Hey guys, so I wanted to let you all in on something because I feel like as my friends/readers/followers you deserve to know
I’m not okay. Mentally. I haven’t been for a long time, but it recently started kicking up bad again. Today (august 19th) I had a mental breakdown after work. I ended up telling my manager (who I love and appreciate so much) my whole life story, including all my severely down times and the things that caused them and how I reacted
I don’t want to worry you. I want to be honest with you. And if you are someone who tells me I can reach out if I need anything, I love you and appreciate you so much, but don’t feel like I don’t trust you if I don’t reach out, it’s just very hard for me. I may be 100% comfortable with everything else, but not reaching out to you
If I do reach out, it doesn’t necessarily mean I value you more than others either. It just means in that moment, my brain went to you. So don’t be hurt if I go to someone else over you
Also, please don’t feel as though you HAVE to allow me to reach out. I know other people have their problems and can’t take on the load of others on top of theirs. I won’t be upset if you tell me “hey, Jinn, I really can’t be someone you reach out to right now, but I still care about you.” Honestly, that makes me feel better if you just tell me that than if you try and force yourself to pile my problems on top of yours
Anyways, I realized I have a lot of self projecting in my writing (specifically A Returning Echo) and I wanted to let you know that right now, I’m NOT going on a hiatus, but sometimes chapters may be delayed a day. They may be posted later in the day, when I have time to finish them. I don’t want to stop writing though, because it helps. It’s a way to get my problems out without talking to someone, but still putting them out to be heard
Again, this isn’t to worry you. I just want to be honest. You deserve honesty, we all do
I love and appreciate every single one of you!! I hope you have a good morning/day/afternoon/evening/night!! <3💜
~ Jinn the Story Teller🤍 (nickname credits to the amazing @m-o-o-n-s-g-o-o-n-s)