From “Rysiu” • @richard.kaczynski Happy 12th birthday to the revised and expanded edition of “Perdurabo: The Life of Aleister Crowley” from @natlanticbooks. I’m honored and grateful that it remains the go-to book for so many; and that, in its eleventh year, it saw such a well-received Spanish translation from @auroradoradaediciones! #Perdurabo #AleisterCrowley #HappyBirthday #Thelema #occult #magick #mountaineering #GoldenDawn #yoga #OrdoTempliOrientis #argentiumastrum #astrumargentum #biographies #biography #RichardKaczynski https://www.instagram.com/p/ChXatsSjfIpwQp17O8ZfNPDKczy1he1zVSvGJE0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=
You were the only woman that ever truly caught the heart of the vice-captain of the Golden Dawn. You were strong, snarky, yet quirky and fun, it was hard to be serious when you were around at first it irritated Langris because he hated your carefree attitude, but the more he went on missions with you the more he started to fall for you. He was never good with making friends, let alone getting girls to fall for him and as much as it pained him Finral was slightly better at it than he was. So that’s why he decided to suck up his pride and get the help from his older brother, he just made mental note to threaten Finral if Finral decided to try and use that against him. He went to the capital before purposely running into Finral, his older brother tensed up slightly, Luck, Magna and Asta got in between the two.
“Langris....” Finral said, the three could sense something was wrong with Langris as Langris just stood there looking off to the side.
“I....need your help Finral.... Say one word I will kill you...” He finally said, a blush dusting Langris’s cheeks. Finral was shocked by his brother’s statement, but was even more concerned when he noticed the blush. Luck, Magna and Asta moved to stand beside Finral when they noticed Langris wasn’t exactly planning on being violent.
“What...do you need my help with?” Finral asked, Langris began mumbling worse then Gordon and the four sweat dropped in confusion.
“What?”
“A...girl...”
“.....” Finral was silent, before a smiled graced his lips and he wrapped his arm around his brother’s shoulders, Langris growled but didn’t say anything.
“A girl? Ah I can help you with that... who is it?” Finral said, Langris perked up a bit at the fact his brother said he could help and he blushed slightly before saying her name.
“Her name is (Y/N)...(Y/N) (L/N)...” Langris said shifting under everyone’s gaze, they had to admit this was sorta amusing seeing someone like Langris becoming so shy when it came to talking about the girl he liked. Finral was trying to keep a straight face but he couldn’t help but feel happy his brother wanted his help.
“You mean that really quirky girl that has a insult for every occasion?” Magna asked and Langris nodded his head.
“Wow... She is cute though, I can see why you fell for her. Hmm... I don’t know her well enough, but from the few times I talked to her... she seems like a easy girl to win over...No wrong thing to say... Not easy to win over, but it wouldn’t be necessary to go big and flashy like most nobles and royals do for the ones they like or love...”
“She is a girl she would like that, all girls like that...” Langris dead panned, Finral shook his head before Asta spoke up.
“All girls aren’t the same (Y/N) seemed like the type of girl that likes simple gestures, flowers, lunch. You know that sort of thing.” Finral said waving the three males off, Finral was going to use this chance to spend time with his younger brother. The three nodded understanding and leaving Langris and Finral. Langris looked at Finral before looking away this was difficult for him, but he wanted the help.
“Flowers and lunch? That’s it?”
“Yeah. See how she reacts with (f/f) and her favorite food.”
“Favorite food, if I remember correctly its (f/f) is that really all it takes?” Langris asked and Finral shook his head.
“No we are just testing the waters here. If she absolutely adores the flowers and food. Like do it anonymously and if she talks about it non stop you know exactly what to do, do it several of times without her knowing maybe write her a cute note telling her to meet her and then bring flowers and something else to meet up spot and expose yourself.” Finral said as he began walking, Langris listened to every word. Now that he thought about it, it did make sense and he was getting nervous.
“Okay...” Langris said, and he looked around before paying for your favorite flowers. Finral pat his brothers back before leaving but Langris looked at his brother horrified. No one has ever seen that look on Langris’s face before, he quickly grabbed his brothers arm.
“Where the hell do you think you are going!?”
“I told you want to do and advice.”
“NO! I mean I can’t do this by myself, you said write something cute, and do all of this and that! I can’t do this...” Finral looked at his brother in shocked, Langris actually looked scared and nervous.
“O-Okay I will stay and help more.”
“Thank you...” He said relaxing completely before realizing he was still holding onto his brother’s arm. He looked around and realized people were watching them, and he quickly let go and distanced himself. He didn’t mean to make a scene, now he caused attention to him and Finral.
“Uh, lets get going.” Finral said letting Langris lead the way to get your favorite food. Once they grabbed that, it was time to write a note. He insisted that Finral write it but Finral refused since it was Langris’s feelings not his.
“I can’t do this. Forget it, I don’t want to confess anymore.”
“No can do, not only did you cause a scene, now everyone is going to be wondering who the lucky girl is no doubt word will get back too (Y/N)...”
“.... Fine.” Langris grumbled as he tossed the paper behind him and scribbling something else before giving it to his brother.
“This isn’t bad, actually Langris..” Finral said reading it over, Langris slumped back before giving Finral the flowers and food.
“You give it to her... I mean can you give it to her? I don’t think I can...” Langris admitted looking at his desk, Finral nodded his head.
“Yepp, I can.” He said with a smile before heading out of his younger brother’s room. He went to your room before knocking on your door, you opened your door before blinking at Finral.
“What are you doing here?” You asked confused tilting your head and Finral laughed slightly.
“I made a promise to your secret admirer, that I would deliver these.”
