Oct 3, 2017
I did not expect tonight to be what it was, but I’m so glad it happened.
seen from India
seen from United States
seen from Philippines
seen from United States
seen from Japan
seen from China
seen from Italy
seen from Argentina
seen from Germany
seen from Bhutan
seen from Pakistan
seen from United States
seen from Canada
seen from United States
seen from United States
seen from Singapore
seen from Canada
seen from Italy
seen from Germany
seen from Germany
I did not expect tonight to be what it was, but I’m so glad it happened.
Speaking of Tehillim, I keep forgetting to write about this moment of hashgacha pratis…
When I first moved here, I got into a strict schedule of learning on my morning and evening commutes. I had only just enough time to do Chitas (chumash, Tehillim, Tanya) and the amount of Rambam I was aiming to get through per day (at least one chapter and then some), so as soon as I got on the train I got down to learning. However, after I finished Rambam in February of this year, I hadn’t yet decided what to replace it with, and so just ended up with extra time on my commute. This would lead to my thinking, “I don’t have to get started right away, I have plenty of time,” which would sometimes be true, but increasingly often meant I just wasn’t doing all of Chitas by the end of the day. (Though it wasn’t the only factor in that - I also felt burnt out on Tanya due to learning multiple cycles of it simultaneously; it just wasn’t doing it for me the way it used to, especially once we got past the more easily understandable perakim.) Eventually I just blatantly l’chatchila wasn’t doing anything except chumash.
Recently I resolved to get back into Tehillim after quite some time not saying them at all. That morning I picked up my Tehillim and opened to the page where I’d last put the bookmark who knows how long ago.
It was that day’s Tehillim.
so hashgacha pratis just gave everyone here a punch in the face
Living on emunah pt 2
So a large sum of money just appeared in my bank account קא"ה" After much investigation I found it to be a legitimate deposit. I thought it was just a sign to say that the Oibeshter could change things at the last moment if he wanted, and to never lose faith. Of course I hadn’t haha, but it was a good support. So now I’m well on my way to being able to fly to the holy land! ב"ה!
Major shoutout to Hashem though because I was so tired last night that I forgot to set my alarm, and somehow I woke up exactly to the minute at the time it would have gone off.
My plan was to go to the grocery store for some things I absolutely needed before tomorrow, come back, eat dinner, print the materials I needed for tonight’s chavrusa and shiur, daven mincha, and then go meet my chavrusa. I had pretty much just enough time.
I got home from the grocery store, unpacked my items...and found a sponge in the bag that I hadn’t bought. I looked at the receipt. If they had charged me for it, well, they’d messed up, but it wouldn’t be a lot of money and it’s not as if we’d never use a sponge in the apartment, so I’d probably just let it be. Except they hadn’t. Which meant I had something I hadn’t paid for and I knew the right thing to do was return it. I also knew that if I didn’t turn back around immediately and do it right away, I’d be less likely to do the right thing. So, inwardly groaning, I went back to the store. I got into what appeared to be a very short line, but the person ahead of me had some issues and the trip back to the store to hand back this little sponge ended up eating up 20 minutes.
I hurried back home and immediately went to print my materials...and then remembered that I’ve been out of printer paper for ages and keep forgetting to buy more. And there was definitely no time to get more before I was supposed to meet my chavrusa. The last time I’d needed to print something I’d printed it on the back of other things, but I didn’t have anything left. I had previously searched everywhere for any hidden stash of paper and hadn’t found anything.
More out of desperation than any actual hope, I opened one of my desk drawers. There, only partially obscured by a notebook, was a small stack of clean, new printer paper. Baruch Hashem.
Chossid A: how does a yarmulke stay on with all this wind?
Chossid C: He must be wearing a clip
Chossid B: I don't think so. His hair is just strong. He eats a lot of hashgacha protein.
I was behind on Rambam so Hashem made me wait for a train for 20+ minutes so I’d have enough time to catch up on the commute home.