Discussing having kids/ Talk to start a family
2021 was a year full of surprises and news, especially for me and my boyfriend Lim Jaebeom aka Jayb, leader of the Got7. At the beginning of the year the members of the group decided to leave the agency of JYP to focus more on their new solo career by releasing albums where they put all their passion and still work for a future album signed exclusively Got7.
Now Jaebeom works for Higher Music, one of Jay Park’s agencies, which gave the possibility that he deserved to expand his art in the musical field, by releasing his album Somo: Fume and also giving him the opportunity to focus after years of waiting and sacrifices on our relationship.
When I met Jaebeom, I was very intimidated. It must have been his deep gaze or the fact that for most of the time he kept a serious expression when he had to ask me something, but as time went on he began to soften more and more.
Who knew the great leader Lim Jaebeom could be a giant teddy bear.
Will its sweetness come from the industrial amount of mint and chocolate ice cream that devours each time you have the opportunity that closes in your office at our house when you work?
I don’t know, but I can confirm that now it’s my own stuffed animal to scramble and hold on to like a koala whenever I want, which is practically always.
Now we sit together on the sofa and enjoy the well-deserved relaxation, pampering each other with Nora lying at our feet.
"How quiet. I don’t want to get up. I’m so comfortable here" - he told him as I rubbed my face on his chest - "The two of us. The calm and finally we can spend some quiet time together"
He chuckled away as he gently stroked my hair, "You know, baby. I was thinking about something. We’ve been together for five years now, and despite everything, our relationship is stronger than ever. I was thinking... but what if there was another presence in this house?"
"What do you mean? Another cat? But you already have five cats " I laughed.
"I didn’t mean another cat, but..." he interrupted the sentence while he began to look me in the eye to try to communicate to me something he couldn’t say.
A light bulb goes on in my head. "Wait, you mean...a baby?"
He took my face in his hands, "Well, I’ve been thinking about it for a while, but it wouldn’t hurt to have a mini me or a mini you hanging around the house. Now that I can finally dedicate myself to you, I think I can give some of my love to a little Lim. What do you think?"
He looked at me with a pleading look. We actually spent more time together, we were both doing well financially, and then it wouldn’t hurt to have a little version of us crawling around our house.
I looked at him smiling and - "When do you want to start?"
He gave me a huge smile and he held me tightly in his arms.
"Even now my little girl" kissing me passionately on the lips.
Mark and I have always gotten along as a couple and it has brought us up to date to have four years of very strong relationship behind us. I had been working as a make-up artist for the Got7s since their debut and my eyes as a lover always aimed at Mark and I was impressed when he found out that he felt the same way when I asked him out.
Towards the end of January he decided to return to Los Angeles to his family because it had been too long since he had seen them. He proposed that I go with him, but with my work it was too complicated, especially for the various controls due to the pandemic still current.
We call each other a lot, and that’s what we were doing right now while I was on the bed with my legs crossed, wearing his sweatshirt. His perfume was still there, giving me the feeling that he was here next to me.
I missed him a lot, but I was gonna give him some big news today.
"Hey, baby. How’s it going in Korea?"
"It’s all right, Markie. Today I had to take care of the makeup of some Stray Kids members for their new Mv and JYP is the exact same asshole. I miss taking care of you guys," I said with a little pout.
If I still worked at that agency it was because of the friendships I had made in those years, but mainly because in this last period I needed money for the project I was going to communicate to Mark.
"I know love. Try to be patient. Me and the boys know how an idiot that man can be. Don’t give him any reason to put his feet on your head. You know?" he said to me with a smile that I immediately reciprocated.
"Mark I have some news". To my words an expression mixed with curiosity and happiness appeared on his face.
"Really? So do I! I have a proposal that has haunted me relentlessly this time of year and I want your honest opinion"
"A proposal?" I asked puzzled, "Is this about us?"
"Sure, but tell me your news."
I took a deep breath and..
"Mark in this last period I did a lot of overtime at JYP. I broke my back and I came home many times exhausted and I was very stressed. But there is a reason. Mark, now I finally have the money to come stay with you in America, in Los Angeles. I had an online interview with a well-known American company last week and they hired me. WE CAN FINALLY BE TOGETHER".
On the news, a giant smile appeared in Mark’s face. "Oh my God. Really? Baby, you didn’t have to do this for me, but... I’m gonna have you back in my arms soon. I can’t wait."
"Eh eh eh eh. That’s right. I love you so much and I missed you so much" I answered while some tears began to form in my eyes. "Now tell me what you wanted to propose."
"You don’t know that this news makes me even happier because it goes hand in hand with what I’m about to ask. My darling, I am asking you with all my heart.... Shall we have a baby together?"
Jinyoung is the perfect guy. His beauty is comparable to a prince. At first glance it may seem cold and detached, but when you know him well you understand how sweet and kind of heart he is, he takes care of the people he loves, especially his little Got7 brats.
When I met him, I worked in a small bar near his former agency. It was a winter day when a group of seven boys decided to stop for a hot drink.
Fate wanted me to serve them, and when my eyes crossed that of Park Jinyoung, my heart trembled and I blushed a lot. He gave me a sweet smile and I noticed some redness on his cheeks.
The other members probably said something to him because when I went back to the bar they started teasing him and making jokes, but they also gave him the courage to come up to me for a few words and then end the day with his phone number saved in my cell phone.
Four years have passed since that day and every day I fall in love with it more and more. I don’t know what I did to deserve such a perfect partner. He’s sweet, helpful, and whatever the problem, he’s always trying to be there for me, no matter how much work he has to do.
If during a day I feel sad and he comes back over midnight, he sleeps with me comforting me with cuddling.
