Just a life update along with my ugly mug.
The last 2 weeks have been absolutely nuts.
Worked days and overnights leaving me exhausted followed by all 5 am shifts last week.
Had a family emergency which is still working its self out. The whole situation has me so angry and frustrated and has triggered my trauma response so it's been emotionally one of my worst weeks that I've had in a long while.
None of my days off have felt like days off so I'm extremely tired but I'm so depressed I can't sleep.
I've smoked more cigarettes and have slipped up and had a few too many days of "just a few drinks to take off the edge" this past week 😔. With the drinking I'm extremely dehydrated and have been having a hard time finding the time to just drink a bunch of water. But I am proud of myself for recognizing that even though this shit is heavy I need to not be doing what I'm doing.
This week is a new week. Things will get better. They are getting better and can only continue to. In time this will all work itself out.
