#i hate cptsd

[imcrayzier]

yea no sorry the sex pervert doesn’t like to be touched you can sext them tho

[imcrayzier]

can my horny teenage boy puberty phase be over with soon im not that into having sexual urges that i have to feel disgusting abt

[pyrefly-skies]

I like how that shock kinda got me frozen. Like i can physically move and I want to move and do things but all those things feels impossible all at the same time.

[diewhitegirls]

teh way i can literally just never talk to anyone again forever and burn every connection i got but i have commissions to do so i dont got time to go full schizo right now

[fleshcrave]

i forgot for awhile what it's like to live everyday feeling like a prey animal terrified of being killed by a predator. im so on edge i have so much anxiety it feels like my bones are shivering/vibrating

[september-poetry]

fear is like an animal

the gnashing teeth keep me safe

from their touch

from their "love"

was that what it was?

when you choked me

when you held me down and told me to take it

made me stay quiet

i wish you could have been scared of me back then

so i puff up my chest and i spike my clothes

hide metal in the base of my boots

i kick and scream, never composed

i'll never let you see me lose

fear is like an animal

watch it bite through your skin

do i remember how to feel safe anymore

or are the walls of this cage back again

don't be afraid, don't back down

deer in the headlights growing antlers at the sound

pushing through the flesh, hear it crack

viscerality tears through the ridges of your back

cover yourself in the skin of the wolf who loved you

take in their persona, worship whose above you

at the altar of a god, the face of a man

tell me what you know i wouldn't understand

transform my life, mould it anew

trust no one, don't let them through

fear begets man, a prodigal son

anger was made before the day was done

on the eighth day they sought out the horror they sired

it writhed and wrinkled in a sunken pile

it broke its own back just to watch it bleed

it kept itself safe from humanities greed

but we love to hurt

we love to lose

we take our own lives just to see the residue

so maybe they were right

the monster who birthed me

bury the creature who decided to unearth me

already dead once they hurt me

broken and beaten, is it worth it?

this violent dog chose a violent end

he will never be beautiful again

his matted fur caked with their blood

his sunken teeth hidden lie dormant

but they can never be undone

i'm afraid of who i have become

26 / 11 / 25

[greenbeanx3]

I keep FLINCHING I'm going to KILL MYSELF!!!!!

[flomation]

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