistic inclinations to a funny little puppet salesman from a video game with a wide teenage fanbase and it’s precisely because of the age of that fanbase skewing younger that I have been frightened to share this material. I saw what they did to PurelyGross on Twitter. It disgusted me.
If enough people are interested, I will put these comics up on AO3 behind a bajillion content warnings just so everybody knows what they’re getting into, rather than the more vague or non-existent warnings for my older fanfic where the audience tended to skew older. My view, and the view of a lot of fandom people my age and older, tends to be that exploring dark themes in fiction is fine, as some of the people who do a lot of sick twisted weirdo shit IRL usually didn’t have much of a creative outlet for it and decide instead it’d be fun and cool to try it for real. I absolutely do not want minors looking at my stuff, but I realize it would be inevitable, particularly if some Safe Twitter Adult decides to show my degenerate porn to a bunch of minors, which is a fucking crime, by the way, holy shit, how have these people not had a visit from the 4chan Party Van?
Heh. “4chan Party Van.” That’s a throwback. Christ, I’m old.
Writing and drawing these comics has been therapeutic to me, in a weird way. As an author, I love indulging in putting characters I love through the worst scenarios possible just to see what happens. Kris has been written as being controlled by a vile red Soul, and the characters who find out about Kris’s treatment of Spamton are rightfully disgusted and want to help Spamton out of this abusive relationship. It’s essentially a hurt/comfort/hurt/comfort/hurt even more/okay here’s some comfort kind of fic. The last thing I need is some fucking 14 year old crying at me about how I hurt their comfort character and that I’m a freak or a pedophile when the underage character is not the one that I’m attracted to. Again, they’re the author surrogate. I can’t say why I’m like this but these comics have made me feel like a sexual being again after years of being on SSRIs that made me not even want to be touched. I recently had sex for the first time in over three years, because in those prior years, my libido had been pretty much shot. I didn’t like feeling that way because I didn’t use to feel that way. I felt broken. I didn’t even want to be touched in a way that was remotely sexual.
I don’t think it’s a coincidence, either, that I felt this sort of realization that this was a thing that I was into once I had distanced myself from Kiwi Farms, which from what I can tell, seems to have a bunch of TERFs and right-wing weirdos keeping track of people’s degeneracy for just... drawing cartoons. I posted multiple times on the forum that cartoonists are kind of perverts, and also that anybody who was just drawing weird shit but had zero evidence of them grooming kids was probably not a threat, who fucking cares. A lot of cartoonists and animators at least seem fairly harmless. Others, not so much (fuck you, John K., I can’t believe I ever admired your scumbag ass). I notice a lot of these fandom police are either young or they’re adults who hang around a lot of minors. When an artist got doxed and had to flee her home to avoid potentially getting beaten or killed by her deeply conservative Muslim family over ship art she drew, a bunch of goddamn children were cheering about it. The instigator tried to publicly distance themselves from starting it, only to gloat about it in a Twitter voice group, (backup here). I felt sick to my stomach. This is ghoulish behavior, and I can’t help but feel this is the result of a combination of mean girl shit, ship wars, Twitter’s constant feedback loop of self-righteous indignation, and a diet of only the most corporate, sanitized media possible.
In some ways, I kind of understand it, since it seems that when I talk to fandom people under a certain age (about 24-23, usually), they’ve had some experience with being groomed online. I’m 35 and somehow managed to avoid this, as I would often nope out of this kind of thing immediately as a teenager. The internet empowered me to do something I had a lot of trouble doing in real life, and that is telling people when I am uncomfortable. It’s still extremely hard to do IRL but I have made a lot of progress since then. I know a lot of people were groomed using rule 34, but really, you can use regular porn or just pure hero worship if you’re an influencer to groom kids. It seems too similar to the media blaming acts of violence on video games or movies; the fault lies with the perpetrator of those crimes, not with the media that “inspired” them. The Beatles are not responsible for the Manson family murders and J.D. Salinger isn’t responsible for the assassination of John Lennon. I also am aware of multiple people who are a danger to children online who are still active and ain’t none of these kids trying to go after them. I once offered up info on a self-admitted pedophile rapist to someone who claimed they wanted to kill all pedos with a baseball bat, but they immediately chickened out, said that the state I gave out was too far away, blocked me and called me a pedo-enabler. These people don’t actually give a shit about protecting kids, they just want to bully women. And like, it’s almost entirely women and LGBT people that are targeted, people who are already made to feel ashamed and dirty over any sort of perceived sexual deviancy. We literally have Texas republicans ranting and raving about the graphic novel Genderqueer for being “literal pornography” when it’s autobiographical and said “pornography” is rendered in such a way that it’d hardly be arousing to anybody. Do these kids realize they sound exactly the same as these conservatives trying to ban books with gay people in them? With depictions of growing up as a queer youth in them? I don’t think they do.