“I have a secret admirer?” You asked and Firnal nodded giving you the flowers, and food. You smelled the flowers with a wide smile before your mouth began to water at the smell of the food.
“Omg, he must really know me. Like Everyone knows my favorite food, but no one knows my favorite flowers...” You said setting the flowers in a vase in your room and set the food on the table.
“There is a letter too...” He said, and you opened the envelope and began reading the letter.
“I get jealous, I get mad, I get curious. It only because I care. That’s really sweet, but who would get jealous and mad?” You read aloud and tilted your head before looking at Finral.
“Who gave you these.”
“I can’t tell you that sorry. See you later (Y/N).” Finral waved before quickly walking to through the portal and closing before you could follow him. He went into your room, and Langris looked at Finral with hopeful eyes.
“She loved the flowers and food of course, and the letter left her guessing who it could be.” He said giving Langris a thumbs up. He smiled relaxing slightly began to write a lot of love letters for you, as Finral went to get your (f/f) this time getting a stuffed animal. He decided to change it up so you didn’t grow tired of your favorite food when you received these gifts.
The second time you received the gifts you put the stuffed animal that Langris bought on your bed and added the flowers to a different vase, Finral stayed as you read the letter just to see your reaction.
“I just wanted to say I love you. I am not good with confessing my feelings but I love you.” You giggled at the letter finding it adorable.
“Come on Finral tell me.”
“I can’t...” He said leaving quickly and doing his normal routine. It went like every day the next three months. When your captain came into your room to talk to you he saw all the vases of flowers, piles of love letters and all the gifts you had received that weren’t expensive just simple gestures that showed someone cared.
“Got yourself a boyfriend?”
“Nope, secret admirer but Finral won’t tell me who..” You said glancing at Finral who was looking at your captain.
“I was wondering why you always came into your room in a rush.” William said shaking his head and you blushed slightly, and Finral was proud that his brother was making you this way.
“Yeah well I am hoping one of these letters will either give me a hint or he finally tell me who he is before I lose my mind now out captain. out out out.” You said pushing him out your room, most people would have never have even thought about pushing their captain but you and William were close enough so he never got mad.
“Yeah, yeah, yeah.” He said going to his office. You opened the next letter looking at Finral, and Finral began to leave.
“You aren’t going to stay?”
“Nope no need to anymore.” He said before disappearing. You read the letter your blush covering your cheek as you read the letter.
“After three months, I still can’t get over how beautiful you are. I can’t ever focus on my work and captain is catching on to my issue so I am going to finally expose myself to you. Meet me at the waterfall thats behind the base in the woods.” You blinked before smiling and quickly ran out of the base, you were excited to see who your secret admirer was. You weren’t going to lie, you had developed feelings for the unknown person. You slowed down the closer you got and you began to get nervous and you froze midstep as you only had a few more steps before arriving at the waterfall. You were shaking with nervousness, but you figured you couldn’t be more nervous then the said person who sent you countless of flowers, letters and gifts.
You walked a few steps before the waterfall came into view. You saw a male up a head and from the back it looked a lot like...
“Langris???” Langris froze hearing his name but he turned around with your favorite flowers and a necklace that had his initials in his hand.
“Hey....”
“Are you....” Langris looked anywhere but you, he nodded his head with a blush. Your blush darkened and you walked closer to him, he handed you the flowers before taking a deep breath. He recited the words, that Finral made him practice so he wouldn’t mess up this chance.
“I love you, will you be my girlfriend???” He said slowly yet clearly, he was so nervous it was written all over his face, and in his eyes. You never seen him like this, it was so out of character but it was definitly a nice change to see. You were silent for some time and he began to take your silence as rejection, that was of course before you tackled him into a hug.
“Of course, I would love to. I love you too Langris...”
“Wait really?”
“Yes...” Langris felt a weight lift off his shoulders and he connected your necklace around your neck. He shyly pecked your lips before looking away from you and you couldn’t help but laugh and hug him tightly.
“You didn’t have to go through all of that... to make me fall for you though.”
“Well I rather be safe than sorry, plus I didn’t know how else to go about it. Even with my brother’s help.”
“You had bonding time with your brother...to win me over...”
“.....shut up.....”
“Oh my god, thats so cute. You are so cute Langris.”
“I will kill you.” He said, looking away and you couldn’t help but giggle at his Tsundere attitude. You pecked his cheek, and he softened up a bit before returning the peck.
Away behind a tree Finral was doing a miniature dance, not only did he and his brother develop a small bond, but he got the girl he loved. William chuckled at Finral’s little dance, before admitting the two were perfect for each other.
“They are too cute.” Finral said.
“Only if I could get myself a girlfriend.” He finished and William pat Finral’s back.
“In due time, in due time. Take us back.” Finral nodded opening the portal and he dropped William off at his office before going back to the base, and announcing that Langris was dating you.
[holy shit this was too cute for my heart I was writing this at work and people on the phones could hear the smile in voice because I couldn’t contain my excitement to publish this.]
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Interview Highlights: Richard begins by giving a short background and biography of Waite and the people who had a great influence on his life. We discuss Waite's famous tarot deck and the inspiration for it, noting that illustrator Pamela Coleman Smith is often omitted from being mentioned. Richard then talks in more detail about how Waite's 'outsider status' has led to his work being neglected, and how his notion of a 'secret tradition' is deserving of more study.
This candle was designed during the Saturn and Jupiter conjunction of 2020 (for left and right handed balance during gnosis) and then anointed with clove oil in the day and hour of Mercury. You better buckle the hell up and know thyself. The TV and radio is gunna be talking to you after this one.
Weekday / Retrogrades irrelevant, but be mindful of your timing. If unsure, light on a Wednesday preferably during sunrise.
