#grooming vent

[buck-forever]

[bun1cul]

Makes me sick how I'm only attracted to people who are WAY older than me, but I can't help myself cuz ever since I was little it has always been like that.

I can't see myself as an adult, I wanna keep being that vulnerable kid who was easy enough to be manipulated. I wanna be little in his arms forever, even if it's disgusting.

[sweetdhao]

YEIIIIP 🍥🍨

[angelwings17]

[unspeakableasks]

Idk if this is a safe place for this but to anyone else who was groomed online— can you look back at it and find it silly in retrospect? Like when I look back in my experience, we meant through a YouTuber roleplay on instagram 😭 she was 21 I was 12. This was 2018. She was SUCH a fucking loser now that I think back. Like this 21 year old loser spent her days talking to a bunch of 11-14 year olds (I wasn’t her only victim) and she was soo fucking insecure. Like this bitch could have 500 roleplay partners she roleplays sex with but if I had ONE other rp relationship she lost her shit. That’s what started most of our fights together (jokes on her I just made other accounts and roleplayed with other people anyways LOL.) she couldn’t handle being called “babygirl” despite that being her username and her going on about how hot it was to be called “baby girl” (I made the mistake of calling her that once “too fast” and she then accused my character of raping hers 🫩) but she would happily misgender her on and off again boyfriend.

She was also so fucking emotionally abusive and manipulative, she would post your private messages on her story (with the names attached because she wanted to send her minions of other minors she groomed to harass other people she disagreed with.) and then proceed to cry because one random person told she was fat and needed to get a job. She could tell people they deserved to die but someone told her she was fat all hell broke loose. She would retort “I do!! I’m a photographer!!” And her shit was hot garbage. It was taking a picture of a fucking puddle and calling it “photography.” She didn’t even put any effort into editing the pictures like photographers do. And her ass wasn’t actually employed by anyone and she was living at home. Like I can’t believe I let this bitch make me feel bad about myself. 😭😭 I’m a little embarrassed by it now but also, that’s the only way a loser like her had power. She had to manipulate fucking 11 years old and other little kids/teenagers to feel better about herself and that’s just funny to me retrospect. She’s such a pathetic individual.

It helped me heal a little realizing how genuinely fucking pathetic my groomer was. I hope her life is just as shit as it was (probably is because she sits on her ass all day and had no ambitions of working. I remember her mom yelling at her to get off her ass for once and clean her nasty room on a call. Hahaha) and I hope her bum ass got kicked out of her mom’s house lol.

Based and insightful

I think that's a very common sort of description for these types of groomers / predators. Cuz you're just not going to behave like that if you're an adult who's well-adjusted and likeable, if that makes sense. It feels like, by definition, they almost have to be pathetic losers with shitty lives (largely due to their own shortcomings).

[girlypuppyy]

Tumblr? , long time no see.

[1chezpop]

Time and time again the world proves my point: The moment I turn 18, everyone is going to leave me, hate me, throw me out like expired food. I have only ever been seen in a sexual light when I was a child and unexpecting. Why was I only loved and attractive when I was 11? Im 16 now, I don't want to be expiring further anymore. I don't want to get better, I don't want to heal, I don't want to live a good life, I don't want to be a good person, I don't want to let myself grow past any of this. I have to die

If I want to be easily pitied, loved, sexualized, romanticized, appreciated and be cared about, then I have to k1ll myself. It's the only way I can stay lovable in this world

Nobody cares about adults anymore, only the predators in disguise pretend to. I don't want to grow up because that means I am going to grow ugly and expired. I am already too old. If I stay alive long enough to turn 17 I am going to ruin my life twice as much. I do not deserve to live past 18.

My evidence is that: Why do you people only care about children? Everytime something bad happens to a child, you people go "oh my goodness shes only _ years old!!" It makes me feel like people will only be concerned for my health if I am a child. But I am no longer considered a child. I Am an disgusting grown, old, wrinkling, expiring, filthy 16 year old. The fact I have gotten this far in life means God wants nothing to do with me.

I cant wait to k1ll myself and stay young, lovable and cherished by the world forever, because thats just how the world is nowdays unfortunately. Theres a reason why everyone only cared about me as a child, and theres a reason why people wanted to assault me as a child. The fact that I have let myself get this old is unforgivable and I have to die for it

[k0rrkaq]

Imagine there's a cool and meaningful caption ok