Unspeakable Asks

A side-blog for @UnspeakableArchives, for any random confessions people want to send! I'll also periodically post a Daily Topic for people

[unspeakableasks]

This is a side-blog for posting the various asks that I get on my main blog, @unspeakablearchives (or you can just send the Asks here directly)

Current Topic (with the associated tag):

How old were you when you first consumed porn? And what sort of porn was it? (#first time)

Recent Topics (you can still send these if you want):

Has anyone irl ever found out about your paraphilia? How did they react? (#🌂☂️)

When did you first realize that you are a paraphile? (#self acceptance)

"What is the 'strangest' or most 'extreme' kink / attraction you have?" (#paraphile)

Older Topics (you can still send these if you want):

What is your opinion on RPF (real person fiction)? (#rpf)

"What is a moment in some media that 'awoke something in you' in a sexual sense, when you were at a young, formative age?" (#this better not awaken anything in me)

"What are your thoughts on 'trans-race' radqueers? (#transrace)

Why do you like lolis and/or shotas? (#lolisho)

[unspeakableasks]

I have many hard kinks and paraphilias, including zoophilia. Many people have trauma to go along with this, to blame it on in a way. I have no sexual trauma, little to no childhood trauma. I feel that something is simply fundamentally wrong with me, wires are crossed in my brain and I’m just not right.

Well you know what they say is the number one cause of zoophilia:

Sexy animals lol

[unspeakableasks]

For the topic of the day 🌂☂️

At some point before getting engaged or even married, due to the ramping up of online stalking groups outing me online I knew it was only a matter of time before they would find out andI had to come out to my (then partner) spouse about being a necrophile. I was terrified that they would say they wanted nothing to do with me anymore.

I was shocked by how kind and accepting they were. How they immediately comforted me and told me I could never make them upset or want to go away. That they already figured it was likely I was a necro and that they didn't see me any differently. They helped me to accept myself and not feel like I was disgusting. I will forever be thankful to them for their acceptance and kindness. Now years later we're happily married. They've never been cruel to me in any way or bigoted against me for it.

It's so scary to come out but it actually can go really well!

At most they tease me when I gush about undead characters or the objectum+necro combo where I have a specific fake plastic skeleton I find deeply attractive that they gave a little roleplay personality and stuff.

That's so heartwarming I love your spouse so much 😭

Yeah any sort of online group-based stalking stuff is super scary to me, maybe because I spend too much time online and enjoy learning about crazy sexual bullshit lol. I hope everything's okay with you now with that.

[unspeakableasks]

I started masturbating when I was 7. I did not know it was sexual. I just found out rubbing my clit felt good.

But the thing was, that while I did that I always imagined being tied up, humiliated or tortured while doing it. At times I invented scenarios where it was happening in front of an audience, often with some vague religious cult stuff going on. At times there was stuff involved in those fantasies that I now see are sexual,but when I imagined them I did not. I just had this idea that it would be thrilling if someone tied me up in a public place named and the further humiliated me by putting stuff uncertain holes.

And this main fantasy had never really changed. Not after experiencing SA or anything really. Whe I started this I knew nothing or sex or kink. I just had really weird thoughts.

-ˋˏ ༻𖤓༺ ˎˊ-

[unspeakableasks]

age regression is a nonsexual coping mechanism, most often for childhood trauma. while age regressors are completely aware of their real age, their minds are actually in a child headspace, and the separation from ageplay is important because that is a fetish. being exposed to fetish content when you don’t want to be is unpleasant normally, but in a child headspace is can be re-traumatizing/triggering. yes some age players experience regression, and/or are survivors of trauma, but they are consenting to that interaction. for a while “little space” was used by both groups, but the tags on that post are were made by/for non sexual age regressors who were trying to make a space where they could post without getting their coping mechanism sexualized, and the ask is clearly about the fetish.

tldr, with the quiet part out loud; the tag separation is for csa survivor’s mental health and safety.

I'm super unclear if I'm allowed to use the #agere or #ageplay or #littlespace tags on this post without anyone getting weird about it 😓 😮‍💨

[unspeakableasks]

I have a question (might even work as a new topic of the day? but I'll leave that up to you)

Do any of you good freaks out there have pieces of media that you choose to interpret in a paraphilia-esque way, even if it wasn't intended to be about that topic?

For me, the song "Real Men" by Mitski is like that. It's actually about the gender roles men are put under in our society, and how following them makes men worse people/partners than they would be if they were just their true selves – free from societal pressure. Or at least that's how I personally interpret it – there's many ways to read that song.

