#grieving myself

[cosmicbrainrot]

It’s so weird grieving the person I used to be. I was fun, spontaneous, I thought when I had kids I was going to be the fun adventurous mom. Now with POTS I just manage my symptoms, I’m constantly exhausted, I feel like utter shit most days out of the week. I hate this so much.

[simonsjohnny]

something i don't see lot of people talk about

coping with the death of yourself

both of my fictotypes who are 'human' have died in the source media

and i identify wholly as them and see myself as them

and i feel like nobody understands how hard it is to grasp that you are dead in some sense

perhaps not bodily/in this body

but you are dead in some way

and you have to cope with that?

i have to cope with that?

pretend with my friends like i'm just highly empathetic and attached to this piece of media? that this isn't completely devastating?

it makes me feel empty and i hate it.

i don't want to be dead anymore

[imalightningbae024]

tonight i have decided to grieve the me that i imagined i was gonna be when i was still full of hope love happy shit instead of anxiety and caffeine...its a good thing to be sad with

[poeticyearnerfriend]

I miss being able to read. Being well read. Having books as a hobby. Using it for studying. Being able to have it be a topic of conversation with others. I just really miss it.

(A dozen people have liked this in the hour and I’m so sorry y’all are going through this. Please don’t resist to reach and talk to me if you want)

(quite a few people have reblogged this now please tell me your stories)

[m-eowdy]

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