#hitting stim

[ieatratsyummy]

I often have hitting stims. And I feel like most people highlight harmful stimming like hitting in specifically instances of meltdowns.

I have hitting stims even if I feel perfectly fine. And I don't know why. I think it's because I've never been allowed to stim in healthier ways, and I've never been SHOWN healthier ways to stim that fulfills my need to hit.

Self-injuring stims don't always mean someone is over or under stimulated. And they don't only present during meltdowns/shutdowns.

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[ieatratsyummy]

I need to interact with my special interests, but sometimes I have to force myself not to interact with certain aspects.

When I watch MHA, I get so excited that I have a lot of energy build up in my system. And for most autistic folks this might come out as hand flapping or jumping. For me it comes out as hitting myself and objects.

I haven't watched My Hero in a bit, because of this issue. I have tried jumping, I've tried spinning, I've tried pacing, I've tried flapping my hands. All of it I have tried.

One of the many aspects of being autistic I really really fucking hate.