#godkin vent

[wiirat]

❝there's so much anger in my broken soul and I can't bring my vessel to feel it, as much as I want to, for its the melancholic anger where you'd sacrifice your very being if it meant destroying that *one* person less the fact it'd cause the end of the world itself

And maybe that's a little overdramatic but who am I to admit that? I am angry and I am upset and that is all I know.

This vessel bleeds red but I should bleed gold.

This soul should be fresh and full of strength but it is old and tainted and as fragile as porcelain.

As much as I wanna feel pure emotion about this, I can't.❞

[thestarlitpath]

Am I alone?

I've always thought of myself as having a twinned Higher Light, the Solar Light to my Lunar Light, but that doesn't feel like the truth anymore.

I don't want to be alone. I've already lost so much.

[elliotisnthuman]

why does a god let such lowly people belittle him? thats not how its supposed to be. im supposed to have their respect or their fear. i wish i could go back to my previous incarnation just so i could frighten them

[g-dsyndr-me]

I have a faint recollection of my memories as a god, yet never to fully recall my experiences. It's like my past experiences are too incomprehensible for this human shell to be capable of understanding it so it gives me a small hint as to what it was like - but can never give me the full thing. I wish so deeply to share my experiences, if only for my own greater understanding of myself. It would be so nice to give those who wish to worship me old stories of the past, I can't do that without stretching the truth of what I only faintly, distantly can recollect. It's kinda like my memories are just nostalgic feelings and deja vu i couldn't hope to understand in this husk of a body I was forcibly shoved into