Okay so I recently read an article about women who are marrying themselves, making vows to be there for themselves and take care of themselves etc. And it really struck me, I am a sixteen year old girl, and my dream is to travel the world, typical right?, I think that we have such a huge planet and most people only see very little of it. I want to see it all, from the North Pole to the South Pole. Another thing that you should know about me, I am so wracked by anxiety that going to the small, unfrequented park right next to my house by myself takes at least an hour. To build myself up enough to even put on shoes. So going out into the world? Terrifying. Even though I’ve gotten a bit better about my anxiety with my recent journey into my practice of Wicca and witchcraft, I still can’t go out to a public place by myself most days. So reading about people who were vowing to themselves to “never leave myself, ask for help when I’m suffering, to look in the mirror every day and be grateful, and to give myself the incredible life I’ve always wanted” (as one persons vows went) was incredible. Every day when I leave the house I live to say “I will not let my anxiety stop me from achieving the world” and sometimes it helps. But for the most part it’s just a pretty saying. But taking the time to actually vow, to Promise to myself that I WILL accomplish my dreams, that I WILL take care of myself? That seems much more powerful, more absolute. Like a period at the end of my statement instead of an ellipses. I will. I will. So I’m thinking of doing it, maybe on my upcoming birthday, on Beltane, the sabbat of new life, of fire, passion, and rebirth. Setting up for the ceremony like a proper ritual, giving sacrifices to my gods and giving power to my vows. This is what I’m thinking.