Everything is perfect, indeed it seemed. In this period of health I do not feel too well, many times I find my head in the toilet intent on vomiting everything I ingest.
And so it is now. Again with your face in the toilet and vomit the breakfast just consumed while Jinyoung hold my hair in a ponytail with one hand and the other that caresses my back.
"Love. I’ve already been a week and there’s no improvement. You need to see a doctor. You keep vomiting incessantly. Do it for me please, I’m so worried."
I got up and walked to the sink to rinse my mouth. I crossed her eyes through the mirror and I could see her concern.
"Pick up the phone and make an appointment for me please." He smiled and picked up the phone in his hand.
After 20 minutes I was sitting on the couch with my cover in my pajamas. I felt really bad today and I didn’t feel like going to work.
Unfortunately Jinyoung had to leave because of the filming of the new drama "The Devild Judge" that forced him to stay away from me for a long time. Right now, I’m a fucking "cuddle researcher" because of the shitty health that forced me to sit on the couch or in bed and I missed him so much.
Jinyoung appeared dressed in a beige sweater and a classic brown trousers. Despite its simplicity, he was simply divine.
"Okay, honey. I called the doctor and you have an appointment with him this afternoon at 3:00 P.M. " He told me while he was fixing his sleeves " If you don’t feel like it you can safely call my sister for transport" said this gave me a kiss on the forehead and left for yet another day of shooting.
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During the meeting with Soo Young, one of the older sisters of Jinyoung with whom over the years I had created a strong bond. We were inside the medical office and the doctor asked me the symptoms that have afflicted me in the last week: nausea, headaches, fatigue and sometimes moments of extreme weakness.
"Miss, you and your partner have been sexually active recently," the doctor asked.
Embarrassed by the question, she nodded to him a little, especially because confused by this sudden question. In front of my boyfriend’s sister.
"I’m going to prescribe some blood tests for you to do. We think you might be pregnant."
Jackson has always been a particular boy, but in a positive sense it is clear. He has this great power to make people love him easily thanks to his charisma, his humor and his good heart. Let’s not forget that he is also a crazy hottie. There is no woman in all Korea who is not enchanted by him.
If I may be honest at first I found annoying his side a bit childish and energetic. I’m more like the typical lonely girl who prefers to be in her corner with her calmness. But since my destiny crossed with that of the famous Jackson Wang, despite the initial annoyance towards his comparisons, I began to appreciate his company.
When I found myself alone, he was always there for me. If I didn’t want to talk to anyone and listen to my music with my headphones in peace, he stood by my side in silence, but with a huge smile on his face.
Now I’m here at his brother’s house with granddaughter Aimee celebrating our fifth year in the relationship. It sounds like a stupid expression, but with Mr. Wang as my lover, time passed very quickly.
I was in the kitchen with his brother while Jackson was busy playing with little Wang. While we were busy talking about random topics my gaze focused on the two who played in the living room with the small games of Aimee.
My heart filled with love as I watched Jackson take care of his niece with great joy and affection. He had a way with kids, and I’m sure he’d make a great father someday.
Jackson’s brother noticed my distraction and when he realized that my focus was on the two Wang cubs, he smiled.
"You know, the other day Jackson mentioned something to me."
I immediately turned to hear the voice of Wang Senior and waved with my hand to continue what he was saying, especially because I was curious to know what those two had said.
"He mentioned that he is looking forward to having in his arms the mini version of you and his and how much he wants to become a father, as his heart fills with desire as soon as I see a child. I know you’re not married yet, but now that the JYP business is over...I don’t know. Maybe you can grant her wish together"
You’re in shock, Jackson wanted to have a baby with me?
The heart throbbing with emotion because I never thought I would have a child with one of the most wonderful men in the world.
Noticing my silence, Jackson’s brother gently grabbed me by the shoulder and said, "I’m not forcing you to do this. Starting a family is a very important step, but I don’t know. Seeing my brother ready and sure to have a son of his own makes me realize that he is convinced of what he wants in his life and what he wants to have together with his partner who loves more than anything else in the world. I also know that you will be two super parents" said that made me a weak smile and went to play with his daughter and brother in the living room, leaving me with my thoughts.
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Jackson and I were driving home in his car. One hand was focused on the steering wheel while the other gently caressed my thigh. But inside I had a lot of thoughts and I kept dwelling on what Jackson’s brother told me about the baby. Were we really ready? Surely Jackson would have stayed by my side and would have been a great father.
Thinking of him with a child like him made me smile.
Jackson noticed my lack of attention to him.
"What is it that troubles you? Since we left I see you thinking and head elsewhere"
I looked at it. Yes. I think I want to take that extra step of importance and...
"Jackson, are we doing something crazy?"
He looked at me confused trying to understand what I had in mind.
"Jackson... let’s have a baby?"
He suddenly stopped and immediately took my hands, staring intensely into my eyes.
"Are you serious love? Aren’t you kidding me? Because if it is so it will break my heart and I love you and having a child of ours would be a dream for me. But if you want to wait I can understand. Tell me you’re not..."
I kissed him on the lips to make him stop talking.
"Jackson I love you too. I think that although we are still young, we are more than ready for this step. I am 100% sincere and I am also delighted to ask if you will do me the honor of being the mother of your children."
Jackson gave me a big smile and with tears in his eyes he answered me.
"Well, when do you want to start rehearsing?" I whispered in his ear in a seductive voice
"Oh baby. As soon as we get home, get ready. We wouldn’t leave our bedroom until I put my son inside you."
And with that, he resumed his car at great speed.
I think it’ll be fun to make this baby.