It’s insane to see both supposedly leftist teens and old conservative cranks both rant about groomers in entirely different contexts. To the queer kids that perpetuate this, know this: those conservatives want you to stop existing because they see you the exact same way they see people like me; as disgusting freaks. Degenerates. The downfall of western society. I feel like these kids heads might explode if they watched a John Waters movie that wasn’t Hairspray. (Sidenote: I briefly met John Waters at a book signing earlier this year. He adored my “I FUCK ON THE FIRST DATE” shirt and told me an anecdote about how this was a thing Hollywood producers would say back in the day to indicate that they were eager to sign deals with new talent. I treasure this man. He is a true queer icon and a huge inspiration to me.)
So please. Read a banned book. Watch video nasties and controversial films. Listen to albums by bands talking about some weird, fucked-up shit. Expand your reference pool. Watch a show written for grown-ups where the characters aren’t split into good guys and bad guys. Superhero stuff is fun, or at least it used to be. Now I feel like I can’t enjoy it because it’s inadvertently taken out the sexuality out of mainstream film and dumbed everything down and made things all quippy and self-aware. A mind cannot sustain itself on popcorn CGI fests and soft uwu fluff alone. I will continue to draw my comics because it’s reawakened my floundering creative drive and it created an outlet for my sick pervert fantasies. For a while I was putting out a new page every single day. That’s slowed down considerably but I haven’t felt this creative fire in my veins since my early days of writing TF2 fanfic for TF2chan.
Also, consider supporting the Comic Book Legal Defense Fund, a very pro-LGBTQ organization that helps fight censorship against comic books. I don’t think they’ve expanded into the world of fanworks yet, but AO3 certainly has. They even have a symposium on the “anti” fandom phenomenon. I highly suggest you read it.
I want to make it so that the idea of doxing someone over art on private or clearly marked as adult Twitter accounts is seen as abhorrent. I want people to express themselves and channel their inner turmoil and traumas in a way that they can reclaim it and reshape it. Doing so is quite common for victims of trauma or sexual abuse. But most of all, I don’t want kids on Twitter and social media because they cannot handle it, it is more dangerous than it ever was when I was a teen during the “wild west” days of the internet, and holy shit I cannot imagine just how fucked up these ideas are and planting them in the minds of impressionable young people is so fucking damaging and is going to result in the same kind of guilt and shame I had to deal with from my Catholic upbringing that made me such a weird sex pervert in the first place.
And I would never wish that kind of pain on anyone.
Also I swear to god if one of you fuckers bring up Jaws as the reason why shark-culling is a thing, 1) you’re a moron if you think a bunch of people harvesting fins for shark fin soup did it because of an American blockbuster, and 2) Jaws was based on a real life series of freak shark attacks by the same shark in the summer of 1916. Fiction may affect reality, but reality affects fiction a lot more and looking at the multiple horror movie characters inspired by Ed Gein alone should tell you as much.
As Halloween draws closer, I’d like to announce something spooky, although it’s scary for less fantastical reasons...three “sealed” Black Jack chapters are now available to read in English on Archive.org!
What Black Jack? It’s Osamu Tezuka’s long-running manga about a genius renegade surgeon, Kuro “Black Jack” Kazama, a distant ally of Astro Boy. And what is a “sealed” chapter? Well, there are exactly 11 chapters of Black Jack that have never been available to read in any official mainstream release. Usually, these chapters were too disturbing/dark/depressing to republish, or Osamu Tezuka was just generally unsatisfied with how they turned out. However, three of these eleven were published in English in 2008-2009 for Vertical Inc.’s translation of the Black Jack manga: “The Two Jans”, “The One That Remains”, and “Witch Trial”. All three are quite morose, and they are now available to read online. However, please be advised that these three chapters are very, very serious.
What happens in them?: Black Jack separates two conscious conjoined twins, performs reconstructive surgery on a deformed newborn, and helps a young victim of industrial runoff poisoning. They are very heavy chapters and I advise only reading if you are comfortable with off-putting imagery and serious themes. These chapters have a lot of value in showing Black Jack’s humanitarian side, which is why we’ve chosen to finally put them online. (Also, enough years have passed since these were published, so we won’t get sued for posting them).
Also included is a short essay by Ada Palmer, founder of Tezuka In English, which was published exclusively in a special edition of the third BJ volume. This essay gives some insight into Osamu Tezuka’s Star System and the background of each “sealed” chapter. Once again, I advise you to only read these if you feel mentally prepared to do so. Black Jack might be a genius doctor, but he wouldn’t want you to force yourself to read such heavy stories!