But there is this one part, at the end:

"But little boys hold me, color me, praise me

Make me feel lovely for a little while

So little boy, say you want me, 'cause, well, I can't take it

Go ahead, do it, do it"

And MAAAN if that doesn't perfectly encapsulate what initially drew me to my pedophilic fantasies.

The men in my life are all fairly stereotypical, masculine macho men. Very difficult to get along with for someone like me. Meanwhile, the "little boys" in my life have mostly been sweet, affectionate and supportive. They let me spoil them and take care of them, and in return I get cuddles and love. Like – obviously nonsexual irl, but surely it's no surprise that I'd at least fantasise about it from time to time?

Idk. I find so much comfort in that song, despite it obviously not being about pedophilia at all. 😭 I just wanna know if anyone else has something similar.

Yeah, go ahead and make that text really huge just so that every passerby online sees weirdly horny lyrics about little boys on my blog... 😅 😂 💀

But yeah that's a great question, I'll use it later for TotD, but for now this is too good to not post lol

[fakehermes-deactivated20170207]

[unspeakableasks]

Based on some previous Asks I got, I feel like my followers would be super horny for this mannequin.

[unspeakableasks]

sequel to the pussy rubix cube ask bottom surgery edition

knowing that getting a penis would not help with my lack of arousal and sexual sensitivity has veered me to consider nullification. however i still want to insert something in my vagina atleast once since theres A Few Roadblocks preventing me from doing that. also ive read ppl inserting trash in there or like. slugs and i'm interested on how that would feel. idk

-AM

I don't use the term "deeply traumatizing description" often but- 😅

[unspeakableasks]

when i first found porn i was Repulsed. I feel like that is reasonable because 1 i was like 9, 2 i was looking for funny pornhub comments and 3 Apothisexual. and i still am repulsed by regular porn sites cause they love blasting you with PIV and Oral and Anal Sex when i'm only there for the occasional pantypoop video. I started to consume porn willingly at 14 and it was through fanfiction and it was relatively vanilla. and now i still consume porn but more as an urge for grossness and not to arouse me like i did when I was 14. hell i dont even consider it porn cause it's like any other fanfic for me 🤷‍♂️ anyway

-AM

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[unspeakableasks]

i was 11 when i first consumed porn, if you can call it that. it was sexting with an 11 year old girl on insta. looking back i can tell that i wasn’t aroused and my gay was showing.

-🦴📹

-ˋˏ ༻𖤓༺ ˎˊ-

[unspeakableasks]

For the new topic >:3

I think I started when I was 13-14 on Wattpad, read smut and saw art lol, and through roleplay, didn't actually get into video porn until I was like 16-17, I've lost interest in post porn now though since I'm super picky and can hardly find what I like lmao

-ˋˏ ༻𖤓༺ ˎˊ-

[unspeakableasks]

The first time I ever saw porn I was maybe 6. I was being babysat by my uncle, and he accidentally played a porn tape when he was looking for one of my dad's movies. Had no idea what was happening since he turned it off pretty quick. It wasn't until I was much older that I realized why he rushed to turn that movie off.

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[unspeakableasks]

I have a good topic for the blog! How old were you when you first consumed porn, and what sort of porn was it? e.g. I was 12, and I read it on fanfiction.net . To this day I still prefer written, drawn or animated compared to live action because I ended up being a ginormous monsterfucker

How old were you when you first consumed porn? And what sort of porn was it?

[unspeakableasks]

https://www.tumblr.com/unspeakableasks/821769081610010624/am-here-to-explain-shota-appeal-to-me-i-like-the?source=share

There is!!! It's called roachification!! Roach kink!!

I don't know why, but I hate the sound of that word so goddamn much it is unreal and I need you all to please never use it again ☹️ 😭

[unspeakableasks]

very random and unimportant but everytime I see your pfp I read it as “wa” instead of U-A okay um bye

Hey it kinda looks like a face!

UAU

[unspeakableasks]

tw bug infestations/maggots

i think we should put maggots in weird al's pecks and watch his chest expand into a beautiful pair of tits swirming with bugs

- AM

[unspeakableasks]

Fuck off from agere tags with your ageplay posts. You have your own space and no need to invade ours. You make it so hard for those of us who don't hate you to keep defending you.

(Context: I believe he's upset about the recent Ask I got related to how age regression can help a lot with language learning. Uh, not sure why he thinks that's some sort of kinky "ageplay" but whatever)

Okay, so I can already tell that every single motherfucker on Tumblr is gonna dogpile on me just for asking but:

What is the actual difference between terms like "age regression," "ageplay," "little space," etc?