“I wonder what goes on in God’s mind when he watches his creation suffer—partly at the hands of His other creation and mostly at His. Does it ache the same way it does for us? Does He cry the same tears that soak our pillows? Does Heaven shudder at the sound of a heartbreak? Does God bleed in the same places as we do? Does God really reside in a broken heart? Does God sneak into the crooked shadows of our souls? If not, where does He go when we lose our light to the same Devil who once worshiped the same God? Does God’s sorrow mirror our own? I wonder where it cuts the deepest for Him when justice isn’t served. I wonder where it bleeds profusely for Him when a man breaks his promises, when he raises his hand against a woman, when a father loathes himself as his child cries out in hunger, when a baby is murdered with a three-pronged arrow, or in a bombardment. Where does it ache, God, when an innocent is punished for a crime he didn’t commit? Where does your mercy weep the hardest?
If God does, in fact, bleed in response to human suffering, where would that wound be? I wonder if it hurts God in the same place it hurts us when we fall. Does God suffer alongside His creation? But I can say for sure that His silence intensifies our bleeding when these wrongs go unpunished and when a broken heart isn’t healed. And that He bears this burden of humanity’s suffering more than we do as a consequence of His own guilt of orchestrating it in the first place. Everytime our prayers fall on deaf ears, even the foundation of Hell quivers with disgust. The responsibility for human pain and injustice, by all means, should weigh heavily on God, not just as a bystander but as an active participant whose decisions and actions, but more so, His inactions, contribute to the misfortune of His creation. A burden similar to the weight of His own sin, a consequence of His choices, making the suffering of humanity a direct reflection of Him. The first sin wasn’t eating the forbidden fruit, it was the refusal to stop it when You had the power to intervene.”
